Twenty-four hours wasn't enough, I thought it would help. I though if I could just stay in my childhood room it would all dissipate into a bad dream. My mom hasn't asked anymore questions, although I know she wants too. I gave her my resignation letter to give to Skinner, she hadn't asked me anything further, only looked at me with complete sorrow. Skinner called but I didn't have the well to speak to him. He sent his regards and wished me luck in my future endeavors. I use to blame Skinner. I though he was in cahoots with the shadow government, but I learned that he was just another pawn then their lies and deceit. Maybe I would contact him whenever I settled and felt confident enough to do so.

Where would I go from here? What would I do? I can't stay bolt up in my childhood security blanket forever. I can't wallow in the emptiness of this abandonment that I'm feeling. I have to forge through my past and make my own way, but I don't have the strength right now to deal with all of that. I just want to lay here and forget the last year with Mulder, forget the last six years on the X-files. I don't regret them I just want to forget them for right now. I want to be able to breath. To exist in my own right and know that everything behind will stay just that.

Someone's knocking on the door, maybe it's one of mom's friends. I'm not really up to visiting with anyone right now…OH GOD it can't be….

"Where is she Mrs. Scully?" Muffled or not I can tell his voice from anywhere. I slide out of bed and open the door stepping out into the hallway.

"Fox, calm down."

"Calm down, Mrs. Scully with all do respect, I am calm considering that you lied to me when I called yesterday. Her car is outside."

"I didn't lie, Fox, she wasn't here when you called.."

"Well, I need to see her."

"I don't think she wants to see you Fox. She's had a bad night."

"Why, she has to, she has to understand, I have to make her understand." He took a seat with my mother's guidance, dropping his head into hands. I want to go to him so bad,

I want to take him in my arms and let him know that everything will be alright. I hate seeing him like this. I can feel wet hot tears falling down my face and I reach up to wipe them away. I can't start now, he'll hear me.

"Fox, are you leaving?" He shakes his head yes and any hope that I held of him coming over here to tell me that he changed his mind, has vanished. This hurts so much.

"I don't have to ask you of your feelings toward and for my daughter; I already know. I've known since the day I meet you when she went missing. It was reinforced when you rushed to her side to support her when she found Emily. When she has cancer, when she was given that virus. Countless of other times Fox, you've been there for her and she for you. You two never seem to have the ability to admit how your true feelings. Your going to have to face those fears one day Fox. I'm not going to tell you what you should do or how you should go about doing it, but maybe it isn't meant to be yet. Just do one thing for me..?" She was holding his head in her hands like a mother does a child.

"What's that Mrs. Scully?"

"Don't give up hope."

I think he smiled at her. Giving her a hug before raising and walking out the door never looking back. My body couldn't take anymore and I slide down the wall clenching my knees to my chest. He's really leaving. I'm really alone now.

I know words somehow gave him strength, but I can't help and think that they were some how speaking to me.

"Dana. sweetheart, come down here, how much did you hear?" I get up and slide down the stairs slowly and she envelops me into her arms again.

"Everything…I…he. I'm going to miss him so much." She just held me until I calmed down enough to speak again. My mom has always been a strength to me that I used differently than my brothers and sister. She never pushed but she knew that if I needed her I'd come. Right now I needed her, I needed her strength. If was a different strength than what I drew from Mulder, she strength was unconditional, un-controlling, it wasn't contingent on love, but rather life.

"Dana, I want you to tell me something. I know it may embarrass you to tell me, but exactly how close had you and Fox actually become?" I bit my lips in the characteristic way, which I do when I'm strongly debating whether to admit something. Mulder pointed it out once. He always took notice of my nuances…

"I love him." Was all that I could admit and I guess that's all she needed, to confirm what she was already thinking.

"What are you going to do Dana?"

"I don't know mom, I think I just need to breakaway from all of this." She looked at me as if she wanted to give me the world if I asked her too. "Can you just hold me right now mom? I just need a little bit more time."

"You'll figure it out, you always do, I'll be here for you." I stare into her eyes, I love her so much, she'll always have hope in me, even if I don't.

That's it guys…I want to thank everybody for their reviews and following the plot even though I did leave you guys guessing lol and I promise there will be more….The next story in this saga will be entitled "Breakaway".!Smooches!