Chapter Fourteen

Speaking

Finally Severus broke the kiss and my heart pounded in my chest as tears formed renewed. This wasn't right. I didn't deserve him. I had let someone other than him use my body for pleasure. I looked away from him as my cheeks burned with shame.

"I can't do this to you Severus. You deserve so much better than me. Look at me I'm so dirty." I was sobbing helplessly now, "I'm a filthy whore." Severus cringed at my words. He took my face between both of his hands. Looking straight into my eyes.

"Don't you ever say that. Not ever." He kissed me softly. Once I had settled he pulled me closer to him so that I was almost sitting in his lap. He stroked my hair and touched my cheek gently. I sighed and smiled to myself. This was the man I had been waiting for. As he stroked my hair and softly whispered to me, I allowed his soft hands and words to lull me to sleep.

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When I awoke next I sat up and stretched. I looked around the room but couldn't find Severus. My heart danced wildly in my chest. Beating like thousands of little dancers in a dance room made for hundreds. I stood and immediately noticed how stiff I was. My whole body burned, and I noticed that I was extremely tender from Karkaroff's escaped. I walked out into the living area and seen that Severus sat on the couch with my father. Dumbledore smiled.

"Speaking of whom." I smiled and walked directly over to Severus seating myself on his lap. He happily wrapped his arms about my waist and kissed my neck.

"I knew a good night's sleep would allow you to feel better." I blushed looking away from my father and straight into Severus' eyes.

"I still feel extremely dirty and used." Dumbledore cleared his throat and opened his arms as an invitation to me. I moved from Severus' lap and into the arms of my father. He held me close to him and his voice was like a warm blanket comforting me.

"Jasmine, Sweetie, Time will heal this. As for now, allow Severus to help you. Let him guide you through this dark time and you'll see that soon everything does get better." He smiled and kissed my forehead. "As for now?" He looked at Severus with a wink and then looked back at me. "Go and shower, then you and Severus may have the rest of the afternoon to yourselves. I would however like to see you at the ball tomorrow evening." Father helped me stand and I hugged him one last time before taking my leave to shower.

"What do I do Dumbledore. She scared me out of my wits last night. I have never heard her talk like that before." Severus sighed when he heard the door to his bathroom shut. He rested his elbows on his knees and then his head in his hands. Dumbledore sighed.

"She has lost trust in men. All men." Dumbledore stared at Severus before continuing. "My best advice to you my friend, is to not touch her unless she asks it of you. If you force her it could only lead to worse results. She has been traumatized and is scared. Be her guide, enlighten her. Make her laugh." He sighed as he stood. "I'll take my leave, both of your classes for today have been covered. I've arranged for a carriage to take you into Hogsmeade today." Severus stood with the headmaster now and walked him to the door in silence.

"What shall we do there?" He asked quietly opening the door for Albus. Albus turned once in the hallway and gave a half grin to Severus and chuckled.

"Whatever you feel right." He said the grin turning into a full out smile. "Just heed my advice. Let her decide how far she is ready to go. Should the option come up." With that Dumbledore left and Severus shut the door behind him. He then sat in his over stuffed arm-chair in front of the fire.

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I got out of the shower and wrapped the towel around me. I sighed and ran my hand through my silky hair. Severus used the best shampoo. I walked out into the living area and smiled. Severus was slouched in his chair eyes closed and snoring slightly. I rolled my eyes and walked over to him and straddled his legs. I leaned down and kissed his lips gently only to find that he kissed back. He opened his eyes which went wide immediately.

"What are you doing?" He asked. Raising an eyebrow he ran a hand up my arm to my shoulder. "You're dripping on my leg." He stated plainly and I had to smile at that. He rolled his eyes and kissed me gently.

"I didn't hear anyone out here so I came out to see what you were doing." He smiled and I looked around. "When did Father leave?" I asked innocently as I brought myself up to straddle his lap on the big old chair.

"About 20 minutes ago, and you are soaking my lap." He smiled and ran a hand up and down my back. I smiled and clutched the towel to me.

"Hey now!" I squealed. He smiled as my face turned beat red. He wrapped his strong arms around me and I wrapped my legs about his waist and he carried me to the bed. I had forgotten about the towel and it had fallen off sometime during the walk. Severus lay ontop of me and kissed passionately. He pulled away and looked down at me. I blushed and looked away. Severus kissed my cheek and smiled softly.

"You're not ready?" He asked softly. A tear crept to my eye. I shook my head.

"I'm sorry I can't do this yet." He smiled got up and moved to his dresser pulling out clothes for me to wear to that day. He laid them on the bed and looked back at me. I looked into his deep dark black eyes and I couldn't help but wipe another tear away.

"Don't worry about it. I mean it." He said and came over to hug and kiss me before leaving me to change. I stood got dressed and moved back out to the living area. He was sitting at his desk, "Are you ready?" I gave him a questioning look

"Ready for what?" I asked. He stood from his desk and walked over to me wrapping a possessive arm about my waist.

"Dumbledore arranged for a carriage to take us into Hogsmeade today." I gulped, but smiled and nodded. If he felt good enough to go there then so did I.

HEY WHAT HAPPENED... I was getting all these nice reveiws and like... you stopped? Uh Hello... does no one read this story anymore.. maybe I should stop writing it.. ur desicion.