Chapter 5: Secret

Yagami Residence, 05:55 PM…

I was in the bathroom now. I thought about another trouble which will trouble us. Now I must protect Miyako, because maybe I would get the same trouble as same as her too. But, I doubt my ability. Can I do that? I must try it.

07:05 PM…

"The food is already prepared!" I said joyfully. "OMG! Where's Miyako-san…?" I asked. I could see her at the balcony. "Seems she is sad…I don't suppose it…Miyako-san…who usually always happy…" I thought.

"Miyako-san…the food is already prepared…" I said. "Yes…" Miyako answered weakly.

Although there were the shrimps in front of me, I couldn't eat well. I occasionally looked at Miyako. I kept silent.

"Seems I cannot go to school again…" Miyako said sadly. "I must be abandoned by my friends…" she said again. "Actually I just can say like this, 'Don't worry…I'm here…I'm your best friend…' No, no, no…I can't…She's sad now…it's not a good attitude…I should help her…But…can I do that…because of my weakness…?" I thought.

"Hikari…" Miyako said anxiously. I shocked from my mind. "Mi…Miyako-san…I…" I said. "Now I…I'll protect you…because it's the one of our friendship promise…" I said. I saw Miyako smiled to me and I felt she said thanks to me.

"How if we sit at the balcony…?" I asked. "I don't mind…" Miyako answered.

"How cool…" I said as I opened the balcony window. I took off my harmonica from my pocket. "Miyako-san…can I play harmonica for you…? It's the only way to treat your sadness…" I said. "Mmmm…" Miyako answered.

I tried to don't cry when the melody reached the sad part. I played my harmonica beside her. I struggled hardly when the melody was reached the sad part (can you guess what will happen next?). Seems Miyako entertained with this melody, but I didn't.

"Hikari…thanks. You had been entertained me." Miyako said thanks to me. But I didn't answer her. "Hikari, doushite?" Miyako asked anxiously. My eyes were filled with tears which flowing freely on my cheek. "Hikari, you…" Miyako said. I shocked from my mind. "I'm okay…" I answered, trying to hide my tears. Miyako looked at me anxiously, then she gave something to me. It was a tissue paper. "Thanks…" I said to her.

Odaiba Elementary, 06:35 AM…

I felt it likes in the hell when I walked in the corridor. Because Miyako was behind me? I saw people saw us sharply. I didn't think, was it my fault? They told the rumors about I and Miyako, and I thought it was very painful. Like this: 'Pssst…look! That girl wants to be a guardian of that other girl behind her.' Or, 'I know! She wants to protect her, because she doesn't know about her real power.' Or, the most painful word is like this, 'Hey, that's Yagami from class 5-1. What does she want with that girl? Can she protect her, or she only be pretend to be her guardian angel? Hahahahaha!' I grabbed Miyako's hand tightly and ran to her class, because I couldn't take anymore with those damn rumors.

"If you called because of that incident, tell the truth…" I said as I left Miyako's class.

Class 5-1

"Hikari-chan, what's going on?" Daisuke asked. "Nothing…" I said as I walked to my seat. "I'm sorry if I look cold, but…" I thought.

Break hour

"Hikari-chan, are you really ill?" Daisuke asked. "Nothing…" I answered slowly. "How if I give you something?" Daisuke asked again. "Never mind…" I answered. "Then, let's go to DigiWorld! We must defeat Digimon Kaizer!" Daisuke asked me to go to DigiWorld.

I couldn't control my emotion again. "Shut up! Shut up!" I shouted to him as I stood up from my seat. "Hi…Hikari-chan…" Daisuke said nervously.

I started to speak. "DigiWorld or not, it's your works! Please don't trouble me! You can go to DigiWorld with Takeru-kun and Iori-kun! And please leave me alone!" I said angrily to him. Sure, I didn't feel anything when I left our class. "Hikari-chan…you…you angry to me…" Daisuke said to himself.

I ran quickly to the attic. I puffed as I opened the attic door. "Wh…what did I do…?" I thought as I walked. I sat down at the attic. "I…I couldn't control my emotion…Daisuke-kun must be hate me…" I thought. As I thought, tears flowing freely on my cheek.

I took my handphone from my pocket, then I wrote something (not for send SMS). It wrote: I cannot become a good personal. It's better if I die. I saved it in the outbox, then I dissolved in the sadness.

After the last school bell rang, I went to Miyako's class.

"Hikari, thanks. Finally I declared innocent." Miyako said to me. "Yes…I hope you're happy…" I said slowly, then I left her. "Hikari…I feel it's her last word…" Miyako thought. I didn't realize if Miyako followed me.

I walked without a way. Can you guess where will I go? I went to the railway.

Maybe it's rather crazy, but I want to suicide in this place. I felt sad. "I'm sorry…Tailmon…Daisuke-kun…I hope you forgive my fault…Takeru-kun…Iori-kun…Miyako-san…please don't make yourself sad…" I thought. As the train came, I walked ahead to the railway. I already will if I die. When the train came near to me, somebody grabbed my hand. "Watch out!" she shouted and pushed out me from the railway.

When I regained consciousness, I saw the familiar face in front of me. Yes, it was Miyako.

"Miyako-san…" I spoke weakly. "Why with you?" Miyako asked. I kept silent. "No…nothing…I only want to cross this railway…" I answered, trying to hide the reality if I want to suicide. Miyako knew if I lied.

"Lie. Why with you? Please say it to me." Miyako said anxiously as holding my shoulder. I kept silent and tears flowing freely on my cheek.

"Actually…I had been hurt Daisuke-kun's feelings…" I started to speak. "I tried to keep the secret…and…Daisuke-kun asked me repeatedly, about DigiWorld…, or else…, and…it made me very cold and rude to Daisuke-kun…, until I scolded him…He must be hate me…I can't stand anymore again…" I said sadly.

"Don't be hopeless." Miyako entertained me. "You must be optimizing if Daisuke-kun will forgive you one day." she adds. I felt calm and she asked me to go home with her.

To be Continued