AN: This is just another very short filler on feelings. And this chapter is set a few months after the party in chapter four. So it's before Piper get pregnant. You all understand that? Good. And I'm focusing on Nathan in this chapter. Okay? Here it is. Chapter seven.
Disclaimer: I own zero of the characters that appear in the Charmed TV Show. And the lyrics that appear at the start of this chapter are from an awesome song called "2AM (Breath)" by Anna Nalick.
Nathan stood in the bathroom, looking in the mirror. Is this what I've become now? His eyes were bloodshot, and hard dark rings around them. His teeth were yellowing, the after effects of the nicotine. He hadn't shaved for a week and my skin had a slight grey tint to it. Nathan splashed myself with ice-cold water and walked out. Not being able to handle his own reflection.
He hated the mirror right now. It didn't lie to him. It gave you back exactly what it saw. And Nathan hated that. He didn't want to know the truth about what he had turned into. He just wanted to stay inside my own little world, where everything was fine.
Yeah right.
Everything was so messed up right now, and everyone could feel it. He threw himself onto his bed and it rose and fell with his wait. How did things get this bad? He almost laughed out loud then. There was no point denying it when he knew exactly how things got this way.
Dan.
The insane hurricane of drugs, sex and partying had been fun at first, but now it was getting old. Just the same thing over and over again. Dan was holding up just fine, none of this was getting to him, but Nathan.
All his best friends were worried about him. But he had always thrown it back into their faces, making it so he didn't know them anymore. He had even alienated his very own brother. How was that for a good guy?
There was a soft knock at the door and Nathan closed his eyes. He knew who it would be. The last person he wanted to see right now.
"You in there Nath?" It was Rick. Nathan briefly considered keeping his mouth shut but this was a convocation he needed to have.
"Yeah." Is that really how I sound now? Cracked and empty his voiced sounded around the room as the door was pushed open.
"I was hoping to find you here…" Rick stared at his brother and best friend with wide eyes. He turned his head not being able to look at him any longer and continued, "I wanted to talk to you…"
Nathan nodded and Rick sat on the bed next to him, looking out of the window.
"I'm worried about you Nath." That was all he said but tears stung in Nathan's eyes. "I'm worried about the way you're acting. It isn't right." Nathan nodded and let his brother carry on, "Why are you doing this?"
Rick was barely audible as her asked the part but Nathan heard him.
"I don't know." He stopped to shake his head and wipe away the forming tears, "I just don't know."
Rick looked at him for a few seconds before walking out for the room.
.xXx.
Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button boy
So just cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe
.xXx.
AN: Yeah, I know this story isn't making next to sense to a lot of you right now, but you should be able to get the gist really. This is awesome; I'm about 6 chapter ahead of myself in writing this. Whoot! Go me! Ok, R&R please.