Disclaimer; by the way I'm not Meg Cabot I never have been never will be so sorry to disappoint you if you thought I was and if you want to read a story by her stop reading now if not carry on…
'Paul?' I whisper I am so shocked I can hardly get the words out
'Suze I have to tell you something, I have to tell you that I love
you' Paul's voice said, maybe this was a flashback or something but
with out images, maybe this is what he said to me on the last day
of school but as hard as I try to remember whether he did, I can't,
everything seems so hazy, just like a dream I suppose I don't
really want to remember Paul so maybe I might have blocked all
memories of him from my mind without me really noticing, I
wouldn't be surprised if that had happened, what with the way
things are going with me at the moment, I'm screwed up in the
head I'll even admit it because I don't care if they locked me up
for being a little cuckoo, it's not like anything would really be
different, just me being depressed on someone else's property.
'Suzie darling' I hear mom's voice in my head, this is starting
to get a little crazy even for me 'mom, Paul get out of my freaking
head go away leave me alone why can't you just leave me alone'
I shout banging my head against the wall, not that it hurts I am
Immune to pain now that Jesse has gone, I don't really think about
It. The talking in my head soon turns to shouts and then I hear lots
Of screams and crying 'aaaaaahhhhhh will you just shut up for one
Second' I scream banging my head harder against the wall 'please
Just shut up please' I whisper I feel that my voice has gone and I
Start to cry, and then all of a sudden all the noise just stops dead,
Everything is completely quiet, the voices have gone from my
head-for now-,the noise of the traffic from outside is no more,
everything, even the sound of me isn't there anymore,
there is complete and utter silence, and that's when I heard a
knock at my door.