A/n: I just had this idea like yesterday, and decided to use it. I thought it sort of fit something that would happen on the show...all dramatic and whatnot. Sort of. Well, hope you like it. Thanks for reviewing

Chapter 7- Blues of Leaving Home

"Hey, Sadie" Jude spoke on the telephone.

"Hey! You all ready for your grand tour?"
"Grand? Yeah, right."

"It is! You know it!"
"Right. theres gonna be..."
"Thousands of Jude Harrison fans screaming your name and holding up posters"
"Haha funny"
"It's true sis, you made it big since you won Instant Star. You're not the Instant Star anymore, you're the Artist that everybody wants to know"
"Thanks Sadie"
"Yep yep"

"Uh, listen, I talked to Tommy,"

"And you've come to you're conclusion?"
"Yeah..."
"And?"

"and...we don't want to get married yet."
"Oh...Are you sure?"
"Positive, trust me"
"Well then will you be my maid of honor?"
"Of course!"
"Yes! Thanks Jude"
"Welcome"
"I gotta go though, going shopping. Love ya"
"Bye Sadie.."
Jude hung up the phone and walked out into the living room where Tommy was. She flopped on the couch and sighed heavily. She was going on tour in 2 days, and Tommy couldn't go with her. She was going with the band and some voice coach that Tommy picked out for her. Tommy had to stay at the studio and work with other artists. Jude was very anxious to get this tour over with.

"I can't believe I'm leaving friday..." Jude said. She looked upside down at Tommy, who was standing in front of her with his hands tucked in his pockets.

"You'll be great"
"Yea but...what if I mess up? What if they don't like me like last year? They have like 2 new instant stars, remember?"
"Yeah, but they only have one Jude Harrison"
"Thanks, Tommy. But it sucks that you can't come. You'd be my stregnth, really. What's some voice coach gonna do for me?"
"Well for one, you know I'd love to go with you but you know I can't." Tommy explained "And another thing, The voice coach is going to...hmm, let me think, coach your voice"
"Sarcastic, much? I don't need a voice coach. I need courage"
"We went through this on your last tour"
"Yeah, but the last one wasn't so big. This one, it's gonna be HUGE. Stadiums, thousands of people, all for me"
"And that's your stregnth"
"Huh?"
"If those thousands of people didn't like you, they wouldn't have spent their money and come from all over the world just to see you. But that's the fact. They came to see YOU. Not some other Instant Star. You."
Jude silenced herself and stared at her hands. Not in the creepy way, it was just that they were rested on her knees and that's where she was looking at the time. She would have a new tour bus this time, new fans, new stages, new cities, states, countries. She was so nervous and all Tommy could do was stand there and tell her that she was gonna be great. How did he know? How did he know so confidently that she would be fine? What if she fainted on the stage? And then in the middle of the tour, she had to come back anyway for Sadie's wedding.

Jude and Tommy went out for Taco's the night before Jude's tour. It was her favorite. They spent the night just hanging around and watching TV, holding eachother. It would be a few weeks, maybe a month or so before he saw Jude. He was trying not to kill time, making it go by as slowly as possible. He wanted this day to come for Jude, but dreaded it for himself. He was reaaally going to miss her.

"Don't let me leave.." Jude whispered. She was laying with Tommy in his bed. Tommy had his arm around her, stroking her arm softly. She had her head rested on top of his.

"You've gotta go"
"I don't want to anymore"
"You know that's not true"
"If only you could come with me..."
"I wish I could Jude but it's not that simple." Jude hushed him.

"Shh, don't lecture me tonight."
"Fine"
"I just wish...that my fans would come to me" Jude laughed "I shouldn't have to travel"
"I thought you liked traveling"
"Well I do, but I like traveling with you"
"You know, Dr. Phil says that spending too much time with a partner can be bad for a relationship. Maybe this will be good for us"
"You watched Dr. Phil!" Jude lifted her head and stared at him, though she could barely see, the light was dim.

"Nothing else was on. ANYWAYS, my point being, that maybe its good that you go"
"You don't think we're doing fine?"
"We are, but this might make us stronger"
"So...my tour kind of has 2 purposes"
"Exactly"
"Wonderful...I can't believe you watched Dr. Phil"
"Oprah is nice too"
"Right right." Jude laughed. She kissed Tommy's forehead and replaced her head on his. He never wanted to leave this spot. After a few moments of faint talking, the two drifted off into a slumber.

The alarm clock buzzed at 4AM. Jude jumped up. "CRAP! TOMMY GET UP!"
Tommy stirred and looked at the clock. He groaned "How did we fall asleep!"
"I don't know but we did and the bus leaves in 2 hours!" Jude ran for the shower. She took a fast one and jumped out, putting on a green polo shirt and black jeans. "Good enough" She said to herself. She combed her hair and didn't bother to put on makeup. She ran for her room and found Tommy packing up some bags for her.
"Thank you so much!" Jude said, and helped him pack. She didn't fold her clothes like he was doing, she just stuffed them in a bag. She made a quick breakfast of a bowl of cereal. By the time they got to the bus station it was 5:20. Jude's mom, Sadie, and Kwest were all there to wish her good luck and goodbye. Jude walked up and tried to hold back her tears. She could see that her mom and Sadie were doing the same. But the worst of all was Tommy. Jude embraced her mother tightly, listening to her mothers soft sniffles. Then she hugged Sadie. Sadie wasn't crying really, she was just sad that she wouldn't have her sister around for a while till her wedding. She quickly hugged Kwest and thanked him for all his help. Then she headed for the bus. Tommy ran up and stopped her, pulling her off of the first step. She stared at him for a moment.
"See you in a month" He said. It was painfully obvious that he was breaking into pieces, and Jude kind of laughed in her head at the sight. It's not like she was going to be gone forever. Still, she knew that a month was the longest they've been apart since they got together, and after that she'd be gone another 4 months, but they promised that they would only think about those four months when she was actually going to leave for them. She wrapped her arms around Tommy and cried lightly on his shoulder. He patted her back in reassurance.
"You're gonna be fine, remember what I said" He reminded

"Yeah" Jude wiped her eyes. Her band was already on the bus. Tommy bent down and kissed her, almost staying there for longer than he had expected. He didn't want to let her go but it was her biggest tour yet, and he knew how happy and scared she must be. He pulled away and placed a hand on her face, wiping away a loose tear with his thumb. She smiled at him and stepped back up on the bus.
"Bye..." She said. Tommy couldn't say it back. He watched as she climbed all the way on the bus, and pulled her head out of the window. He smiled slightly and waved at her as the bus took off and left. He felt an arm around his shoulder, and he turned to see it belonged to Sadie.

"She's...amazing" Sadie said
"Yep..she really is somethin else."
Tommy got in his car and drove home alone. It was still early, so he decided to go back to sleep. It would be a while before Jude had a chance to call, anyway. And of course, he knew that Jude was doing the same right now.

It was 4:30 PM when Jude finally decided to look out the bus window. They were driving in the snow, she guessed that they hadn't gotten very far in the little time she was moping. She looked over and saw Jeff and Shane throwing pillows at eachother in the back of the bus. Jeff was the Bassist and Shane was the lead guitarist. Jean was the other guitarist, but he was usually quiet and in his own world, and she envied him for it. Taylor was the drummer, and he had skill. But he wasn't very social, he was usually on the phone with his girlfriend. She was quite happy with this band, since SME left. Spiederman hadn't even called her in 2 years. He called her once a few months after she and Tommy got together, and they went out and had coffee. But then he tried to get her back, and she assured him that she was happy with Tommy, and she didn't want to mess things up.

"Jude, come on! Join in the pillow fight! It's not like you to mope!" Jeff called. He threw a pillow at her but she didn't even budge. "Dude, what's wrong with her?"
"She misses Tommy" Shane whispered.

"Ohhh right, didn't think" Jeff walked over to Jude and pulled her up. She didn't object to it. She stared lazily at him waiting for his commands. He stuffed a pillow in her hands and hit her with another one right in the face. She didn't react very much so he did it again.
"Dude what are you doing?" Shane asked, running over there to stop him. Jude couldn't help it anymore, she burst into hysterical laughter.
"IT'S ON NOW!" She cried, tackling Jeff and hitting him with the pillow. The three were in a war now, the war of the pillows. Jude beat Shane, but Shane beat Jeff and Jeff beat Jude. Jean was sitting in the front of the bus on his laptop, glancing and laughing under his breath at the three. His brought his glasses back up to his face and kept on typing away. Taylor, surprisingly, was not on the phone. He was sitting in front of the two laughing at their pillow fight.

That night, Jude sat by the window of the bus solitary. Jude thought everyone else was sleeping, so she let her nerves take over her and the tears began to fall. She missed Tommy already, but she was mainly crying out of nervousness. She was so scared, tomorrow was her first concert in Minnesota. From there she would go through the states and fly overseas to Europe. From there she'd go to Japan, traips around Canada a while, then back home. She wiped away her tears and stared out the window, staring at the trees and dark shadows that lay before her.

"Jude, You okay?" Jeff said, startling her out of her thoughts. She wiped her face again and looked at him.

"Yeah" She said faintly. Jeff sat next to her by the window and placed an arm around her.

"You miss him don't you?"
"Yeah, of course but, that's not it...I'm just so scared you know?"
"Jude you'll be fine"
"That's what everybody says"

"But I know its true." Jeff turned to look at Jude in the dim moonlight. Her tears had stopped flowing but her eyes were still sparkling. She looked so beautiful like this. He brought his face to hers and kissed her lightly. It took her a moment to register this but kissed him back. He began to pull her shirt up but after a few moments she pulled away, hating herself for what she had just done. Jeff scooted over in his seat away from her a little bit to give her space. He looked down at the floor. Jude was tensed up and had her head against the window. Jeff could see she was scratching at her arms to calm herself.

"Sorry..." Jeff said
"Uh...well...that was"
"I know, I get it. I shouldn't have done it. I hope nothing happens between you and Tommy cause of me..."
"Tommy..." Jude whispered. Now she was in full blown tears again. Jeff patted her back.
"I could tell him..that I made a move on you. You had nothing to do with it"
"That would be a lie"
"Would it really? You miss having your boyfriend, and I care for you. I made the move, and you just followed because it's what you felt you needed."
"But I can't do that..."
"It was one mistake. You two should be fine if he has a heart to forgive you with"

"I hope"
"I know he..."
"Jeff, maybe you should just go to bed, K? I've been through alot the past few days. I'll be fine"
"Alright...night Jude"
"Night"

A/n Well, how was it? Eh? Ehhhhhhhhhhhh? I'm on this "eh' kick lately, I'll get out of it. Review please