AN: Chapter 10. This is set at the same time as chapter 8 was? You understand all the time jumps. Sorry, if you don't but it really is the best way to get it all in. For me it is anyway. Ok, this chapter is again short but 11 is going to be longer I hope to make up for it. This is just another short filler on feelings. I love writing them.

Disclaimer: None of the characters belong to me. None of lyrics that appear here too do either. They belong to t.A.T.u, Blink 182 and Anna Nalick.

Piper sat the end of her bed, watching with sad eyes as Prue played with Jake at the other end. She hadn't seen her in a month, the last time she was at Jake's first birthday. Jake birthday. Oh god. Piper caught herself just before the tear collected under her eyelashes and looked back over at her sister and her son.

"He's so big!" Prue cooed, making baby noise at Jake, who was laughing adorably back at her.

"Yeah." Piper nodded and touched his chubby little hand lovingly. Staring down at the bed.

"You miss Leo?" Prue asked, wary of her words. She knew the whole story with him. She had seen Piper cry over it all. Well, she didn't know about the latest incident with him…

Piper nodded silently, as memories of that night came back to her. She closed her eyes to try and shut the memories out, but they just exploded behind her eyelids even more violently.

.xXx. I keep closing my eyes

but I can't block you out .xXx.

The note was in the top drawer of her desk; underneath countless textbooks and stationary, but it was still there. Sometimes when she looked in the direction, she could feel it burning her. Piper knew that she just throw it away, bury it away in her memory and move on. But somehow she couldn't. It was Leo.

You need to move on with life. If your still stuck on me, you'll never be happy. I want you to be happy. I never wanted anything else. So forget about me.

How could she move on and be happy without him. They were talking about the love of her life, even though she only was 18, she knew love. Leo was love. He always had been, even back when they were just "friends".

Looking out of her window, from her bed. Everything was dark outside, except for the harsh, orange street lamps. She rolled over onto her side, trying to get to sleep. Knowing that it wouldn't be possible.

Leo.

.xXx. I cannot sleep,

I cannot dream tonight.

I need somebody .xXx.

Every now and then, Piper would sit and stare at the phone for a while. Fighting in her head whether she call Dan or not. Just to tell him about Jake. But in the end she never did. It was pointless. He wouldn't care. He'd just pass the "blame" to her anyway. It would be better for Jake if Dan didn't know.

One time a few weeks from Jake's first birthday, Phoebe caught her staring; she always knew what was going on in Piper's head. They were so much closer then her and Prue were.

"If you want my advice…" Phoebe started and Piper looked away from the phone. She always wanted advice. "Don't call him. It'll save more heartache in the long run." And then she walked out again, leaving Piper on her own.

Piper watched the phone for a few more seconds before walking over to it and dialling another number instead. One that never let her down. Not once. One that would bring more heartache than she though possible.

.xXx. There's a light at the end of the tunnel,

you shout,

coz your just as far in

as you'll ever be out .xXx.

AN: Yep, short and pretty crappy but the next one will be better. Fingers crossed, I'm going to go and write that now.

Ok, I have this idea in my head. I'm not sure this is going to be much longer than around 20 chapters. But I have ideas for a sequel. Would you like that? It's not certain that, that's what going to happen but if you like that idea, say so in a review.