AN: This chapter wasn't really too hard to write, it sort of just spilled out. I re-wrote it a few times, but nothing drastic changed. The length of this one is like, awesome too. I'm so proud of myself. D. I hope you guys like it. Chapter 19:

Ok and jut for clarification, that I was asked for, The last chapter was present day, as is this one. The italics are flashbacks.

Piper stared in her bedroom mirror and glanced over her appearance for the twentieth time that night.

"What about the blue top?" She asked Paige as she spun around and walked back to her bed, which had clothes strewn all over it.

"You look fine Piper." Paige assured her and jiggled Jake on her hip.

"But I want to look…" She stared, pushing long strands of hair back out of her eyes as she bent down. "I don't know…" Paige nodded.

"You want to look, gorgeous, sexy, so that he can't take his eyes off you?" She laughed and Piper laughed too, but nodded.

"Yeah, like that." Paige set Jake down in his crib and sat on the bed next to Piper.

"It's Leo Piper. He'll think of you like that any day…" She paused and brushed a hand across her best friends cheek, "He loves you sweety."

Piper nodded and smiled. Paige was right. Leo loved her, no matter how much she had hurt him he still loved her. Even when they weren't together, he was always there for her. In ways no one else ever was. He had helped so much with Jake.

He was always her saviour.

She had let him in.

One last look in the mirror and she smiled back at herself. I'm ready. She grabbed her purse and kissed Jake on the top of his head.

"Be good baby. Bye Paige!" And she out of her bedroom door, in time to hear the shaky knock on her front door.

Leo.

.xXx.

He was more nervous than he could remember being as he wiped his clammy palms on his jeans. Keep cool Leo, it's Piper. You know the girl you've known since you were twelve.

Breath in and out. Calm down.

He smiled to himself as memories of their first official date ran though his mind. He was almost as nervous as he was now. Almost, not quite. He really had nothing to be nervous of. Not then, nothing could've touched him then. The girl he has loved for two years loved him back.

Nothing bests that feeling.

Nothing beat the feeling of when the girl you love smiles at you, and in that smile you can see everything she feels in that one smile. Nothing in the world could ever feel better than kissing the girl you love and holding her close to you, nothing is better than to feel infinite.

.xXx.

Her mom opened the door to Leo and stood smiling at him.

"She's upstairs getting ready still," She laughed at Leo's nervous expression, "You'll be fine Leo." She patted his shoulder and led him into the front room. He had been here so many times before but today everything felt oddly new and unfamiliar.

"Hey Leo!" Phoebe was sat on the coach, flicking aimlessly through channels. "Piper threw me out… she gets real pissy when she's stressed out." She laughed as Leo gulped hard, "She's just really excited."

Yeah he was too. His stomach felt like the butterflies had been kicked out by the break dancing elephants that had since moved in. He sat down next to Phoebe, who instantly threw her arm around his shoulders.

"You know you lucky. We don't have to give you the boyfriend quiz. Seeing as we've known you for so long." She whispered in his ear. "With Jeremy we were here for an hour." Leo suppressed his jaw clenching at the mention if Jeremy.

"Yeah…" He answered her vaguely, his eyes fixed on the stair, wanting to see her come down.

"Leo, breath." Phoebe told him after a while and he let a out a breath he didn't even know he had been holding. She laughed. "I'll go get her…" And he watched as Phoebe ran up the stairs.

He wiped his hands on his jeans. And looked at the clock, watched as the red second hand made it's away around the minute, the tick-tocking noise sounding loudly in his head.

"Ahem…" He heard Prue clear her throat from the doorway. Leo's eyes widened as he turned his head to look, "Here she is."

Piper looked perfect. She'd changed her normal jeans for a dark denim skirt and she was wearing a red spaghetti strap top, black heels on her feet.

"Wow." He let out without knowing and he grinned as he saw her blush a deep red that matched her top.

.xXx.

Leo stared Piper in the eyes as he sat across the table from her, she was so perfect. There were no other words for the way she look right then except perfection.

"You look… just…wow." He breathed out as he reached for a breadstick, and laughed as she blushed. He loved to make her do that.

"Thanks." She was scared and he could tell by her voice. It was quiet and submissive; she looked down at the table as she spoke. He wanted to take all her fears and throw then out the window. But he couldn't.

He still hadn't told her.

"Look at me." He said and she slowly pulled her head up to look at him. Leo, breath. Breath in, breath out. In and out.

"I have something to tell you." He reached for her hands and she let him. He brushed his thumb across her fingers and closed his eyes at the electricity he instantly felt at the touch. "I don't think you're gunna like it…" He trailed off as her eyes grew wide and almost sad.

"What is it?" She asked him and he felt his heart drop into his stomach. Lower and lower.

"I have to go back…" He told her, not able to look her in the eye. He didn't want to see the hurt he caused there. He didn't want to watch as her gorgeous chestnut eyes flashed grey and went dull. He didn't want to see that happen because of him. "I have to go back to Chicago."

That's when he looked up. And just when he had thought his heart couldn't fall anymore, it hit the floor.

"Ok." Her voice think with tears she reached for a napkin to wipe at her eyes, where hot tears were forming.

"You want to go?" He asked, squeezing her right hand slightly. She nodded. "Ok then." They stood up and he laced their fingers together. "Let's go Pipe."

.xXx.

"Come on." His breath tickled her ear and she giggled a little. He loved that noise, "Come on Piper." He pulled her arm and she shook her head.

"I would rather stay here." She whispered back against his lips and he smiled, kissing her lightly before turning around.

"But we have to go…" He pouted and pulled on her arm. She kissed his bottom lip and pulled him back to her, pushing him against the tree. His eyes widened.

He loved the way she acted with him. The way she was so passionate yet loving. The way that there was something behind her kisses, they weren't empty. He loved her, and he knew it.

"Piper…" He fake whined and she laughed again, sending shivers down his spine. Her face edge closer to his, slowly. She knew what she was doing. And just as he closed his eyes, she moved her face away again. He smiled at her, almost frustrated. She smiled back.

His stomach jolted as he felt her cool breath on his neck. Oh God. He kissed her, pulling her further into him. When they pulled apart they smiled at each other, both their eyes dancing.

"I love you." He told her.

"I love you too." She said back.

One more kiss and this time when he pulled her to walk with him, she didn't argue.

.xXx.

The drive back to her house was deathly silent, neither Piper nor Leo daring to make a move. Neither daring to smash the ice barrier. When she wasn't watching he stole glances at her. She was staring blankly at the windscreen, no emotion showing in her face.

Piper sat motionlessly watched as the rain ran down the windows, concentrating fully on that. She had to, if she didn't she was afraid she'd break down, and she didn't want to do that. She had cried too much. And she didn't think she could handle any more.

That was when he spoke.

"You ok?" His concern was burning into her skin, scorching her as she carried on staring ahead of her. She lied to him, and nodded.

But she saw straight through he lie and shook his head. "No your not." He spoke bluntly, and she just carried on staring, "Piper talk to me…." He desperation cracking through his calm ripped her from her stoic state.

And a tear fell.

"I don't want to…" Her voice trailed, scared that the tears would show. The lights ahead of them turned red and Leo braked softly, the car gently trailing into a halt.

"Please." The tone was commanding, and almost made her jump as she felt her resolve shattering and replaced with anger.

"Talk about what Leo? The way you're leaving me again! The way you used me again!" That hurt and he physically flinched, but she kept on going, "You held me and told me that you loved me. Last night. And now you're telling me your leaving me! What is that Leo! I'm so sick of you leaving me! What? You miss out on the look on my face last time! You wanted to see how much you hurt me this time! Is that it Leo!" The tears creating a salty screen over her cheeks as she shouted.

Leo's hands gripped the wheel tighter, knuckled turning white. Her words cut through like a razor on skin. He wanted to kiss her, he wanted to take all the pain away, but he couldn't. Yet again. He couldn't stop her from hurting. Yet again he failed her.

The car drew up outside the manor and he looked at her as he turned the engine off.

"Let me walk you in." It came out as a soft question, almost begging for her permission. She was emotionally exhausted and sick of resisting everything all the time. She nodded and he smiled.

It was a sad smile.

She opened her door and stepped out. Leo looked at her once more, sending her one more smile before opening his door and stepping out.

.xXx.

Piper sat on the floor of her bathroom at 2AM; her knees drew up to her chest and she biting her already too short nails. A million incoherent thoughts whizzing around her head, making it hurt even more as she stared at the white stick on the other said of the room.

She wasn't ready for this, she didn't want this. She was all alone in this and it hurt. She made pushed away the only person who had never let her down. And even as she was doing it he struggled to stay by her.

But everybody has his or her limit. And she had pushed him right past his.

Now she had hit hers. With the four words that were burning into her mind. Each of the words were no longer than five letters, but with every one she fell a little further.

Blue line means baby.

And that's when she looked up at the clock again, the second hand resounding inside her head.

Time up.

-x-

She held the phone in her shaky hands, the tears lashing down her face, staining her cheeks as she dialled the first number she thought of. Even if she knew she shouldn't, she had to.

Ring. Ring. Ring.

Her heart beating faster and faster, hurting her chest as it did.

"Hello?"

.xXx.

She had her back to him as it happened, and she hated herself for that. If she would've been facing him maybe she could've told him, shouted at him to stop.

Save him.

But she didn't and she heard the horn and the screech of brakes before anything else. She spun around at almost lightning speed, just in time to see.

-x-

He felt the pain in his head first; it felt like it was caving in on him. Then came the chest and the arms and the legs. The pain was the most intense thing he had ever felt in his life.

Well almost.

He felt himself being thrown backwards and land on the bonnet of the car and roll onto the hard ground beneath him. And just before the darkness closed in on him.

He heard her scream.

Piper.

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