Oh, I´m very very sorry for posting two same chapters-I didn´t have a clue. I guess I was in a hurry. Orlando crazy, thanks for noticing. Here is the real chapter 12. and please don´t you be mad…
CHAPTER 12
KATE: From day one I was...I felt something for you...I didn't know how to describe it...I thought it was just a temporary feeling…..that it would go away. But it didn't. And the day that…that you helped me get Tom's plane was difficult for me, not just because of memories, but also because the look on your face when I told you that...
JACK tired: Kate, you already told me that...You already told me all about Tom….
KATE: I know. I´m just trying to explain how it felt, knowing that I will never be worth of you, that you will always be better than me…. He makes a gesture as to say something, but she stops him with one look into his eyes… I was afraid of how would it be the next day, but you...you acted as usual and I was thankful to you for that….
Five days ago I was tired, confused and scared; and then you came in, and I kissed you...I don't regret it, I would do it again, but I had to push you away… I had to run away because it´s the only thing I´m good at - running...I thought that I destroyed everything between us and I needed to be alone...And that night, when I came to you, came to your tent, you were looking so peaceful, and I knew that you would be better without me. I just wanted...Just wanted to kiss you one last time...And then you woke up...grabbed me and with that look on your face you kissed me...And I figured that I would never be able to get you out of my heart...And than we...we….
JACK: Kate, it´s okay. I'm not angry with you...I shouldn't have pressed you, you weren't ready, I...
KATE: Don't interrupt me now, or I won't be able to finish. He sees a tear in her eye... I wanted to surrender to you; I wanted to make love with you...It´s just... She took a deep breathe and continued, now looking in the distance……… I was twelve years old... He looked at her, surprised...I was living with my mother and my stepfather... I had a little sister, step-sister actually...Her name was Leni, Leonor actually, but we called her Leni...She was beautiful, you know: long curly hair and all that...My stepfather was not a good man, he was drinking and stuff, but my mother loved him...Loved him so much to have Leni with him...I thought I would hate the baby when she was born, but I couldn't...I fell in love with her the moment I saw her...When she was bigger, every night I would go to her room, reading her stories and trying to make her smile,...pretending not to hear all the screams and fights that was going on in my mother's room...Jack looks at her sadly. Kate takes a pause, lost in her memories....Anyway, my mother got a new job, and she was pretty much all the day at work, and that made Pete, my stepfather, even more angrier because he didn't have his punching bag anymore...One day I was looking after Leni, when I heard a car stopping outside...It was him...I told Leni to go to her room, to play with her dolls...I thought I would get him to sleep, at least until I take Leni outside...He was smelling bad, he had a bottle in his hand...I helped him to enter the house and put him on the bed...I turned to go away, but...but he...he...
At this point Jack started to understand what she was talking about...He pulled her closer to him, put his hands around her face, lifted her head a bit and then looked into her eyes
JACK: Kate?
She started crying, trembling ...After few minutes she concentrated, and continued
KATE: He pushed me on his bed and he...he...He hurt me...That's why I ran away that night ... I wanted to make love with you, I really did, but I... Jack hugged her, not knowing what to do to make her feel better...to make her believe that it wasn't her fault.… I remembered that night and I needed to run away…
JACK: Ssssssh, it´s okay, you´re with me now, I won´t let anyone hurt you again...