Title: Reassurances and Doubts
Theme: February "Eiri's Birthday" Rating: M
Disclaimer: I do not own Gravitation or its characters. I do not make any profit from this text.
Warnings: Brief explicit sexual content
Summary: Shuichi needs some extra reassurance.

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explicit content deleted - Shuichi is blowing Eiri.

Eiri was trying to buck under him again, wanting more friction. Shuichi sometimes thought Eiri could be childish with his constant demanding nature. Eiri seemed to believe the world would always bend to his will and it would cater to him. Tohma had added to that myth, and if Shuichi was honest with himself he had as well. Ugh Tohma! Shuichi nearly lost his own erection when he thought of Tohma's feelings for his Eiri.

Shuichi must have stopped his ministrations because Eiri made another impatient buck and nudged his head with his hand. Shuichi ignored him and sat up turning to face Eiri. "Do you love me more than Tohma?"

Eiri blinked a couple of times, a confused expression on his face. "What?" was all he could manage to get out.

Shuichi frowned at Eiri. "You heard me, do you love me more than Tohma?"

Eiri couldn't believe Shuichi was asking him this while he was giving him an amazing blowjob. "I don't love Tohma" Eiri finally bit out as he began to feel anger overtaking his surprise.

Shuichi grimaced but accepted that this would be the best he'd get.

Eiri frowned and gestured to his wilting erection, "Do you want to discuss my family or go back to blowing me? As you can see I don't find my brother in law an exciting subject."

Shuichi grimaced again, he wished he had kept his mouth shut. Sometimes he just let his mouth run away, spewing his thoughts before he'd had time to think; especially when he was insecure like he felt after Eiri had ignored him for awhile. He let out a soft sigh and let his head fall forward, his hair eclipsing his eyes.

Eiri let out his own exasperated sigh before roughly grabbing Shuichi's arm and dragging him up into his lap. He tenderly clutched the singer to him and leaned down to inhale Shuichi's scent from his hair. Eiri let the close contact calm them both. Shuichi sniffled, and harshly scrubbed his face with his hands. He wouldn't cry again, he knew he was just feeling insecure.

He turned his watery eyes towards the novelist. "I'm sorry Eiri…. I just get … like this, when you get busy..." Shu scrubbed his face again, "I mean, I love you damnit and I need you…"

Eiri leaned in close to kiss his boy. He let his kiss be as gentle as he could, reassuring Shuichi of his feelings that he almost never verbally expressed. "Shhhh" Eiri whispered as he returned to kissing, allowing it to heat up a little. "I know you get like this, I just don't know why you picked Tohma as the way to express it."

Shuichi was surprised Eiri was being so kind to him about his outburst, the novelist had kicked him out of bed for less before. Reveling in the tender kisses Shuichi let himself relax, shifting around so he was straddling Eiri's hips. Shuichi broke the kiss and splayed his hand against Eiri's chest. "Then promise me you'll throw that cake away that Tohma baked you?"

Eiri shrugged in response, "If that will make you get back down there and blow me then, yes I'll throw it away!"

Shuichi smiled, it was the best he could hope for confirmation of Eire's love for him against his rival for Eiri's affections. He slid off Eiri's lap and returned to the task at hand, ready to give Eiri his birthday present!

A/N: Thank's Hawkcloud for all of your advice on dialogue about my previous drabble – I finally tried to write some!

Thank you for reading – reviews appreciated!