Chap6 Shedding more than one tear

Well it's 2.15am and sleep seems beyond me at the moment so I thought I might as well use my time awake wisely and update. Sorry about the delay in the update writer's block is not fun, As always if you're reading please drop me a review.

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Allison stayed in her grandmother's arms it was unclear if she was seeking comfort from her or giving her grandmother comfort. She had never had a strong relationship with her grandmother. She loved her but Allison never felt truly understood she always felt her grandmother was too restricted by the concepts and morals she was brought up with.

"I'm sorry things never worked out the way you wanted them too grandmother," Allison whispered. It was only now that she realised the hard life her grandmother had led.

"There is no point in saying sorry my dear. As much as it pains me to say there are some things in this world we must accept we cannot change no matter how much we may wish otherwise. We must learn to accept what life gives us," she paused for a few moments as she swallowed back a lump in her throat, "and what life takes away from us. What you must understand Allison is that life is only what we make it. We can choose to wallow in our past pain and suffering or we can move and salvage what we can," she paused again her voice closer to tears, "although we must also remember what we have lost and not bottle up our emotions…it always comes out one way or another. The trick is finding the balance between the two. I have been on this planet more years than I care to admit and I am still attempting to find the correct balance," she said suddenly sounding very tired. Mrs Williams wasn't sure if her views made any sense in today's fast changing society. The way she had of dealing with the pain she felt was the only way she had and she wasn't going to change it now.

Allison nodded slowly. "I can understand that. I'm just not sure I've quite found that balance yet…" she whispered trailing off.

Mrs Williams hugged her again. "It takes time dear. You will find those who love you and care for you held to make the process a little easier," she said quietly her eyes meeting Allison's.

Allison sighed slightly she knew what her grandmother was getting at. As much as she tried she could not accept that she was with Cry Baby. Allison knew that her grandmother believed she should be with someone of a high standard upbringing such as Baldwin. She knew her grandmother had never been accepting of Cry Baby given his upbringing and reputation. It took her a moment to realise that her grandmother was talking again. "…not a bad boy perhaps but I still really do feel you would be better suited with someone life Baldwin," she finished looking almost hopefully at Allison.

Allison sighed yet again she seemed to be doing that a lot lately. "Oh grandmother it just wouldn't work between Baldwin and I. To be honest with you it never really did. I never felt anything for him. It wouldn't be fair on him or me. I'm with Cry Baby now grandmother. I know you don't really approve but I think if you just met him and spoke to him you would see why I am so happy with him," she said almost pleadingly.

Mrs Williams was about to protest but she saw the pleading look in her eyes. She sighed wearily. "Oh alright them go and fetch the boy then."

"Oh thank you grandmother," she said giving her cheek a peck as she stood up to fetch Cry Baby. She tried to push away her slight nerves and doubts. She was pretty sure her grandmother would learn to love him like she did.

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Cry Baby looked up when he saw the door opening. He got out the car as she came towards him. "Allison, you doing okay baby?" he asked taking her gently in his arms holding her close to him.

Allison stayed in her arms for a few moments just enjoying being in his tender embrace. He had a way of calming her like no other. "Cry Baby…my grandmother would like to meet you," she whispered.

He tensed slightly. "Allison baby…I'm not sure that is the best idea I mean…" he was cut off as Allison placed a hand gently over his mouth to silence him.

"Please Cry Baby I think she will like you if you just let her meet you…please," she whispered looking up into his eyes.

Cry Baby nodded. "Alright…" he said trying not to sound too nervous. Allison smiled and kissed him lightly before taking his hand and leading him towards the house.

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"Please take a seat," Mrs Williams said attempting to sound calm and natural and most importantly non judging.

"Thank you Mrs Williams," Cry Baby said sitting down.

"Now... erm…Cry…erm…I mean Wade," she said stumbling she didn't know what to call him.

Cry Baby smiled slightly. "You can call me Cry Baby or Wade if you prefer. I prefer Cry Baby myself but please call me what ever you feel most comfortable with." Allison shot him a reassuring smile to let him know he was doing fine.

Mrs Williams nodded. "Allison tells me you are an orphan like herself," she said attempting to keep her tone conversational as if she wasn't already well aware of the fact his father was the Alphabet Bomber and his mother had died in an attempt to save her murdering husband.

Cry Baby tensed at the mention of this. "Yes ma'am that is correct. I'm sure you are aware of my daddy's crimes. I know he did wrong but he's my daddy and I still love him and my poor mother she died because she loved him. It's just me and Pep, and her kids. I love my family very much believe it or not we're not quite as bad as our reputation makes us sound," he said quietly.

Mrs Williams bit her lip. In the few moments it took Cry Baby to speak those words she saw him for what he really was. "I was wrong about you. I am sorry for the way I acted towards you. You are a good kid and I see you are very good for my granddaughter," she said softly.

"That's quite alright Mrs Williams. I'm glad we can start again and believe me I will do whatever I can to make Allison happy," he answered as he tried to get his body to stop shaking.

Allison smiled she knew they would get along if they only met to talk. She glanced at Cry Baby, she bi her lip nervously she could see he was upset. She knew talking about his parents struck a nerve within in but he didn't wish to let her grandmother know she had upset him.

"If you will excuse me I must be off," Mrs Williams said standing.

"Goodbye," Allison said hugging her.

"Goodbye Mrs Williams," Cry Baby said offering her his hand which she took.

After she was gone Allison turned her attention back to Cry Baby who was very white and shaking. "What's wrong?" she asked gently. She went over to him and took him in her arms.

He let out a muffled gasp and for the first time in his life he cried more than one tear for his parents.