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They were all sitting around having drinks and pleasant conversation. Talking about business, the trip, and of course Yale. Then it came up the topic they had been treading.
"So Rory, Logan how are you to doing. Any big plans coming up that we should know about?"
Before they had to answer the maid came in to tell them dinner was ready.
They all got up and Emily went to go check on something in the kitchen while Richard went to go make a quick call. Leaving the three of them standing there.
"Rory you don't have to tell them we can just say what they want to hear and avoid letting them into details." Logan said knowing she was in pain thinking about what could have been.
"Yes lets try to avoid the subject completely. Just dodge it when ever it comes up." She said smiling trying to make her smile but not working.
"You both stop it. Its ok I don't plan on telling them and if it comes up we will tell them we are thinking about the future and hopefully that will end that topic for the night. I am fine really. Now lets go set down before we get yelled at."
Rory headed in taking her seat while Lorelai and Logan gave each other knowing looks that she was not ok and formulating a plan to stay off the subject all night.
They both soon joined Rory and sat there for a minute waiting to the Grandparents.
Emily and Richard seemed to enter the room at the same time and apologizing.
"So diner smells great mom." Lorelai said
"Thank you, we are having lamb. I hope you all like lamb?"
Everyone nodded in agreement
"So Rory Logan what plans do you to have for the future. I mean you have been together for over a year and have known each other over two. Plus you to live together. Do you plan on getting married? And what about kids you both like and want kid don't you?" She looked over at Richard " Wouldn't a baby be beautiful with her blue eyes and his blond hair Richard. Just imagine a little girl or boy walking around with that and how smart it would be."
The whole time Rory was trying to hold back tear but as soon as she started to picture the baby it was to hard and a tear slipped down. She quickly whipped it away hoping no one had noticed and just nodded her head and smiled at the idea of there being a baby like that.
"Mom lets not put pressure on the two about kids. They are young and happy now."
"Lorelai they live together and Logan is a very important young man and will be taking over the company soon. He has to choose a wife soon. And there is nothing wrong with asking if they plan on having Kids. It is a very special and happy experience. Being a mom and having some one love you like that. And being a dad. Kids are wonderful."
That was it for Rory as soon as she heard that tear were falling uncontrollably.
She quickly excused herself from the table and ran to the bathroom. Logan soon got up and ran after her.
"What was that all about." Emily asked confused.
"God Mom you just had to dig didn't you." Lorelai said getting up and running after the two.
Rory locked herself in the bathroom and broke down into tears on the floor.
Logan knocked on the door softly hoping she would answer.
"Rory please open the door."
"No just go away."
"Rory come on I can leave you here like this and I wont."
"Logan I lost our baby. I was not able to give you our baby the one thing only I can give you. How can you even look at me cause I cant!" Rory said between sobs and breaking Logans heart with every word.
"Rory how can you think that. You mean the world to me. No one else can make me as happy as you do. You lost the baby will not change that."
Lorelai soon walked u behind him. She went to the door.
"Rory its mom please open the door."
Rory sat there crying. She was devastated she only wanted Logan and hoped he would never hate her for losing their baby. She slowly got up and unlocked the door and ran straight into his arms. He immediately wrapped his arms around her lifting her off the ground never wanting to let go.
"I can't do this without you Logan."
"I am not going anywhere. No one can take me away from you." He said now looking at her "You are he one for me Rory and nothing will ever make me fell differently."
"Really?' she said smiling
"Yea. Really" he said giving her a kiss with her still off her feet.
Lorelai stood there knowing this one the man for her daughter and she was happy.
Logan put her down and she walked over to her mom giving her a hug and saying" Thank you". They stood there holding each other. Her mom meant everything to her and her liking Logan was very important.
"We should probably get back in there before they do something like call the cops." Lorelai said looking at Rory.
"Rory.
"Yea I guess it is time they new."
"Are you sure." Logan asked, "Because we can always make up some lie." He said with a smirk on his face.
"No I need to tell them. Its time I let people know."
They nodded and slowly walked in.
"Are you ok." Emily asked
"Yea grandma I will be, but I have to tell the both of you something." She sat down and grabbed Logan's hand. "Grandma Grandpa two and a half mouths ago I found out I was pregnant. I told Logan and we were really happy. I began working really hard at school trying to get the whole year in, in 6 months. Well about a week ago I had a miscarriage caused by too much stress on the baby." Tears started rolling down her face.
"Oh Rory we are so sorry. Is there anything we can do."
"No I just need to be with Logan and mom. Do you think we can go I need to get some sleep."
"Yes of course, take all the time you need." They said together
"Thank you." Rory said getting up and hugging her grandma then her grandpa.
The three of them walked out surprised that they got out so easily.
"Well maybe you should have miscarriages more often or say you did if it gets us out like that.'' Lorelai said
"Mom that is not funny, but I will drag the excuse out as long as I can." Rory said happy to have a couple weeks off.
"Well I m going to go surprise Luke come home soon. We need to have mommy daughter time, and Logan you are welcome to come always." Lorelai finished.
"Yea I will come out tomorrow if I fell ok, is that soon enough for you." She said giving her mom a kiss on the check.
"Yes, perfect. I will see you then. Love you kid." She said getting into the car
"And have lots of coffee mom." She said yelling a little
"Will do and you two be good tonight and do lots of dirty.'' She shut the door of the car and drove off.
Rory turned to face Logan and gave him a small kiss, " Well mommy says." She said taking his hand and pulling him to the car. They got in and drove off.
"Ace are you sure you are ok. Why don't we go away next weekend and have some fun and time away. Or if you just need to get away I can book you a nice weekend with you at a spa or you and your mom." He asked hoping to help her. He loves her so much seeing her break down the way she did tonight and other nights he was willing to do anything to help her get as this.
"Logan that's really sweet but I cant ask you to do any of that you already paid for the in home nurse and everything."
"Rory I want to do this for you and I have more then enough money to pay for a little trip to a spa and or trip to paradise without the smallest dent being seen. I could buy you paradise, a small island without a dent being seen in my wallet. Come on you need a break. Why don't you and your mom spend the day at a spa together tomorrow." He said smiling hoping she would say yes.
"Ok that would be nice. But when do I get to spend away time with you. Just the two of us for the weekend and no one else." She asked taking him hand and entangling her fingers with his.
"Well we can go away next weekend, just the two of us." He said smiling "But I also think you need some time to be alone just you. Let you think and breath."
"Yes I do, I will take Monday off and go to a get away spa on my own and have space and time."
"Ok good, I will book everything tomorrow."
When they got home Rory ordered take out and Logan picked out a movie. They were sitting on the couch cuddled together watching 'The Office'. "So did you want a boy or a girl." Logan asked running his hand through her hair.
"I just wanted a healthy baby.'' She responded looking down at her feet.
"Rory we will try again. Trust me I don't want to give up that easily." Kissing the top of her head. "Now I know you had to have some kind of preference to one or the other."
"Maybe, I don't know I just wanted a baby. After I got over the fear of 'omg I am having a baby' I just thought about me being a mom and having a little baby. I was thinking about names though." She said now smiling at him.
"Really? Care to share?" he said pulling her closer to him
"Well, for girl I was thinking Payton Wyatt, well boy or girl, and Sarah Parker, or Maple. And for a boy Logan Christopher or Kegen.
"I love them all though I never expected you to name our kid after me."
She laughed, "Hey I love your name. And put yours and my fathers together I think it makes a pretty good name."
"Yea it does." She slowly moved over to straddle him. She gave him a kiss and put her hands around his neck. After a minute she pulled up, "I love you." Before he was able to say anything back she brought her lips back down to his. He pulled her hips to his and slid his hands up her back taking her shirt off. He went to her neck and started kissing it while she unbuttoned his shirt. He bought his hands to her breast and she let out a moan and he started taking off her bra when there was a knock at the door.
"The food is here." She said reluctantly getting up and going to the dresser and pulling out a T-shirt and throughing it on, then went over to him putting her hand out asking for money or his wallet. He gave her the whole wallet and she hurried over to answer the door. She opened the door to see the man "How much?''
"34.47"
She opened the wallet and grabbed a 50 and noticed a picture of a sonogram that she had gotten just a couple days before she lost it. She didn't realize how long she had been standing there and man was trying to give her back the change. "Miss"
She jolted her head up to look at him. "Oh yea just keep it." She said taking the food and closing the door. She stood there staring at it for a little while longer before Logan came over to her.
"Ace what are you doing.'' She looked up at him
"I didn't know you had this picture. I thought I had misplaced a copy when I was looking for it. You kept it with you?"
Logan was not sure if she was made or happy. She looked like she was going to cry but at the same time not. He didn't what to say. He opened his mouth but no words came out.
"Logan it's ok. I'm glad you kept a picture with you." She said going over to hug him. He wrapped his arms around her holding her as long as he could. She gave give a squeeze before letting go.
"So I'm starving, lets eat." She said grabbing the bag of food and going to the kitchen.
When she put the food down she felt his hand on her hip and he spun her around backing her up to be leaning on the counter. He re-removed the shirt and started putting kissing down her chest and back up to her neck. His hot breath put chills down her spin. He lifted her up so she was now sitting on the counter putting his lips back to hers. He slid his hands up her back to her bra and took it off. She begun to finish unbuttoning his shirt wanting nothing put him. He picked her up placing her on the bed and dragged his hands to her hips slowing pulling down her skirt. Then placed his lips on her stomach kissing her as he went back up to meet her eyes. " I love you Rory, and only you. Not matter what happens you are mine and I am all yours, no one else can have me but you." She smiled
" Well good because I want you now. And I only want you Logan no one else."
She pulled him down so her lips could meet his. She placed her hands on his lower back and slowly dragged her fingers up and down. He pulled away and started placing love bits on her neck. She let out a moan as his hands wondered to her thigh up to her waist and on to the side of her breast. It was going to take time for her and him to get over the loose of the baby but this always helped. They needed each other and nothing would break them apart.