Chapter 10
chaos:
I stared at my caramel hands, eyeing the thin strands of blood hanging from them. Blood from someone who had obliviously shed blood countless of times with his words. The taint was easily seen from his cold violet eyes. The same eyes that met my cold cerulean eyes in fear. I love fear. It's so intoxicating. He holds no dominion over us anymore.
"chaos! chaos, wake up!"
My eyes drifted open tiredly, only to see Shion hovering at my bedside. All of last nights actions hit my brain full force. I winced and bit my lip gently.
"What is it, Shion?"
"Wilhelm's in the hospital!"
Oh joy, Wilhelm's in the—Wait a minute.
"In the hospital, you say?"
"Yes, he was brutally attacked last night. They don't know who did it. All of the camera's are blank, like no one walked down the hallway."
My powers must have blocked the cameras from picking me up. I could remember everything up to Wilhelm's office, but after that I…
"That's very unfortunate. Who will run the Dammërung now?"
"They don't expect Wilhelm to recover anytime soon, with his vocal cords ripped out."
I imagine my face must have gone very pale as I sat on my bed.
"This is terrible. It couldn't have come at a worse time," I murmured.
I had attempted to kill a human being and I couldn't even remember it. I shouldn't have fought that woman. But what was I supposed to do? I couldn't let Shion get injured.
"It gets worse."
More bad news? I locked eyes with my lover. Her eyes were rimmed with tears. Something far worse than Wilhelm's attempted murder must have occurred.
"What happened, Shion?" I asked, voice full of worry.
"It's Allen. He was murdered in Second Militia. A woman was on the screen with his head in her hands, threatening to destroy all Vector employees!"
A woman? I embraced Shion, wincing slightly as the tears began to flow. Allen was a friend that would be sorely missed. In a way, I felt responsible for his death. That woman could be the exact same woman who challenged me. All Vector employees…that would definitely include me…and Shion.
"I'm sorry, Shion," I whispered.
I was truly sorry that I couldn't have prevented all this. Some guardian I am.
"I should have treated him better. I didn't want him to be murdered like that."
My eyes widened a little at that. Would you have fallen for him instead of me? The thought rose unbidden in my mind. I attempted to push it away, but found that I couldn't. The more I thought about it, the more it loomed over me like a dark cloud.
"Why don't you retire to your room for the rest of the morning, Shion?"
My voice sounded strange, almost unhappy. I released her from my grasp and watched as she backed up, giving me a rather strange look.
"Is there something wrong, chaos?"
Yeah, there was a lot wrong with me. I couldn't channel it…or away.
"No, Shion. I just want you to get some rest."
"chaos—"
"Please don't ask again," I said forcefully.
Surprisingly, she stayed put.
"Do I say something wrong?"
"I…keep thinking…no. Shion, nevermind."
I found that I couldn't exactly express myself clearly. It was like the window of opportunity opened and shut quickly.
"You can tell me what's wrong, you know that right?"
I know already. I'm just not ready to tell you everything yet.
"I know. I just don't want to talk about it. I'm going for a walk."
chaos's demeanor frightened me somewhat. I was still wary of the side that I had seen hours ago. Dead black eyes peering into the depths of my soul…
He let the room quickly, leaving me behind his warm personal quarters. He was being mysterious as his namesake more than ever now. I was beginning to fear that I might be losing the man I loved. Something was bothering him…why won't he tell me anything? I glanced at the unkempt bed he left in his wake. Feathers graced the sheets in sporadic patterns…
Perhaps I wasn't being fair in demanding his secrets. I better catch up to him…
chaos:
The Durandal was docked in a large space colony, a few hundred light years away from the Dammërung and Second Militia. Little Master was releasing his people here where they would be safe. Safe from the pressing danger from the Zohar and that woman. We were going to be here for a while, so I took the liberty of taking a relaxing walk. I ignored the curious stares from the natives as I walked along the main street. I was used to being ogled at like some experiment. What I wasn't used to was the emotions running through my mind at the moment.
I was a newcomer to the grand scheme called love and I hated every moment of it. I normally had control of my emotions and I reveled in the power it gave me. But this…this was hard to deal with. Was I actually getting upset over Shion's tearful words? Why would I though? Allen was dead. He deserved mourning. That was simple enough. I sighed loudly. Love is a complicated beast.
"chaos!"
Uh? What? I paused in the middle of the street and turned around. Jin waved at me casually, with a small grin on his face. I wonder if he was actually happy or amused.
"Jin, shouldn't you be protecting your sister?" I asked playfully.
"She's fine. I'm not here for you, old friend."
I allowed a natural smile to grace my features.
"I hope you weren't hoping to shake any information from me," I snapped playfully.
"No, of course not. I know how secretive you are."
"Actually, I want to ask you a question."
Jin's smile got wider.
"It's about Shion, isn't it?"
I nodded.
"She was talking about Allen's death earlier. I…started to think about what would happen if she chose him over me. I started to get angry. I couldn't understand why…"
"Well, old friend, you're experience the perils of love. Maybe what you experienced was jealousy."
"It's horrible to be jealous of a dead friend. It's not in my nature."
"There are a lot of things that humans do are supposedly out of our nature. It's natural."
Wow, Jin at his finest.
"Thanks for the insight, Jin. Shall we continue our walk?"
Kiya:
I took in a small breath as I watched Yeshua from a small overlook. The other man named Jin walked alongside him, katana at his side. I wasn't particularly interested in him as I was with Yeshua. I wouldn't waste my time on that. My orders, however, were to stay put and observe. I wanted to create some havoc. My ultimatum practically begged me to kill Vector employees. It was all an elaborate ploy to get Yeshua to act. Someone beat me to Wilhelm, though. Whoever that was had my respect now.
Kiya.
I jumped to attention.
Yes, Master?
I will be paying a visit to the Durandal. I expect you to be there. No gnosis.
Understood.
Author's Note: I almost hit a roadblock with this story for the first time. I had everything planned out until the end…and completely changed it around with this and the last chapter. Bear with me, I'm trying out a new voice to chaos's point of view. Also, can anyone guess who Kiya's master is? I'll give you a cookie! Lol. Hey guys, you must see Xenosaga Ep. III's trailer. It is SO COOL. I can't wait to like play it.
Last but not least, feed the authoress.