Three months have gone by and things aren't really going to well in my life now. Chad and I have been arguing none stop for the past few weeks. I'm so stressed out lately, I barely have the energy to do anything but go to school, come home, and sleep. Over the past few months my grades have taken a major nosedive and I'm afraid that Jessica is starting to phase me out of her life. On top of everything else I'm having that dream again, but it's different somehow. When I had the dream before everything was so sinister and dark then I would come home to find her and I would feel warm, safe. Now, its like everyone is watching us. When I had the dream before, my family was always eating and looking at each other and talking happily. Now they just stare at us, their eyes cold and filled with anger and hate. It was like some oppressive force saturating the very air, and yet I could still feel her love enveloping like a shield against them. I'd figured out long ago that Lilith and I shared dreams and we discussed them everyday either at lunch or over the phone on the weekend. This was partly why Chad and I fought so much. He felt I spent too much time with her and not with him and that our time together and my relationship with him never seemed to progress past the very chaste make-out stage. To tell the true, I let him touch me even less now then I did before I met Lil. We've probably made-out once or twice since I started having the dream and ever since I found out her name we only hold hands because I won't let him put his arm around me anymore. It's like our entire relationship is moving in reverse and from what I've heard from Jessica (the few times she's opted to hangout with me) the rumors are spreading like wildfire. To make matters worse I'm falling in love with Lilith, and from what she's told me she feels the same way. What am I going to do now? I'm trying to save my relationship with Chad, but I don't feel anything for him. I'm in love with Lil, but a relationship with her could pretty much destroy not only my reputation, such as it is, but my relationship with my other friends. Pretty much my entire life will be ruined if I follow my heart, but I'm dying inside living this lie.
I'd been friends with Lil for about three months before the proverbial "shit" hit the fan. The rumors were worst than ever and Jessica had pretty much started to ignore me. Chad on the other hand got increasingly more aggressive about Lil's continued presence in my life. First it was just petty name calling and shoving, then one day he came really close to hitting me and Lil found a note in her locker telling her to stay away from me or else. Then on her birthday were got attacked on the way to her house, I even recognized a couple of the guys as Chad's friends. I'm walking home now and I'm looking over my shoulder almost every five seconds.
The same group of girls has been following me for the last four blocks and even though they're talking to each other and giggling I have a bad feeling deep in my gut that something's wrong. Just then another group of girls turns the corner I'm walking toward. If I cross the street now I could just go to Lil's house and hangout, but my house is only another block away. I break into a sprint hoping to make it passed the other group and to my house. As I'm passing them I notice one of the girls looking at me with a grin on her face, then I'm flat on my face after being tripped by a girl I didn't see a minute ago. The girls I'd been trying to pass blocked my way and the girls that were following me ran to join the other group, boxing me in.
"Well, if it ain't the dyke. Where's your "girlfriend"? My friends and I were hoping to have a little sit-down with you." From the look on her face I could tell talking was the last thing they were planning on doing, then someone behind me punches me in the head and I'm back on the ground." Why are you embarrassing Chad like that? When we all thought you were prude that was one thing, but now your going behind his back with another girl! That is so fucked up and wrong." She'd been punching me the entire time she was talking and her friends just stood around watching or looking around. By now I was curled up on the dirty concrete crying and bleeding and begging her to stop. She didn't stop. I lost consciousness soon after that.
tbc...