a/n: Okay yall, I really dont know if this is a long chapter...or if its even that good for that matter. All I know is that it's finally somehow turning into what I want it to. Um...yeah...well read on. And thank you all once again for your reviews. 17 now. just on 3 chapters, that's crazy. Last story I had like 6 reviews for 3 chapters. Which makes me wonder why this story is doing better than the other story if this is a sequel... OK well anyways enough of your time, Enjoy the chap.
Chapter 4- You can do better
"Derek Haliwell? The same Derek Haliwell?" Tommy asked. He found his fingers pinching his arms trying not to explode.
"If it was the one that shot you, yes."
Tommy never got this man's name, so he looked at the card on the desk.
"Mr. Carter, if you will... Who did Derek murder the first time?"
"Please, call me Ramon. And I'm not supposed to give that kind of information out. It's confidential."
"This guy didn't even get a life sentence!He'll be out in 5 years causing havoc in God knows where!"
"He didn't kill you"
"But he could have! And he's gonna keep doing it, haven't you people learned by now!"
"Please, lower your voice, Mr. Quincy"
"Please, Ramon, it's not really giving out unneeded information. I was a victim too"
"..The man that Mr. Haliwell killed was... one of my co-workers. He was a great and aspiring man. Jonas Parker. That was his name."
"Was it because Jimmy...er...James was in love with his daughter?"
"No, this was a bit more personal" Ramon began explaining. Tommy listened intently, making sure he didn't miss a single word. "Apparently, Derek killed Jonas because Jonas refused to defend him in a court trial against a drug smuggle. Jonas had the right to refuse to defend him, but Derek wasn't satisfied. James was 14 then, and they had just diagnosed him with an obsessive compulsive disorder, but Derek refused to believe that his son had a mental illness. And in turn, refused to buy the medication necessary to keep James calm."
"Wow...I had no idea" Tommy said
"So, James may be obsessive over Jude, but I don't think a restraining order would be proper for this kind of harrassment, if you can call it that"
"He must have it bad, because Jude has told him over and over to leave her alone"
"Well, if you really want a restraining order, I can get one for you. However I do believe that with some time, he'll get over this phase soon enough"
"With time! It's been 3 years. Isn't that enough time!"
"Hold on, I'll go ahead and call for the restraint request. If you're sure"
"I am"
Back at the apartment--
Sadie had long gone, and it was 10:21 pm. Tommy still wasn't home. Jude wondered where he could be. She tried numerous attempts to call his cell phone, but he must have it turned off because it went straight to the voicemail every time. Jude had eventually given up and scrunched in a corner of the couch to watch a movie; Hoping that somewhere during the movie, Tommy would show up through the door with some very well thought out explanations.
Jude sat there, sobbing at a romantic dramatic film that Sadie had suggested. Jude had yet to find a movie of Sadie's that she actually enjoyed. Sure, they made her go through all the emotions, but none of them were actually movies she could tell her friends were great movies. Suddenly, there was a knock on the door. Jude paused the movie and threw the pillow she was hugging down on the couch, sprinting for the door. She hoped it would be Tommy.
"Hey, Jude"
"Jimmy, It's like 10:30. Why are you here?"
"Look I know you're mad at me...but I really think that what you're doing is a mistake. I know we could be great friends. I just KNOW it"
"Jimmy, hey, I think it's sweet and all, but please. I have a life, and I don't need to be hanging out with the son of a man who shot my boyfriend."
"Is he really that good for you? You don't think he treats you badly at all? What about when he pushed you down, or asked you to buy groceries?"
Jude stood there considering this. Tommy was great for her, wasn't he? He didn't treat her that badly, did he? Or was this all just Jimmy's manipulating skills at work?
"Jimmy, You really shouldn't be here..."
"Jude..come on." Jimmy was pushing at the front door now, widening it to step into the house. Jude didn't restrain him. Jimmy walked in and looked around. Jude followed after closing the door.
"Nice place you have here."
"Thanks..." Jude was still traveling her thoughts, and was only vaguely aware that he was in her house.
"Tommy clean this all?"
"Some of it" She admitted.
"It reminds me of my aunt's house. She is so rich. Her house is way bigger than this place, but the structure is somewhat the same. She has the same marble floors as you do. Doesn't it scratch easily?"
"Yea it does...we've had to floor in my room redone about 50 times now" Jude recalled. "I'm a bit clumsy"
"Wow, and Tommy pays for all this?"
"Completely.."
"I remember when you hated him"
"I didnt hate him!"
"You did, and I had to get rid of him for you. Some good that did, you ended up marrying him"
"I'm not married, Jimmy"
"Might as well be"
There were those words again. The words that Jude loathed most.
"You don't know anything about how we live. We don't even act married. Don't make accusations"
"Okay okay, backing off" Jimmy brought 2 of his fingers up to his temple and pretended to shoot himself in the head; which reminded Jude of when Tommy was shot, which also snapped her out of her cycle of thoughts.
"OKAY! Jimmy, You really should go... and, please, don't come back..."
"That was harsh, Jude"
"Well, I mean it Jimmy. You're freakin me out now"
"How am I freaking you out, Jude?" Jimmy's voice got gentle, and he moved closer to Jude to place a hand on her shoulder. She shrugged him away. He grabbed her shoulder again, pushing her against the wall.
"I'm not freaking you out at ALL, am I?" Jimmy said through gritted teeth. Jude was quivering.
"Jimmy, get off, now" Jude demanded.
"Not until you admit that everything I said was right. You know he's not good for you, Jude. You can do so much better"
"JIMMY! GET AWAY FROM HER" Jude and Jimmy looked over to see Tommy standing in the doorway, infuriated. Jimmy smirked and let go of her, walking toward the door.
"Remember what I said, Jude" He advised, then walked out of the door. Jude fell to her knees. She wasn't crying, she was just trying to process everything that was going on right now. Tommy bent down to her level and draped an arm around her shoulder. She tensed, and he removed his arm.
"Baby what's wrong? What did he do?"
Jude didn't say anything. She was shaking in shock and fear. Something Jimmy said got to her. Tommy really was good for her, but something in her mind was doubting that. She leaned forward and kissed Tommy lightly, and Tommy placed his hand behind her head deepening it. She quickly pulled away.
"Jude?"
"Tommy..I..." She wasn't sure what she was going to say "...I'm gonna go to bed..." She got off the floor and walked to her room. Tommy was still kneeling on the floor in the same place, staring at her as she walked away. He slammed his fist against the wall and walked to his own room.
The next morning Jude woke up first, surprisingly. She slipped into the kitchen and started making the usual morning coffee. She hoped Tommy wouldn't wake up. She made herself a cream cheese bagel and took her coffee. She sat idle at the kitchen table eating, while also thinking about last night.
I'm being crazy, Tommy's my guy. He's been there for me Jude thought. He hasn't done anything to me...he's treating me great
Tommy walked out of his bedroom in his shirt and boxers. He rubbed his eye and looked at Jude, who didn't even notice he had walked in the room. She was sitting at the table with one hand on her forehead and both her legs shaking violently. He walked over to her and sat next to her, placing a hand on her back and rubbing it gently.
"What are you thinkin' about" He asked. He felt her tense up again. "Jude! What did he say to you last night?"
"Tommy... he doesn't matter, okay?" She said
"Well apparently he does if you're acting weird everytime I get close to you now"
"Tommy I'm fine"
"No, You're not"
"He told me...that you weren't good for me"
"And you believe him"
"No, but something in my mind...it's just..." Jude noticed Tommy's face facing the opposite wall now.
"I got it." Tommy got up and walked back into his room.
"Tommy..." Jude called out. He didn't respond. Tears were welling up in her eyes, she she wiped them away and threw away the remainder of her bagel. She got in her car, pajama's and all, and drove over to Sadie's house. Sadie came to the door and let Jude in. Kwest had just walked out of Sadie's room.
"oh...oh god" Jude said. "I'll just...go now"
"Jude, stop being stupid. I dont think we could have gotten fully clothed in 2 seconds on our way to the door."
"Right...right. Sorry, I'm just...out of it today"
"What's up?"
"Um..It's about Tommy."
"I'll handle this" Kwest stepped in.
"Or...we could both help her" Sadie suggested.
"Oh yea..hehe" Kwest rubbed the back of his head in embarassment. Jude sat down in the recliner. Sadie and Kwest sat on the couch.
"What's going on?"
"Jimmy came to the house last night.."
"JUDE! You didn't cheat on Tommy, did you!" Sadie interrupted.
"No! he...told me that Tommy wasn't good enough for me."
"He what?" Kwest said "He doesn't know anything then"
"Why did he say that?" Sadie asked, ignoring Kwest's remark.
"I donno, something about my birthday when Tommy pushed me..and then he asked me to go grocery shopping."
"Yea but Tommy does most of the grocery's himself unless he's out and needs you to do it..."
"Yeah, I know. But what about him pushing me?"
"He was angry..and drunk. And besides, you know he was only attacking Jimmy to protect you" Kwest said.
"Yeah...I guess you're right...but why is it that something in my brain is making me...uncomfortable around him."
"3 years of living with him and you pick NOW to be uncomfortable?" Kwest asked
"It's crazy, I know. But I love Tommy...I think..." Jude slammed her hand to her mouth. She had never denied loving Tommy before.
"Jude..It's okay. You need to know what you want" Sadie tried to comfort her. "Do you want to be with Tommy."
"You know I do"
"And you know him more than anyone?"
"I'm pretty sure..."
"Then what's to discuss?"
"I don't know.." Jude buried her head in her lap.
"Jude, I've known Tom forever. I have never seen him this crazy bout a girl before. That's rare. You should hear the way he talks about you."
Jude's ears perked. "Yeah?"
"He loves you Jude. But that's besides the point, do you love him?"
Jude took a minute to consider this.
"...Yes"
"Then go home" Sadie said. She opened her front door and watched as Jude went on her way. Sadie leaned against Kwest and smiled. "I love helping my little sister"
Kwest sighed and nodded. Then guided her back inside the house.
The whole ride home, Jude was telling herself that she loved Tommy. She was crazy for ever thinking otherwise. This was meant to be, and Jude was jeapordizing it all with something that a psychotic moron said. She was going to go in the house, apologize, and everything would be okay. She could feel it.
"Shoot!" Jude said aloud. She pulled over to the side of the road. She hated it when she got sudden bursts of inspiration. She opened the glove department and pulled out a notepad and a pen.
somebody take away my pain
somebody close in all the walls
crawling through an atmosphere inside
but I keep askin why
all these tear drops on my face
listen to what I have to say
you were gone ,you were gone
and so I listen to the words that
call me, call me
so you dont know who I am
what you did was unforgiven
what I did was a mistake
regrets fade, sorrys whisper
im okay im okay
Content with what she had so far, she put away the notepad. She promised herself that she'd finish it later, but not right now.
She heard faint singing, and she couldn't figure out where it was coming from. She finally figured it out. She left the radio on all night again, on low volume. She cursed at herself in her head for doing that. The last time she did that, it stayed on for 2 weeks straight, and she needed a new battery since her old one went dead. She turned it off and looked at her battery guage. Good, it's still okay. Jude sighed in relief, and continued driving home.
Jude walked into the apartment and looked around. Everything was neater, so she suspected that Tommy cleaned up a little. She found a stack of papers by the telephone that had been faxed. They were from...a lawyer! Jude thought. Why would Tommy need a lawyer? She began to read on, but put them back down. They aren't mine...they are none of my business...oh forget it. Curiosity got the best of Jude. She made sure Tommy wasn't around, and then she picked up the stack of papers that were by the fax machine. She lifted it up and began reading.
Court Date: September 25
Court Time: 10:00 AM
Lawyer: Ramon Carter
Filing against: James Haliwel
Request: Restraint slip
Jude's eyes widened. She put down the rest of the papers, not wanting to know any more about what was going on. She was going to find out first hand from Tommy. Tommy was trying to get a restraining order for Jimmy! It wasn't the worst thing in the world, but it was unexpected. She walked into Tommy's room and found him watching TV, still in the same clothes he was wearing when Jude had left the house earlier. Of course, Jude was in her pajama's too. He glanced at her but only a moment, and then turned back to the TV, making it clear that he didn't want to see her right now.
"Tommy..."
"Jude I don't want to talk to you right now"
"You got a restraining order for Jimmy!"
"Well, I asked for one. I didn't get it yet"
"Why are you doing this? I'm not exactly complaining, but you didn't even ask me! Is that why you were out last night so late?"
"Yep. Now like I said. I don't want to talk to you right now."
"Tommy, I'm sorry about what I said this morning. I didn't mean it..."
"Right"
"Tommy!" Jude crawled onto the bed with him, sitting on her knees. She took his hand. He pulled it away. "Whatever. I'm not begging for you. I'm not one of those girls."
She got up and walked out of his room, and ran for her own. He stared at the hand she grabbed, and mentally slapped himself. Stupid! You're going to mess things up! He got off the bed and decided to pull on some jeans for the first time today.
Jude threw open her bedroom door and grabbed a bag from her closet. She stuffed some clothes in, and picked up her song book and threw it in as well. She then grabbed her guitar and began making her way out of the room. Tommy was walking toward her at that time, and bumped into her.
"Where are you going?"
"I need to get out of here" And with that, she walked past Tommy and out of the front door.
A/n: hmmmm...like it?Review and I shall find out! waiting waiting waiting, waiting everywhere P.s. have any of you gotten my replies to your reviews? I don't reply ALL of them but I try to reply to a bunch of them...I'm not sure if yall even get it or not, just wondering