A/N: this is a short harry/draco which was a challenge by a friend who wanted to see if i could write anything other then fluff...i did 2 SO- here's my story! R&R and i will write a sequel b/c i want 2 anyway so if you really want it tell me just for kicks! lol. Dedicated to the one i love...he know who he is.
I Believe in You, Too...
you don't believe that i believe in love
i know it's hard to understand, but...
why don't you think i dream of happy endings?
do you deem me, draco malfoy, uncapable of feeling?
oh, you do?
why?
did you ever think that perhaps i did care for pansy?
you wanna know if i do now, don't you?
well, i don't.
at least not in that way.
but i do care.
i care alot actually
about alot of people
that suprise you?
it suprised me too
when i realized it hurt to see you cry
when it burned to turn my back
when i ached for contact so much that i hit you
when i fell into your eyes and didn't want to leave...
when i suprised you so much that you were speechless.
like now.
you're beautiful to me, you know?
of course not, but...
do you want to get to know me?
just a little?
do you want to know that i cry when it rains?
that the heartless git cries at all?
do you want to make me cry?
or is that just my thing...
i know i said it hurt me to see you cry, but...
well, it hurt me more to not see anything, but lifeless green
you came alive then.
did you notice?
did they?
did they see the flare of fire that burst into your eyes in sixth year
when i mocked your godfather?
oh, yes i knew who he was
and i did hurt you on purpose
i hurt you alot
and i hated myself
but i hated -them- more
gods, i loathed them
how dare they call themselves your friends whilst they let you fall away
i would have caught you, you know
i would have let you fall into me
into my arms,
my heart,
my life...
forever.
yes, i believe in forever
and happily ever afters
and the one
and true love
i thoughtyou didn't believe in love, too
you didn't,didyou?
this may suprise you, potter
but not everyone has given up on love at seventeen
or seven
or seventy
ah, but you're the exception aren't you?
even to your own rules, right?
'Malfoy has no feelings'...
but let's try to piss him off anyway
'Malfoy's a right moron'...
but don't worry 'mione
you'll beat him next time!
i'm tired harry
yes, i called you harry
that is your name isn't it?
i'm tired...so tired
of believing so hard
in myself...
in thinking i could be better,
that i could please my father, make him proud,
that i was smart enough,
handsome enough,
strong enough,
fast enough...
huh. funny how life's full of irony
you took such pride in your quiditch
you loved it,
i know you did.
you loved rubbing your victories in my face, as well
oh, yeah. deny it
but its true, you know
you wanted to prove to me,
to yourself,
that you were better then me
wanna know a secret?
i threw every single game.
oh, don't look so suprised...please
you know the stages of denial harry?
i think it's:
denial
anger
bargaining
depression
acceptance
intresting huh?
o.k. so i threw every game...
wanna know why?
because my father told me too
why?
because he was afraid
afraid for me...
that old uncle voldy would want me
because i would have been too perfect then,
no i'm not bragging you git.
i would have and you know.
i would have been too smart,
too athletic,
too popular,
too handsome,
too charming- yes, i know
hiswords-not mine
i would have been too much...
of a threat.
even more than you..
oh, come on
did you seriously think you were the strongest wizard ever
dumb luck harry.
powerful, but always incidental and
not picky too
ah, well- oh, you still don't believe me?
i'm stronger than you harry
i know i am
how? there are tests for such things
i'm stronger than him too
and dumbledore
but you're the only one i wanted to best
you...always, always you
why?
another time, my love
another time...