Chapter 2

School dragged by, but I hardly noticed. It was lunch right now.

"Libs?"

I jerked my head up and looked around.

"What?"

It was only Cindy.

"Wanna come with me and Jimmy to Retroland tonight?"

I shook my head.

"Nah, I gotta finish a book report for Ms. Lorenz. It's due this Friday."

She nodded and turned back to Jimmy.

I sighed again and took my iPod Nano out of my backpack. Turned it on and went to the song, 'Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off', by Panic! At The Disco. It was my favorite song.

Then I took out my book and began reading.

"Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed?
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?
Then think of what you did, and how I hope to God he was worth it
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch your skin"

I turned the page. It was a pretty short book. Plus, the words were HUGE.

"I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie, you had me
Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat
No no no, you know it will always just be me"

I glanced at Jimmy. He was laughing as Cindy said something to him.

"Let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster!"

I sighed and went back to my book.

"So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close?"

I took off my earphones as Jimmy approached me. Please don't ask how I seemed to know this without looking up.

"Hey Jimmy," I said breathlessly.

He nodded in my direction.

"Did you finish the book report for Lorenz yet?"

I shook my head.

"Okay, whatever."

Jimmy shrugged and just waved at meas he walked back to Cindy. He had a different period with Ms. Lorenz than me.

I put my earphones back on. It was on a different song now. It was another one of my favorites, 'Build God, Then We'll Talk'.

It's these substandard motels on the (lalalalala) corner of 4th and Freemont Street
Appealing only because they are just that un-appealing
Any practiced catholic would cross themselves upon entering
The rooms have a hint of asbestos and maybe just a dash of formaldehyde
And the habit of decomposing right before your very lalalala eyes."

I sighed. I closed my book and looked at Cindy and Jimmy again. They had the perfect relationship. Why was I so focused on breaking them up?

"What a wonderful caricature of intimacy
Inside, what a wonderful caricature of intimacy

There are no...
raindrops on roses and girls in white dresses
Its sleeping with roaches and taking best guesses
at the shade of the sheets before all the stains
and a few more of your least favorite things

Raindrops on roses and girls in white dresses
and it's sleeping with roaches and taking best guesses
at the shade of the sheets before all the stains
And a few more of your least favorite things."

I felt like talking about a few more of my least favorite things. I just sighed. I curled up the cord of the earphones and stuck my iPod in my backpack.

'Stand up! Lunch is over!'

I screamed this at myself and at Jimmy and Cindy in my mind.

I sighed again. 'I swear, my throat is going to dry out one of these days from all the sighing.'

Walking over to the class I had next, I was interuppted by Kelly, one of the girls in my Home Economics class.

"Uh...Hi, Kelly. What do you want?"

She narrowed her eyes at me and asked, "You like someone, don't you?"

"Uhh...Sure.."

Kelly cocked her head to the side. She appeared to be focusing on me profusely.

"Who?"

"What's with the sudden interrogation?"

"Just tell me."

I shrugged.

"I have to go."

I tried to duck around her, but she blocked my way again.

"Just tell me."

I shoook my head.

"No way. You want to know why? One, I don't want to tell you, and Two, I can't tell you."

Kelly scoffed and rolled her eyes at me.

"Yeah right, you can tell me. And I think I have a right to know."

I looked at her quizzically.

"Since when do you have a right to know who I like?"

"I'm your friend, right?"

I nodded slowly, not knowing how this would make her have a right to know who I liked currently.

"So I should be told who you like."

The bell rang.

"Damn...Now get out of my way Kelly, I'm already late, and I don't want to be late any more than I already am."

She still wouldn't get out of my way.

"Why won't you move?"

"Just because."

"Fine. I'll tell you---"

Her eyes brightened.

"--But not now."

Kelly just slumped back down.

"Fine. But even if you don't keep your promise, I'll find out somehow."

I sighed.

"Fine, whatever. Just get outta my way."

She got out of my way.

"Just wait. I'll find out."

And as I walked, I could feel her eyes on the back of my head. But when I turned around, she was gone.

"Whatever..."

I had no one to tell, so my secret was safe. I mean, my best friend was the one Jimmy was going out with. How could I ask her for advice? That'd be a weird conversation.

"Hey Cindy, I have to get something off my chest."

"Go ahead. I mean, We ARE best friends, right? And best friends never keep secrets from each other."

I would nod.

"Well, the truth is, I fell in love with Jimmy after you started going out with him."

She would gape.

"But you're my best friend, and his girlfriend. So, I can't steal him from you. That'd be just MESSED UP."

She would slap me. I would punch her back. Cindy would kick me. Kick back.

Weird conversation, no?

A/N: Second chapter! Whoo hoo! And I finished 'Addicted To You'. Whoo hoo!

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