Chapter 14:

Why Do I Feel This?

"Theresa?", Kathelina asked, as Theresa turned towards her. "What's wrong?"

"Kat?", Theresa asked. "How long you been here?"

"Long enough.", Kathelina replied. "Theresa, honey don't let Ethan get to you."

"But, he's right, Kathelina, I still love him, I still love Ethan, I still love the heartless monster who tried to kill my husband.", Theresa confessed more tears streaming down her face.

"Theresa.", Kathelina began, trying to find words to some how reach Theresa. "Of course, you love him, he was your first love."

"No, Kathelina, I love him, I want to be with him.", Theresa confessed.

"What?", Kathelina replied.

"Kathelina, I fantasy about making love to Ethan.", Theresa confessed.

"Theresa, it's normal, to do that, because you know you're going to be with only one man the rest of your life.", Kathelina replied trying to reason with what Theresa was saying.

"Maybe, so.", Theresa replied. "I just wish it'd stop."

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"Fox!?", Sam asked, running up to him and Dylan.

"Sam?", both Dylan and Fox asked.

"Hey, Dylan… ", Sam began. "Can, I borrow, Fox a minute?"

"Sure, no problem.", Dylan replied. "I'll be seeing you man."

"Ok.", Fox replied, as Dylan walked off. "So, Samantha, what's up?", he asked turning towards her.

"Fox, I need to talk to you.", Sam replied.

"About, what?", Fox asked, noticing that she was shivering. "Here, take this.", he replied rapping his coat around her.

"Thank you.", Sam replied.

"You're welcome.", Fox replied. "So…"

"Oh, sorry, uh- uh, can we go back to my place?", Sam asked.

"Sure, where do you live?", Fox asked.

The B&B.", Sam replied.

"Ok, just let me call Resa, let her know were I'm at.", Fox replied.

"Ok.", Sam replied, handing him his coat and going inside to retrieve hers.

ring

ring

He got the voice mail.

"Theresa, hey it's me, I'm heading over to Samantha's.", Fox said simply. "I'll be home soon."

"Ready, to go?", Sam asked returning with her coat on.

"Yeah.", Fox replied. "I'll drive you."

"Are you sure, you have been drinking.", Sam scowled.

"Just one.", Fox replied. "I'm fine."

"Ok, I trust you.", Sam replied.

"Good.", Fox replied, him and Samantha got in the car and driving off in the direction of the B&B.

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"Over look my place it's a mess.", Sam told him unlocking the door.

"Don't worry about it.", Fox replied following her inside.

"Just throw your coat anywhere, I haven't got around to buy a coat rack.", Sam told him

"Ok, sure, whatever.", Fox replied, throwing his coat on the couch.

"So, do you want…", Sam replied.

"Would you quit staling and tell me what you need to talk to me about?", Fox asked grabbing her turning her to face him.

"Fox, I just wanted to spend time with you.", Sam replied.

"Really?", Fox asked. "Well, you do realize what time it is don't you?"

Sam turned to the clock. "God, I didn't realize it was this late."

"Don't worry about it.", Fox replied, sitting on the couch.

"God, you must think I'm the biggest slob.", Sam said, joining him on the couch.

"Well, this place could use some cleaning.", Fox replied, getting up and putting the empty pop bottle and chip bag in the trash.

"Hey, why'd you do that?", Sam asked. "I can clean up after myself."

"It don't look like it.", Fox replied." Wonder what pops and grandfather would say if the saw this place?"

"What my place looks like doesn't concern Alistair nor, Julian, all that matters is I keep the mansion spick and span.", Sam replied.

"And, you do.", Fox replied. "Must admit , you've got that mansion looking great."

"Thank you.", Sam replied.

"You bring a life to the place.", Fox continued, he wondered if Dylan was right, if he was falling for her?

"Thank you.", Sam replied, both of them smiling at each other.

"So, Ms. Jenkins, do you plan on moving into a bigger place, or are you going to stick with the plain and simple apartment you have here?", Fox asked.

"Here, for now, someday I do plan on moving out of here and in to a nicer place, but not now, I've got to get more grounded in this place.", Sam replied.

"Good.", Fox replied. "You plan on staying."

"You sound, happy.", Sam replied.

"I am.", Fox replied.

"So am, I.", Sam replied leaning in and kissing him, he didn't pull back, he wanted this, he waned to kiss her, he want this woman.

Sam moaned his name, pulling him even closer. 'YES, he didn't pull back.'

Finally, he was aware of what he had, done what he was doing. 'Theresa, OH My God, I almost, cheated on Theresa, the woman, I love the mother of my children, my whole universe.' "Sam, I-uh- I'm-I'm sor- sorry, this can't happen, this shouldn't have happened I love Theresa."

"Fox-I uh-…", Sam stuttered.

"This, shouldn't have happened.", Fox interrupted. "And, it won't ever happen again, this was an mistake."

"I know.", Sam replied, "it's just, I feel something whenever I'm with you and I hoped maybe you felt it too.", she wasn't exactly lying she like Fox, she wanted him.

"Sam, I'm sorry, if I wasn't with Theresa, yes I'd be with you, I wouldn't think twice about it, but, I love her very much.", Fox replied. "She's changed me."

"Fox…", Sam began.

"I got to go, I shouldn't have been here, tonight.", Fox replied. "I shouldn't have lead you on."

"But, Fox…", Sam began.

"Good- night, Sam.", Fox replied grabbing his coat and jetting off out the door.

"Congrates, Samantha.", Ethan replied, with a smirk., letting himself in.

"What are you doing here? Hasn't anyone told you it's rude to eavesdrop?", Sam asked turning to him.

1st off, we're friends with a common goal. 2nd , yes, but, I couldn't resist seeing my brother try to resist you.", Ethan replied. "has anyone ever told you, you are extremely sexy and any guy would kill to get you between there sheets."

"Ethan, we're not friends, not one bit, I wouldn't be anywhere near you if it wasn't for our circumstance and don't even try to come on to me, cause I'm not interested.", Sam replied.

"So, does that mean, my sheets stay cold another night?", Ethan asked.

"Well, if you want warms sheets by a electric blanket.", Sam replied.

"Ha, ha, very funny.", Ethan replied. "But, I wouldn't cross me, because I can go to Fox tell him everything and he'll believe me."

"No, he won't.", Sam replied. "He isn't fond of you."

"But, blood's thicker than, whores and he'll know I'm telling the truth.", Ethan replied. "Plus, I have proof."

"Proof?", Sam repeated. "What kind of proof?"

"Pictures of you with Alistair.", Ethan replied taking them from his coat pocket. "Audio conversations, between the two of you.", Ethan replied watching as she became nervous and began to get tense. "Telephone conversations, between you two."

"You, bastard, you're…", Sam began.

"Blackmailing you, reasoning with you?", Ethan offered. "Listen, Sam, I like you…"

"Like?", Sam huffed. "You're blackmailing me."

"No, look at this way, you be nice and I'll keep quite.", Ethan replied.

"Be nice?", Sam asked. "What do you mean, by that?"

"Go, out with me on a date.", Ethan replied. "Let me romance you."

"Sleep with you?", Sam asked.

"No, only if you see fit, just give me a chance.", Ethan replied.

"What about Theresa?", Sam asked.

"Well, if I like you, I'll keep you as a friend.", Ethan replied.

"You, mean a mistress.", Sam replied.

"I didn't say that.", Ethan replied.

"But, you sure as hell meant it.", Sam replied.

Flashback

"Honey, you're beautiful.", the man told her, he'd took a admiration to her all evening, never leaving her side.

"Thank you.", Sam replied, she was around 16 and the man was in his late 20's or early 30's.

"Can, I get you another drink?", the man asked.

"Sure.", Sam replied.

"Two brandy's.", he told the bartender, Sam watched as the bartend did as he was told, then left to attend to another costumer.

"Drink up, sweetheart.", the man told her gulp his drink straight down.

She proceeded to do this same letting the brandy only run over her tongue and then down her throat slightly burning her throat.

The man motioned for another and she did the same, it was like he was getting more as she drunk.

The next thing she knew was she was in a hotel room snuggled up to the man, not even knowing ho he was.

"Honey.", the man began.

"What happened?", Sam asked.

"We made love, my pet.", the man told her.

"Get off of me.", Sam screamed, he took her virginity, he'd corrupted her.

"You weren't say that last night.", the man told her. "You were begging for more."

"You're lying.", Sam told him.

"I've got it all on tape. I'm going to make a killing off this one.", he boasted. "If your good and agree to be friends, I'll give you a profit."

"Ok.", Sam replied. "Deal.", she found herself saying, besides she need the money.

"Good.", the man told her see you tonight. "sexy."

End of Flashback

"I know what you want and don't try to sugar coat things.", Sam exclaimed. "You made it perfectly clear you want me in bed."

"Sam, I'm not, going to blackmail you into sleeping with me.", Ethan replied. "I'm not a pig."

"Well, I know guys, they'll do anything for a piece.", Sam replied.

"I'm not, like that.", Ethan reassured her. "I like you, I want to get to know you better."

"What about the comment you made earlier?", Sam asked. "would you like to get me between the sheets?"

"Yes, but, I wouldn't never force you to.", Ethan replied. "I know, you've heard all this awful, terrible stories about me, and yes they're true, but I'd never rape a woman."

Sam looked at him, she knew he was telling the truth. "Ok, I'll go out with you."

"Good.", Ethan replied. "Tomorrow at 7."

"I-I uh-I'm sorry.", Sam replied. "For uh-accusing of such a thing."

"Apologue accepted.", Ethan replied.

"Good Night, Ethan", Sam replied, walking him out he door.

"Night.", Ethan replied. "Sweet Dreams."

"Thank you,.", Sam replied.

"No, Thank you, for looking past my reputation, past my past.", Ethan replied.

"Well, we've all done things we're not proud of.", Sam replied.

"Not, you, you're perfect,", Ethan replied.

"I'm not, perfect.", Sam replied. "Far from."

"Either, way, you're such a great person.", Ethan replied.

"Good bye, Ethan.", Sam interrupted. "Have a safe drive home."

"Bye.", Ethan replied, getting in his car and driving off in the direction of the mansion.

Sam sighed, what had she done, she was letting two wonderful guys fall for her, think she was greater than what she was.

Spoilers for Ch 15:

Fox and Theresa decided to go out for dinner and a romantic evening, as does Sam and Ethan, do they end up at the same place?

Kathelina and Dylan argue, about what?

Rachel calls Marcus, how does he react to her call?