6:37am

Outside Scully's Apartment Building.

I couldn't allow myself to wait for him to walk out so I left. I left him there asleep in my bed, in my apartment. I bathed quietly packed a few items and left. I did so to avoid the inevitable, his leaving. I wanted so much to tell him how I felt, but he obliviously feels differently about me, about us. The way he told me to believe that he'll never forget, but If I meant that much to him why would he still leave? Those are the questions that I can't bare to stand witness against the truth too.

Here I am sitting in my car, staring up at my window, a minute part of me hoping that he'll appear and beckon me to return to his safety. Seven years I've worked with this man and now I'm leaving him, before he leaves me its so f'ing ironic. To think that my only reason for staying was him and he is now the only reason that I've leaving.

I left him a note requesting him not to come looking for me, not to inquire to anyone about my whereabouts. I told him it would be to hard to say goodbye and I wished him well in whatever he does in the future. I told him I hoped the truth that's he's spent so long looking for, would lead him to some kind of happiness in the end. I placed the letter on my nightstand, and with one last glimpse at his sleeping form I slipped out of the madness of my apartment and into the calmness of the early morning.

I'm half way to Mom's house, I need to talk to her I need her to tell me it will be alright. She'll probably be awake, I should call first just in care Mulder does before I get there.

I flip open my cell phone and catch myself almost pressing his speed dial button. It's going to be so hard forgetting that movement; hearing his voice on the other end.

"You have to let go Dana, it's the only way."

There are those voices again. I think I'm losing it.

"Hello? Is anyone there, Dana is that you?" My mother's voice brings me out of my trance and I answer her with a shaky voice.

"Yea, mom. I was just calling to make sure you weren't asleep still. Are you busy? I was on my way over I didn't want to disturb you if you had plans or something..." now I was rambling to hide the fear.

"Dana what's wrong? Fox just called over here, frantic looking for you.."

"He did? When? What did you tell him?"

"I told him I hadn't heard from you in a few days and if I did I'd let him know, what is this about you leaving Dana? Where are you going?"

"I can't talk about that right now mom, I'm coming over I'll be in there about 20 minutes."

"Dana I'm worried about you.."

"Okay mom see you in a few." I didn't want to answer any of her questions over the phone.

Twenty-minutes later heading up her walkway to the front door. I hesitated not knowing what I wanted to say or what to expect, so I knocked lightly trying to hold back my emotions as best as possible.

"Oh honey, what's wrong please come in?" She gathered me into a hug after closing the door and held me for a while. She always knew when I needed to be held.

"Mom,..I didn't know what else to do." I could feel the tears beginning to gather behind my eyes.

"Dana, what's wrong why did Fox call here looking for you?"

"He's leaving mom, he's leaving without me and I can't..., I don't know how to handle it."

"What?" I can see she wants further information.

"The Bureau is doing some kind of reorganization, or so they claim, and they are splitting us up." I stare into those eyes that are so much like mine trying to draw strength from within them.

"Why can't you transfer with him? I don't understand?"

"They won't allow it, I was giving a new assignment, back to teaching forensics. I think it's a ploy to separate us, he accepted mom, he thinks its going to allow him better excess to his quest. I've been left with two options, accept my reassignment or resign."

"Oh Dana, I'm so sorry…"

"They used me mom, they used me to get to him, they used me to invalidate him, but I couldn't, I won't, and now they're separating us. How can they do this mom? I've been abducted, left childless, lied too, shot at, kidnapped and injected with some virus of unknown origin, some foreign metal object was placed in my neck, given cancer, all because of what? What are they hiding mom? What is the secret that would cause all of this to happen to me? For god sakes they killed Melissa, my only sister, and just to think that bullet was meant for me…." I hold her hands with such force that she has to repositions them, but never let's go.

"Dana, but after all of that, all that you've been through, you stayed, why?" I know what she's doing.

"I love him so much, I've never cared about anybody this mu…I never knew that I could care about anybody as much as I do him, until I meet him. He completes me mom and now….now they're taking him away."

All the pain and hurt that I've been holding in for so long finally hit its plateau and I collapsed into her arms. That last fledgling piece of sanity that I held through getting dressed and driving over, dissipated and my emotions where released in a tirade of sobs that took control of my body. Excreting every ounce of energy that I had left. My body and mind where completely drained emotionally and physically. I felt my mom lay me across her sofa and spread my grandmother's quilt over my emotionally raged body..

"Please don't tell him, I'm here." She gave me a kiss on the cheek.

"I won't, its against my better judgment, but I won't go against you wishes. Dana, honey, I know you'll both works this out in your own way, you always do."

I hate that she can have so much hope in something that I've given up on. I just need a little bit more time to get me through this.

TBC...

Sorry guys that it has been so long since I've updated, I wrote the next chapter some time ago but my brother's computer went on the fritz and I had to re write the whole thing. :0(