Chapter 4: Feelings
"Trish?" said John putting his water bottle aside.
"Hey" said Trish looking at John.
"So you going to run away again" said John a bit angered as Trish looked at him with a sad look.
"John I am really sorry" said Trish.
"Trish I don't know what to think anymore I mean one minute were friends and the next were more" said John as he was about leave.
"John please listen" said Trish as she looked at him with a pleading gaze.
"Okay you have my attention" said John as he sat back down.
"John I was in a three year relationship with Jeff I thought we'd be together forever but he broke my heart when he cheated on me and I was so heartbroken I didn't know what to do I thought I lost everything important to me and I don't want to get heartbroken again" said Trish.
"And what you think I'd hurt you like that bastard" said John loudly.
"No I know you wouldn't John I have deep feelings for you, you've been there for me whenever I need you and I never will regret that kiss we shared" said Trish.
"Well you have a funny way of showing it and for the record I did regret it" said John as Trish looked down with a pained look.
"Cause your one complicated woman" said John as Trish looked at him with a weak smile.
"Trish what do you really want from me?" asked John as Trish looked at him.
"I…I don't know" said Trish quietly.
"Well when you do let me know because right now I have no idea where I stand with you" said John being serious now. John started to walk away.
"John why are you making this so hard for me!" cried Trish.
"Hard for you Trish I don't know what's between us anymore are we friends or more? I cant keep going back and forth like this anymore" said John sternly as he turned to Trish.
"John please don't do this!" cried Trish as tears welled up in her eyes.
"I have feelings for you Trish I always have but right now I don't know what to do or say to you" said John as Trish looked at him.
"I could never hurt you John your not the problem I am" said Trish.
"Trish I don't know what's being keeping you down but when your ready to talk about let me know only you know what you want" said John.
"John" said Trish.
"Trish I cant deal with this right now I got a match to go to I'll see you around" said John as he left leaving a pained, heartbroken Trish.
"I just want you John" said Trish quietly as she closed her eyes and sobbed quietly.
Her tear fell from her eyes down her rosy cheeks. Trish was upset and angry with herself at that moment. She wanted John but she was scared that her heart would be broken again. She felt like there was nothing in her heart but emptiness now.
Trish turned on the radio as 'thank god I found you' by Mariah Carey came on Trish listened to the lyrics as she though of John. Trish started to cry again. Trish had never cried so much in her life even after she and Jeff broke up and her and John weren't even together.
"Why can't I just tell him how much he means to me" thought Trish sadly.
Trish remembered when she was walking with Candice and Victoria backstage talking about girl stuff when they stopped to talk to the nature boy.
FLASHBACK
Trish, Candice and Victoria were talking to RIc Flair and as usual Candice being the slut she was began to flirt with Ric.
"Ric I was so worried for you for you match" said Candice running her wand down Ric's chest.
"Oh my god are you serious" though Trish disgusted.
"Awe don't worry ladies nothing's going to happen to the nature boy" said Ric as Candice tried to block Trish. That's when John came over.
"Hey Ric can I talk to you for a sec" said John as Ric nodded.
"Excuse me ladies" said Ric.
Candice smiled at John. Trish saw what Candice was doing and knew she was going to try and hit on John.
"Hey John" said Candice doing a sexy walk over to him.
"Hey" mumbled John as he just looked at her in utter confusion as Candice came closer to him and ran the wand down his chest.
"Do you want to hold this for me" said Candice sliding the wand into John's hand. Trish wanted to knock Candice out that moment. Candice knew full well that Trish liked John very much.
"Okay" said John holding the wand.
Trish decided against saying anything and looked down finding the floor more interesting then Candice hitting on the one guy Trish loved. John looked and saw Trish upset he knew she was hurting inside. John turned to Candice who was doing her go daddy dance.
"Candice if you keep doing that people are gonna think you're a penny hooker or something" said John as he handed the wand back to a flustered Candice.
"Who the hell do you think your talking too" hissed Candice angrily.
"I think I just told you a penny hooker" said John smirking as Candice and Victoria became angered.
"How dare you" yelled Candice as she stormed off with Victoria she stopped and turned to see Trish talking with John.
"He's so hot and sexy" thought Trish as she talked with John.
"Trish we have some work to do" snapped Candice as the world woman's champion turned and faced her 'friend'.
Trish turned on her heels and walked off with Candice and Victoria.
"I can't believe him how dare he call me a hooker who does he think he is" said Candice as Trish rolled her eyes.
"The WWE champ" muttered Trish as she flipped through a magazine.
"Sorry Trish what was that?" asked a angered Candice.
"He's the WWE champ Candice and he was probably joking anyways so calm down" said Trish as she got up and left the locker room.
Trish had a small smile as she brushed her hair past her shoulders she thought about what John had said she gave a small laugh.
"Trish?" said a voice as the three time babe of the year turned to see the WWE champ.
"Oh hey" said Trish.
"You angry for what I said about Candice?" asked John a little worried.
"I am not mad I actually found it pretty funny" said Trish with a smile.
"Well I was only saying the truth" said John as Trish laughed.
"So how's it going?" asked John.
"I'm okay you?" asked Trish.
"Good Trish can I ask you something?" asked John as Trish looked at him and nodded.
"Sure why not" said Trish.
"If you don't like Candice and Victoria why do you hangout with them?" asked John
"I don't know I guess its better to be friends with them than against them" said Trish.
"Well I think you your better than the two combined" said John as Trish smiled.
"Thanks it means a lot" said Trish as John smirked.
"So you still dating Jeff Hardy?" asked John who was pissed off inside.
"Yeah but its kind of on the rocky side" said Trish sadly.
"Yes I might just get my chance soon" though John.
"Oh I am sorry to hear that" said John as Trish smiled weakly.
"Has there ever been someone you really cared about?" asked Trish as John thought for a sec.
"Of course you!" thought John quickly.
"John?" asked Trish.
"Well there is this one girl she's beautiful, caring and has a great personality I think about her 24/7 she has all the qualities I look for in a girl" said John.
"Does this girl know how you feel about her" asked Trish not knowing it was her.
"Well its complicated" said John
"Well maybe if you told her maybe she'd feel the same for you" said Trish.
"No I don't think she does she's been dating this guy for a while and if I tell her it might ruin her three year relationship with Jeff Hardy" said John. He just realized what he had said.
"Oh damn no!" muttered John slapping his forehead.
"What did you just say?" asked Trish shocked.
"Nothing uh I gotta go see ya around" said John as he turned to leave.
"No you don't John your staying right here" said Trish as she grasped his arm.
"All those things you said you never told me" said Trish a little angry.
"How could I you were fucking dating someone Trish I didn't want to ruin it for you" said John angrily.
"You still could have said something all this time" said Trish.
"Why what good what that do!" said john
"It would have done something if I'd known at the time" said Trish with a softer tone.
"What would you have done" asked John…
END OF FLASHBACK
"Trishy you alright?" asked Torrie snapping Trish out of thoughts.
"It went great we had a fight" said Trish feeling down even more.
"Oh Trishy I am so sorry" said Torrie sadly.
"Tor what's wrong with me why cant I tell him how I feel why do I keep running away when things get deep between us" asked Trish as tears came into her eyes Torrie wrapped her arms around her and pulled her into a hug.
"Sweets you just got out of a three year relationship it's going to take a major impact on you for a while" said Torrie quietly as she hugged Trish tightly.
"When I kissed John it felt so…right then when I found out what was going on I panicked and I ran away" muttered Trish sadly.
"It happens to the best of us hon" said Torrie caringly.
"What am I supposed to do Torrie? I mean all I ever think is John, I think I'm in love with him he makes me feel like I belong and I feel so safe in his arms and it feels so warm and right" said Trish as Torrie nodded understandingly.
"You are in love with him Trishy" said Torrie as Trish looked at her.
"Yeah but he hates me now" said Trish painfully.
"Trish he doesn't hate you he could never really hate you he's just frustrated that all give him some time" said Torrie giving Trish a reassuring squeeze.
"Thanks Torrie" said Trish hugging Torrie.
"Well you helped me with Randy so I am going to help you with John" said Torrie.
"Sounds good" said Trish with a weak smile.
"Thanks again Tor" said Trish as Torrie smiled and hugged her.
"Come on we'll go and watch the rest of raw together" said Torrie as she grabbed Trish's hand and the two left for the woman's locker room…
END OF CHAPTER!