a/n: hey yall. This chapter...is funky. It might seem sort of like a filler, in a way, not really, but the ending is VERY important! VERY! So read it all the way through don't skim...so yea. Thanks for reviewing, it took me FOREVER to get this chapter up, because as some of you may know, was being VERY retarted. luckily its up and running again. Hope yall enjoy
disclaimer: U know what i dont own
Chapter 5- Love or lust
"Jude!" Tommy ran out the front door to catch her, but she was already pulling out of the driveway. Sadness englufed him. He messed up big time now. She didn't take much...maybe she was just planning to cool off a little. Where would she go? Sadie's? Doubtful. Back to her mother, so she could say 'told you so'? Nope. Tommy had no idea where Jude was planning on going and it worried him. He walked inside and called Jude's cell. She turned it off. He called Kwest.
"Hello?"
"Kwest! Man I need you to come over right now!"
"What happened, Tom? is everything alright?"
"Just...get here" Tommy hung up the phone. Kwest looked over at Sadie.
"I gotta go, Tom needs me for somethin" Kwest said. He kissed Sadie and told her to wait till he got back. Then he hopped in his car and drove to Tommy's.
"Dude, where'd she go?" Kwest asked.
"She up and left. We got in a fight"
"Man, You had her for 3 years and you lost her?"
"I know! You don't need to rub it in my face. She didn't say we were over...she just got some stuff and left."
"Where's she goin?"
"I don't know" Kwest could see Tommy's hands shaking as they supported his head.
"Dude, it's gonna be alright. Ya'll are gonna be fine."
"And how do you know that?"
"Cause she's Jude. She loves you"
"That's not what I been feeling lately"
"Look, man she talked to me and Sadie earlier today. She said it herself"
"She just said she loves me? That's all she had to say?"
"Well no, there was hesitance in there somewhere...but in the end she did say that she loved you"
"See Kwest? She doesn't...not anymore. Not since that...JIMMY." Tommy's face got red.
"Tom, Calm down. Like I said, she'll come around"
"Yeah. well, as far as I know, she's not gonna forgive me"
"She will man"
Tommy walked into the kitchen. He pulled out a soda and handed one to Kwest. He took it gratefully. Tommy sat on the couch again, and turned on the TV. The two boys flipped through channels until they found one they agreed on. Kwest wanted to watch baseball, but Tommy wanted to watch MTV. Finally, they found a movie and picked that instead. They weren't sure what it was about at all, but it looked retarted. They just laughed at it.
When Kwest had to leave, Tommy regained sadness. Kwest was the only thing keeping him from thinking so much about Jude. It was impossible to entirely forget her at the time, but he tried. He walked into Jude's room and looked at the mess she had. He laughed at it, it was so like her to have a mess. He took in the scent of the perfume she used. He went and picked up some of the mess. He put the clothes in a bin in the closet. And he found her notebook on the floor. He knew she kept it under her matress, so he put it back. He was tempted to read it first, but after the first time he did, he would never do that again:
"What are you reading?" Jude asked, walking into her room to see Tommy sprawled on her bed.
"These are really good songs, Jude"
"Yea but, I don't use all of them. They're just for my feelings!"
"They're amazing"
"And not for you to read"
"Ok ok sorry" Tommy put the book back under the matress
He placed her mascara and eye shadow back on her dresser. He looked at her mirror. There was a picture of her and him in the top corner of it. That was the day that Jude graduated from high school. She was in her cap and gown and Tommy was in a black suit. He took the picture down and placed it in a drawer. Then he walked to his own room and stuck his head under his pillow, screaming as loud as he could.
"Hey...I need a place to stay" Jude asked, holding back tears.
"Jude...come in" Jamie greeted, and opened the door wider for Jude to come in. Jamie was in college now, the same college as Kat. Just a community college. Jude had decided not to go to college for a while, she wanted to focus just on her music. When she was older she'd go to an adult college. Jude walked into Jamie's dorm and put her stuff down. Jamie walked behind her and sat down on his couch next to Jude.
"Did something happen?"
"Yea..."
"What?"
"Well...Remember Jimmy?"
"Yep"
"He's sort of...back in town if you know what I mean"
"Okay...so Jude has a stalker again"
"yep..and...Tommy and I have just been falling to pieces ever since he came back. Tommy is filing for a restraining order against him...I was questioning myself on whether or not I loved him...and everything is just..." Jude covered her face in her hands. Jamie rubbed her back.
"Hey...Jude don't cry"
"Jamie I risked everything for Tommy. and 3 years...it can't be over now" Tears were flowing down Jude's cheeks.
" I know, I know... Everything will be alright. You're good enough to make any man come begging for you"
"Thanks Jamie but...Tommy won't."
"Why not?"
"Because I'm such a pest to him. He's always cleaning up after me and protecting me...hence the restraining order. Like I can't do anything myself. I need to just...get away from him for a few days."
"I understand. You can stay here...uh...I don't have an extra room but the couch pulls out into a bed."
"Yea, that's fine. Thank you Jamie" Jude wrapped her arms around her best friend. Jamie returned the gesture.
"I gotta go though..." Jamie said, breaking the unbearable silence.
"What? now?"
"Yeah...Kat..sort of wanted to hook up tonight"
"Oh, yeah. girlfriend. Well, that's okay I'll be fine here."
"You sure?" Jamie asked. It didn't really matter, he was going to go anyway.
"Yeah, yeah. Go on"
"Thanks" He got up and made his way to the bathroom. Jude was starting to regret coming here. She could be at home with Tommy right now. Stupid Jimmy, he had to ruin everything. Jamie walked out of the house, and Jude could smell the Tag cologne from the couch. She smirked and turned on the TV. Her cell phone began ringing. Her ringtone was one of her newer songs, and she had sung it with Tommy. But that was only Tommy's ringtone. She hesitating at answering it, but decided she might as well. She reached for the phone and flipped it open, staring at the picture of her and Tommy. She pressed the send button.
"Hello?" She said faintly. He barely heard it.
"Where the hell are you!"
"I miss you too"
"Why did you run away? Huh?"
"Because Tommy...Jimmy is messing things up for us"
"No he isn't. He's trying to, and you're only letting him."
"Tommy it isn't that simple"
"Why isn't it! I'm still in love with you! Why aren't you?"
"I do Tommy...but"
"But nothing then! If you love me, then why do you tense at every time I touch you? Why do you leave the house and act like we just broke up?"
Jude was now in tears, and she could hear Tommy's voice cracking as he spoke. She knew he wasn't crying, but he was hurt.
"But...you're not...Jimmy said..."
"Are you going to believe him and give up three years to a psychotic freak?"
Jude hung up the phone. She burst into tears and lay crying on the couch. A few moments later, when she was able to see clearly through the fluid in her eyes, she walked out to her car. She hadn't brought her things with her, only her wallet. She got in her car and wiped her eyes one last time. It was raining out. Great she thought. She sat there waiting for the rain to die down. It didn't. She turned on the ignition and drove off.
Tommy sat there on his bed, staring at his phone, trying to get the courage to call her again.
"Ow!" he heard a voice coming from outside. He walked to the door and opened it. Jude was standing outside in the rain, soaked to the bone. She was clutching her foot with one hand, groaning in pain. "Stupid walkway light!" She scolded. She looked up to see Tommy standing before her eyes. He was slightly smiling at the sight of her getting angry at the walkway light.
"Hi..." She said.
"Hey" He walked closer.
"I came because..." Tommy knew why she came. He silenced her by kissing her. She kissed back, and didn't feel weird at all. He brought her closer to him. Jude could feel his lips trying not to curve into a smile. Finally, they broke away.
"Hi..." She repeated.
"Hi"
"Um...Well...That was pretty much it, right?" She was catching her breath.
"We should get inside before we catch cold" Tommy led Jude inside. She stopped at the doorway.
"I don't wanna get the floor wet"
"Don't worry about it" He led her to the bathroom and wrapped a towel around her. Then he went in her room and picked out some clothes.
"Thanks Tommy.." She playfully shoved him out of the bathroom and got changed. He picked outfits way better than Sadie did. Mainly because he knew exactly what she liked. She walked out in a red T-shirt and black pants. She fit her stud belt around her waist.
"That's better" He said
"Yeah..." Jude sat down on the couch.
"So what did you come here for again? I sort of interrupted you"
"Haha, I came to say sorry"
"What...?" Both Tommy and Jude had suddenly gotten serious.
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have doubted you Tommy. Well, I shouldn't have doubted us."
"Maybe it wasn't Jimmy though"
"Huh? Of course it was"
"Maybe deep in your heart...you know you don't love me"
"Tommy that's crazy...you know I do"
"But maybe you don't."
Jude sat on the couch, befuddled. She closed her eyes and sighed, trying to clear her mind. She thought deep and hard. Tommy stood at the counter, waiting for her response. He could see her shaking her head "no" with her eyes closed, but he wasn't sure why. Finally, she opened them.
"Nope. Tommy I know, true to myself, that I love you"
"And you're sure?"
"Positive" Jude smiled and ran up to him, taking him in her arms. He brushed the hair off her face with his index finger. She knew what was coming next. She closed her eyes and felt his lips meet hers. Suddenly she felt as if she'd never known how much she really did care about him. Her fingers skimmed his back, sending chills down his spine. He placed on hand on the back of her neck and one hand at her waist. He then led her to the bedroom.
It was 4AM. Tommy had fallen asleep hours earlier, but Jude couldn't sleep a wink. Tommy had his arm wrapped around her stomach. Her hand was behind her head supporting it. She stared at the darkness of the walls, all she could see was black. She could feel her heart racing a hundred miles a minute. Tommy stirred, and removed his arm from her stomach. He turned over on his other side, and she placed her head on his back. She felt so comfortable with him. As if nothing could ever get her here, not even Jimmy. Her arm entwined his, and she brough it up so her hand was on his shoulder. She felt the buldge of his bullet scar and instantly freed her arm of his. Memories flooded her mind of 3 years ago but she wouldn't succumb to them. She shook them away and focused on now. Where she was, the best place in the world. Who she was with, the person she loved most. Nothing else mattered right now.
Jude finally found herself drifting off to sleep, but after what seemed like 5 minutes of sleep, Tommy had woken her up. She moaned in objection.
"Jude, Jamie's here" He whispered. She shot her eyes open and ran out the living room. She was only in shorts and a tank shirt. She glanced over at Tommy, and noticed he was fully clothed. Then her attention turned to the clock. It was 11:30. She placed her hair behind her ear.
"Hi...Jamie" She greeted akwardly.
"Hello. You scared me last night I thought that psycho had taken you"
"Nope..."
"Well, I'm glad you two made up"
"heh..."Jude laughed. "Yeah..Oh shoot I left my stuff at your house I'm sorry!"
"It's fine, I brought it with me"
"Oh, thanks alot"
"No prob"
Jude led Jamie to the front door. She embraced him lightly and watched as he drove off. Tommy walked up behind Jude and placed his arms around her stomach from behind. It startled her.
"Scared ya" He laughed
"Did not" She turned to look at him. After a few seconds Jude released herself from his grip and walked into the kitchen. Yes! He kept the food! She thought. Score! She pulled out the pizza that she had from about 3 nights ago and stuffed it in the microwave. Tommy winced.
"Jude, that's gross"
"What's gross?"
"Pizza that's been in there since...how long?"
"Wednesday" She said matter-of-factly.
"And today is saturday..."
"So?"
"ugh...nevermind" Tommy's attention turned to the fax machine which was rattling. He walked over to it and noticed a new stack of papers. Jude could tell he was concerned about something.
"What's up?"
"Uh, they re-scheduled the court date..."
"Seriously?"
"Yea, its in mid October now"
"Ouch"
"Yeah. Almost a month and a half away"
"Well at least you're getting it"
"They don't want me to have this restraining order. He's got a mental disturbance and thats why he's so obsessive"
"Wow"
"Yeah, but I don't care. He can't keep pesturing you like this"
"I understand...but hey Tommy?"
"Yeap?"
"I'm not a kid, please stop treating me like one. You're a bit...protective"
Tommy had taken thought to this. He knew he was being protective. Ever since the incident he's kept his guard extra high. He didn't want to take any chances, especially with Jude.
"Whatever you say"
"Thanks"
Jude took out the pizza from the microwave and began munching on it. Tommy suddenly grew jealous.
"You aren't getting my pizza, Quincy. You're the fool who decided to eat all of yours on the day you got it. I'm better. I think ahead"
"And of course, she wins" Tommy muttered to himself. He plopped on the couch and turned on MTV. Gwen Stefani was on. He watched her video intently. Jude noticed and walked in front of the TV.
"Uh, hey. You've already got one of those. I'm not..quite..as sexy but I'm a blond and I'm hott...at least I think...or you think..."
Tommy laughed at Jude's attempt to avert his attention back on her.
"Of course I do. And now is when I continue..." Jude's eyes looked at him sternly "...to change the channel" He switched it over to Fuse. Jude loved this station. Staind's music video was on and she swayed with the music. Tommy swayed with her, mocking her movement. She playfully slapped him.
"What are you doing that for?" Jude asked
"you look like you're in a padded cell, rocking back and forth" he began cracking up laughing.
"ugh! You're so mean! This is a nice song!"
"Uh huh" Tommy's laughing had calmed into snickering. She had a smile on her face as she leaned on his shoulder.
Suddenly there was a knock at the door. Tommy grunted and stood up. Jude followed behind. He opened the door, and there stood Ramon Carter; a briefcase in his hand.
"May I come in?" He asked
"Of course" Tommy moved aside and allowed him in.
"The judge has decided that, because of the abundance of trials this year, he would go ahead and sign your restraint slip. All you have to do is sign, and write down your information and who all this restraint slip applies to..."
"And we're done? Tommy smiled and looked over at Jude.
"Not quite..." Tommy's eyes flicked over to Ramon. "We still have to meet with James himself, and show him how far 12 yards is. This could get ugly. However, once the papers are signed by the both of you and James, it wont be quite so hard. You may go ahead and sign your half of the bargain right here" Ramon placed the papers in front of Tommy. He took the papers and grabbed a pen. Jude's name was the first name he put on the paper for who the restraining order applies to. She grinned and kept watching. he then signed his name under hers, along with his signature. He then handed the pen to her, and she signed her signature as well. Mr. Carter took one copy of the paper and left the other with Jude and Tommy.
"That's all! Tomorrow we will go to James' house and explain to him the procedure, though he should know it very well.We'll give you a call with his address so you can get there"
"That won't be necessary, I have the address" Jude explained.
"You do?" Tommy asked.
"Yep"
"How?"
"Well, assuming he still lives in the same house he did 3 years ago...and we had the project and all...I did go over there at least twice out of the 3 weeks we had to finish the project"
"Oh...well give us the address anyway, just incase" Tommy requested.
"I can do that. Thank you, I'll just be on my way then" Ramon tipped his hat politely and left the apartment.
The next morning, Jude woke up and got dressed. She put on a black leather vest over a white turtle neck shirt and and walked out to the living room. Tommy was sitting next to the telephone, staring as if it might move.
"Hey, what are you doing?" She asked
"Granny's gonna call soon" He replied
"Huh?"
"Joking..."
"OH!"
"I'm waiting for Ramon to call with Jimmy's address. The cops are gonna be there and everything. It might get crazy..."
"Well, what about Jimmy's dad? Don't you think we should get a restraining order on him too?"
"Of course I think so! But that's not a priority right now. That's years away"
"True"
"Well hey, I'm gonna go to Sadie's for a bit... Call me as soon as Ramon calls, k?"
"will do" Jude kissed Tommy and walked out of the apartment.
She drove over to Sadies house and stood outside the door. Kwest's car wasn't in the driveway, which was unusual. Jude rang the doorbell, and Sadie walked out grinning from ear to ear.
"Why are you so happy?" Jude asked. Sadie didn't answer. She just held out her left hand. It looked like a hand. The nails had just recently been painted, and there was a ring on the ring finger. Wait, what?
"OH my god! Sadie he proposed?" Jude shrieked. Sadie tried to calm her happiness, but failed.
"Yep!"
Jude embraced her sister and joined in girly giggling.
"Sadie, You're getting hitched!"
"i'm getting hitched!"
"I'm happy for ya"
"And, there was something we were going to talk to you about..." Sadie suddenly got serious. Jude walked inside and sat on the couch.
"So, what do you need to talk to me about?" Jude asked. Sadie sat next to her sister.
"Well, first off, Kwest is on his way to your house to talk to Tommy about this...so..." Sadie grinned and took a deep breath. "We were thinking, since you and Tommy have been together for a long time now" Sadie clutched her sisters hands in her own.
"Of course I'll be your maid of honor, Sadie. And Tommy will be the best man" Jude said. But Sadie just nodded a no. "no?" Jude was confused.
"We were thinking...we could have a double wedding!"
A/N: Dundundunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn lol. I know what im planning on doing with this now, so just...don't think ahead because I have a bunch of twisters and then things that you could have figured out...so just...yea