Chapter 22

Lorenzo had been watching Courtney sleep for tha last two hours. She was just so peaceful when she slept, that he couldn't stop looking at her. Not to mention she was so beautiful, and strong. But now she was confused as to who she is, and him lying to her really doesn't help, but he... loved her. Yeah he knew he loved her. He didn't want to tell her though, not yet anyway. He then remebered when he told her that he was the father of her baby.

Flashback

"Are you my baby's father?" Courtney wandered.

"Yes I am." Lorenzo said.

"Oh my god! Well how did it happen! I mean I cheated on my husband and now I'm pregnant with another man's child! I mean, I don't even remember you! How could I be pregnant with your child, when I don't even know who you are! I mean... " She became nauseous and then dizzy and then she passed out and Lorenzo caught her in his arms just in time, and picked her up and brought her to the bed. He tucked her into the covers and moved some of her blonde silky strands of hair out of her face and tucked it behind her ear. He leaned down to her ear and whispered softly, "Good night."

End Flashback

She began to stir and then she opened her eyes quickly and yelled "Jason!" She was breathing hard and Lorenzo looked at her. He didn't know if she knew who Jason was yet. Courtney was so confused. She just yelled out a man named Jason, and she had no idea who he was.

She looked over at Lorenzo and saw him staring at her intently. Then she asked,

"Who's Jason?"

Jason had just woken up and suddenly it hit him like a ton of bricks, what today was. Today was Courtney's funeral, and he was not looking forward to it. All he wanted to do was stay home, and not see anybody. How could they make him feel better. The only person who could do that would be Courtney, and she was gone, forever. He just hated that he failed her and their child again. He went in the bathroom and got a shower and got dressed in his black suit. He tried to straighten his tie, and then he remembered all the times when Carly would make him wear a suit, that he would have to have Courtney straighten his tie for him. He walked out of the bathroom shaking his head and then he caught a glimpse of something. It was a picture frame of him and her on the beach on the island. He remembered when she took that picture of them as the old memory came flooding back to him...

Flashback

"Jason please!" Courtney begged.

"No. I'm not taking it." Jason said as he walked out onto the back terrace, with Courtney right behind him with a camera in hand.

"Jason, please, just one! For me!" Courtney pleaded with him.

"No, I am not doing it." Jason said sternly as he looked over at the ater. He felt Courtney's hands snake around his mid-section, and her tip-toeing up to hie ear and whispering, "It's going to be very lonely all by myself up stairs with nobody to entertain me in bed." Then she yelled loudly,"And believe me Jason Morgan when I say this, your ass will be sleeping on the couch if your selfish pig headed self does not take this god damn picture with me!"

"Okay , okay. I dont want you to get lonely in bed all by yourself so I wil take the picture with you." He reluctantly agrred, but seeing as it made Courtney happy, he eased up.

"Yes! I knew I'd get my way!" Courtney said, victory written all over her face. She grabbed the camera and set it up and then hurried up and got in front of Jason as he wrapped his arms around her tightly as she leaned back into him, then the picture "snapped" and took the picture. She turned around and said, "You will be rewarded tonight for taking my picture."

"Hey why don't you reward me right now." He said as he leaned down and gave her a passionate kiss which started a night of hot love making between the two.

End Flashback

He smiled at the picture and went over and picked it up. He saw her smiling, glowing face, and him smiling with her. She always had that special glow to her, especially when she smiled. God he loved her smile. And her eyes, and everything else about her. He traced the outline of her face in the picture,and then he heard someone come in the bedroom, and when he turned around, he was face to face with his best friend. Carly came over and gave Jason a comforting hug and said, "It's time to go." He only nodded and went with her and Sonny to the funeral.

It was late summer so the light wind blew some of the leaves around on the ground all ready. He knew she loved this time of the year. He didn't say anything on the ride there, or once he got there. He just kept his distance from everyone else, except for Sonny, Carly, and Emily. He walked up to Courtney's life size portrait and he stopped breathing. He still couldn't believe that she was gone. How could a great,lovig, trusting, person like Courtney loser her life. It should've been Jason killed by that car bomb, not Courtney. He swore that he would always protect her and their child, and that he wouldn't lose them, but this time he didn't lose them to Alcazar, or Jax, he lost it to a car bomb, that was probely meant for him. He saw everyone else were starting to take thier seats, so he let Carly lead him to his seat, in between her and Emily, with Sonny nxt to Carlyon the other side. He saw Father Coates take the podium to start the service.

We were brought here today on this very sad occasion of the passing of Courtney Leigh Matthews... Jason wasn't even listening to the rest. All he could see was Courtney's face before that bomb went off. That smiling face that looked at him with complete trust. He shook his head at the vison and saw that Mike was saying something about his daughter, so did Sonny and Carly. He didn't have the strength to talk to anyone about Courtney. He couldn't tell them how much he loved Courtney and how badly he wanted it to be him in that car bomb instead of Courtney, because the only person he wanted to tell that too, wasn't here. She was dead. That was the first time that he really came to terms with it. It didn't seem real to him at first, but now here he was, two and a half hours after the service had let out and he was still at he grave marker, hands shoved in his pockets, just staring, with that famous empty Jason Morgan stare. He felt something metal in his pocket and when he took it out, he realized it was his wedding ring. He had it on a chain and then he looked up and then looked back down at the grave. HE swallowed the large lump in his throat and then he placed the chain with his wedding ring on it, and hung it from the angel, so he knew that him and Courtney would be bonded together. And with that, and one last final good bye, Jason turned around and went back to his empty life.