DISCLAIMER: Evangelion is the property of the legitimate and lawful copyright holders, which most assuredly is not me. This story is for my own personal enjoyment and entertainment.
If you've gotten to the third chapter already and haven't figured out this is a Lemon I suggest seeing an optometrist, a psychologist, or both.
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"This" is speech.
'This' is thoughts.
This is Leliel telepathy.
This is memories
Leliel and Co.
The chiming of a phone sounded throughout the Katsuragi household. One, two, three times the ringing echoed in the kitchen and throughout the apartment before it was answered by the resident chef and occasional doormat Shinji Ikari.
"Katsuragi residence." Shinji said in his habitual monotone, hoping he didn't sound out of breath.
"Heey Shinji." A, if not drunk, then almost certainly buzzed Misato Katsuragi, said before regaining some composure before continuing. "I'm out drinking with Kaji, so I'll be home late." Misato stated rather bluntly and plainly, Shinji suspected to try and disguise just how far gone she already was. But before Shinji could voice any concerns, or even say 'Okay' the line abruptly went dead. So with a sigh he placed it back on its stand and returned to the couch in the living room where a certain redhead was sitting cross-legged and still pouting over the interruption the phone call had caused.
"Who was it?" Asuka Langley Sohryu snarled, as if she could rip out the caller's throat with the mere tone of her voice. Shinji took a moment to look Asuka up and down, his gaze lingering a bit on her bare, crossed legs, before settling on her eyes. His German roommate was wearing strikingly red see-through panties that had gorgeous lace work that prevented them being too revealing but still risqué enough that someone, unaware of her sex life, would say that they were entirely too mature for someone of her age. Two protrusions just above her crossed arms revealed that the yellow shirt, two sizes too big, was the only other article of clothing the redhead was wearing.
"Misato. She's out drinking with Kaji, so she'll be home late." Shinji said as his mind replayed what they had been doing before being interrupted. Passionate kisses, his hands under her shirt, grasping at her mounds and exciting her nipples with gentle twists and pinches. Asuka took a moment to process what Shinji had said before replying.
"If that's the case…" The redhead began as she uncrossed her legs and looked at her fellow pilot standing before her in a pink shirt and blue boxers that did a bad job at hiding the bulge of his growing hard-on.
"Whaaaa…!?" Shinji cried out as Asuka lunged at him suddenly, pouncing on him and twirling him around so that he landed with his back flat on the couch and with her on top of him. His erection had come loose in the kerfuffle and now the alternate textures of the see-through velvet and the soft lace was making his cock swell even more as her hips instinctively ground themselves on his member.
"…she probably won't be home tonight." Asuka said with a predatory grin on her face as she looked down at Shinji before moving her lips to his ear and whispering in a sultry voice "So we're gonna need to do something to kill the time…" she said nibbling his ear lobe before placing soft kisses on his neck.
"Isn't that what we were doing before?" Shinji objected as tingling lightning cascaded through his body.
Now as much as Shinji enjoyed Asuka when she was in the driver's seat of their escapades that wasn't what he wanted now. His blood was up, it felt as if it was boiling in his veins as the testosterone coursed through his body. That need to dominate that existed in all males no matter how well-trained they were was beginning to take hold. Shinji wanted to fuck, not be fucked. With that in mind he grabbed hold of Asuka's hands with his own and using their hips as a fulcrum he pivoted their intertwined bodies so that not only was he now on top, but his left knee was between her legs.
"Hmmm!?" Asuka's protest at being handled in such a way died as Shinji covered her mouth with his. His tongue forcing its way into her mouth and meeting hers. They struck and grappled for dominance much in the same way two thumbs would wrestle in a thumb war before finally Asuka's submitted. At the same time Shinji placed his other knee between Asuka's legs and began spreading them open.
'Show me what a man does to his lady.' The thought rolled through seemingly unbidden in Asuka's mind as the lizard brain took over as she melted in the face of Shinji's lustful onslaught that an older version of herself would have been floored over.
Shinji finally brought his lips away from hers and moved his face lower, passing her chest and teasing her nipples through the yellow shirt as he went before coming to the hem and lifting it up to reveal her midriff. He knew Asuka's belly above where her ovaries were was her most ticklish and sensitive spot on her body. So he began tenderly kissing those spots while one of his hands kept both of hers above her head on the armrest of the couch while the other rubbed at Asuka's mound through her panties.
Shinji's kisses sent shivers through Asuka's body and goosebumps covered her legs. Asuka's excitement was growing and she could feel the furnace her insides were becoming at the stimulation her body was getting. Shinji could feel Asuka's panties begin to become damp and let go of Asuka's hands and stopped his ministrations so that he could remove his shirt. Asuka did the same before sitting up and taking off Shinji's boxers for him, one foot at a time as they crumpled onto the floor. Asuka then laid back down but lifted her ass and hips up off the couch so that Shinji could take her panties off. Shinji grabbed the elastic band on the sides and pulled them down. As they passed her hips and began to turn inside-out they did that weirdly sexy thing where the bottom of the panties, the part that covers a woman's opening, sticks to the body for a moment before almost popping off and releasing itself. Shinji always liked to see that, it was like finding a buried gem or some other hidden treasure that fought so hard to remain secret but was finally revealed just for him.
The red velvet and lace dropped to the floor with the rest of their clothes and they lied there on the couch looking into each other's eyes as Shinji massaged her opening with his musician's fingers. Shinji's cock was almost in agony in anticipation, the tip of his dick covered in gleaming pre-cum. He positioned his cock at her entrance and moved the cockhead slowly up and down her rapidly moistening lower lips coating the tip of his rock-hard erection in a mixture of his pre-cum and her juices.
"Are you ready?" Shinji asked Asuka, any sense of meekness absent from his voice. The German redhead looked up at Shinji, her back lying on the couch, her legs spread wide, and his cock pressing against her opening, waiting for a single word before beginning. She could imagine it now, his cock stroking her insides, penetrating ever deeper as his thrusts became greater and greater until reaching crescendo. As Asuka's imagination ran wild she uttered the single word she knew would make it reality:
"Yes."
At her invitation, Shinji pushed his cock into her perfectly shaved pussy. He met a little resistance at her lower lips with his cockhead, but once that was overcome his whole shaft slid almost effortlessly into her wet hole. Their eyes never wavering from looking into the orbs of the other. As he hilted himself fully in Asuka he saw her bite her lip and her eyes become glazed over.
Shinji brought his face down to Asuka's in a passionate series of kisses. At the same time he began to move his shaft slowly back and forth and felt Asuka whimper through the kiss as he did. The slow strokes soon turned into deep and fast thrusts as the testosterone coursing in Shinji's blood demanded. Soon the apartment was filled with the smacks of his hips colliding into Asuka's. The friction between her walls of her tight pussy and his cock sending pleasure through both of their bodies.
Shinji broke the kiss and could hear Asuka's breathing hitching in response to his deep strokes. She felt the fire begin to build up in her as her body started to crave the release offered by the cock inside it.
Asuka folded her legs around Shinji's back as he continued plunging his member deeper and deeper into her. Each thrust he nearly removed his cock from her before ramming the entire length back into her with the speed and intensity she loved and Shinji's lust demanded.
So needless to say Asuka was momentarily surprised when Shinji stopped his thrusts, undid her legs behind his back and fully removed his engorged cock from her now achingly lonely pussy. She was about to ask him "What the fuck Ikari?!" when he reached his hands under her, grabbed her ass and began twisting her body over. 'Ah that's what he wants.' Asuka thought, a smile forming on her face as she complied with Shinji's desires and flipped over so she was on her knees and her ass was facing Shinji doggy-style.
'It feels so much deeper than usual.' Asuka thought as Shinji entered her pussy with his cock, his hands on her hips guiding her onto his cock. She arched her back downwards so that her face was buried in the cushions on the couch while her hands stretched out and grabbed onto the armrest, both to prevent her head colliding with it on each thrust and to give support to her body. As Shinji kept stroking his cock into her pussy her hands gripped the armrest ever tighter and she thought she might bite through her lip to stop the moan that was building up.
Shinji moved his hands from her hips to her ass, each hand grabbing a handful of cheek as he continued to pound away. His view was one that wouldn't be out of place in one of his fantasies. He looked down and he saw his cock sliding in and out of her perfect pussy, his hands grabbing a firm hold of her ample ass, her arched back and most of all her gorgeous locks of red hair spread out all over the couch in a rough circle emanating from her head. To top it all off Shinji heard Asuka begin to moan in pleasure as his thrusts became too much for her body to resist.
The fire that had started in her now felt like it was a raging inferno threatening to burn a hole straight through her. In response the walls of her pussy tightened around Shinji's cock desperately seeking more stimulation. Shinji himself was getting close to the edge himself, his balls had almost completely receded as they readied their load and burned in expectation.
Shinji's already strong and intense thrusts became even more so as he abandoned the rhythm he had used and now each thrust became its own self-contained entity. His hips smacking into her and his shaft probing as deep as it could in an attempt to bring her over the edge. On the fourth such thrust Asuka could hold out no longer and let out a croaking moan as her walls clamped down around Shinji's member and lightning shot through her body and she shook and wiggled as her brain temporarily lost control of her muscles to the orgasm coursing through her.
While Asuka was still trembling from the intensity of her orgasm Shinji pulled his cock out of her pussy and, being at the edge of his own orgasm, shot his load onto Asuka's ass. His had also been an intense orgasm sending four or five spurts of viscous cum across Asuka's ass. Two of them ended up in splotches on her ass, but the rest melded into one big mass that was now sliding down the crack in her ass, covering her chocolate hole and drenching her labia in his cum. Shinji's semen eventually lost its battle with gravity and began dripping from Asuka's lower lips as both of them stayed in place, panting at the exertion of love-making.
Now Asuka usually preferred Shinji cum inside of her. But while Asuka may be a genius she hasn't yet figured out a valid excuse for why, or how Shinji's semen could possibly get into her vagina other than the obvious.
So to be safe in the week leading up their scheduled synch or medical tests Shinji didn't cum inside of her on the off chance Asuka would miss cleaning it out. Was it overkill, yeah probably, but it was a case of better safe than sorry.
As for Asuka's hymen or lack thereof, that had been handled way back. Their first time had been shortly after their battle with the 9th Angel, Matarael. While towels could be washed and condoms disposed of discreetly, unless Section 2 was looking through their cups of ramen in the trash those sick fucks. Gynecologists, or more specifically Dr. Ritsuko Akagi would have questions. They had thought of this with ideas ranging from it breaking during a gym class at school to Asuka pleasuring herself too hard. Asuka had even stored a vial of her blood in the freezer, from a nosebleed, in a place Shinji knew Misato would never look. But then luck, if you could call it that, threw them a bone with the 10th Angel's orbital attack and freefall.
The plan was simple, hide the frozen blood in her plugsuit, where it would melt onto her thighs and then claim the exertion of catching the angel had broken her hymen. Asuka wasn't worried about it drying out and giving away the ruse since experience told her extricating pilots from Evas was a lengthy process and besides transport to a medical facility where there was a gynecologist would likely take time.
So after Sahaquiel had been dealt with, Shinji had caught it rather than Asuka but Tokyo-3 not being part of the Pacific Ocean was more important than the plan, and besides Asuka really had exerted herself quite a lot in stabbing the core. Once the all clear had been given, Asuka had put in a call to Misato and the bridge crew in a quiet, almost timid voice, none of them had ever heard her use before, requesting medical help. A worried Misato asked Asuka what was wrong to which the reply was "Something broke." Misato likely realizing what she meant made her the priority and got her to the nearest hospital ASAP.
All nonessential staff had been evacuated, including Ritsuko, or maybe she didn't want to risk her life on Misato's plan and its 0.00001% chance of success. So the only one on call to see Asuka had been a junior medical orderly maybe five years older than Asuka. She had really hammed it up, always acting as if on the verge of tears as she removed her plugsuit and the orderly saw her thighs covered in blood. Though before she could do a thorough examination Asuka backed away and asked to wash up. The sympathetic, and inexperienced, orderly had let her. Which was good because if she had looked then and there she would have realized there wasn't actually any blood in Asuka's vagina and something was up. Asuka came back later and had merely asked "Is it gone?" to which the orderly had nodded before filling out the update to her medical record. Thus Asuka's hymen became the only "official" casualty of the 10th Angel's attack.
Misato must have been told, and feeling guilty her plan had "caused" this, because during their trip to the ramen stand for their victory meal she doted on Asuka and tried to cheer her up even suggesting they stop for ice cream on the way home before remembering she was broke. Misato's promised ice cream therefore turned out to be a shot of some very old, and expensive, sake once they returned from their "steak dinner" at the ramen stand. Later when Akagi and the other NERV staff returned, Ritsuko pulled Asuka aside and offered her condolences, Asuka didn't really remember the general cliched words she had said since the phrase "Hook, line, and sinker." Was blaring too loudly in her brain. Later that week Hikari had also gotten her the pill, and from then on they essentially had free license to do whatever and oh boy did they.
Asuka was pulled out of her reminiscing at those extremely pleasant memories by a light, almost playful, slap on her posterior, reminding her that she was still face down and ass up on the couch. She heard the rhythm of Shinji's chest, still heaving from their latest escapade. Asuka reached over to drawer next to the couch and pulled out a pack of wet wipes and cleaned off most of the semen covering her ass, though she would still probably need a shower later it was enough for her to sit on the couch next to Shinji. After she cleaned up the small puddle on the couch praying to every god she knew it wouldn't stain she sat down on the couch.
Asuka curled up under Shinji's arm, her head resting on his shoulder as they sat side by side. Asuka was making little circles with her fingers on Shinji's thigh while he was using his thumb on her shoulder-blade to do the same. They were both very tactile people, always wanting to touch the other one, to know they were there, to know they were real, that they weren't going anywhere. 'Okay Sohryu you've danced around the issue long enough.'
"Did she like me?" Asuka asked. Shinji knew what she meant as his mind recalled standing in the graveyard earlier that day with his father, Gendo Ikari. She had been worried, not because she really thought Shinji's mom would be looking down from heaven and give Shinji her telepathic approval or not, but instead because Shinji was facing his demons. Something she, with all her strength and genius still had trouble with.
"She's not there it's just a marker, a memorial." His face darkening at the response and the memory of what his father said before his expression softened and he continued, "But there's no better place to go to tell her. So I let her know about you, about how I'm happy now like when she was with me." Shinji finished with a small smile and a squeeze to the redhead's shoulder.
"I wish I knew what she was like. What she looked like." Asuka responded in a quiet voice. Since their relationship had started they had both opened up about their pasts and the tragedies that lie within. Their mothers, their loneliness, constant searching for purpose and belonging.
"There are no pictures anymore. My father got rid of them all. To forget." Shinji answered with a hint of sadness in his voice. While his father may deal with pain by shuttering it away and disposing of everything that could remind him of it, Shinji had learned with Asuka that you have to face the world's slings and arrows if you were ever to be free, ever to be happy.
"Asshole, thinking only of himself and his own pain." Asuka bitterly replied even as she wrapped her arms around Shinji's chest in a sign of comfort and support.
"Worst part is thinking back, I can't even remember what she looked like. Just the sense of a smile." Shinji said in a melancholic voice as he dug up the memory of mother and found that even the smile was fading.
"Ironic. You can't remember your mother's face…" Asuka said before turning her head and burying her head as far into Shinji's chest as it would go before continuing "…but I can't forget mine." Her voice becoming very quiet as the image of a smiling face hanging from a ceiling flashed through her mind as Shinji felt her body shudder at the dark memory.
Shinji felt the wetness on his chest and he knew tears were forming in Asuka's eyes. He twisted his body around and grabbed Asuka's shoulders pulling her up, gently wiping away the barely formed tears from her closed eyelids.
Asuka opened her eyes and saw Shinji's stern look of determination as he wrapped his arms around her in a comforting embrace. Her head resting on his shoulder as her hands, constrained by Shinji's hug as they were absently played with his chest. She remained there, Shinji's arms felt so strong despite being so scrawny. The safety and security they offered soothing away the pain of nearly a decade of nightmares.
It reminded Asuka of the epiphany she had had after Mt. Asama, about men, about Shinji. They aren't testosterone fueled studs, they are the ones who when push comes to shove, they do what they need to. That's why she had talked to him…why she had kissed him…why she had opened her heart to him afterwards.
They stayed like that for a while, basking in each other's presence, letting their cares melt away. Until they heard the hissing sound of the freezer door being opened. Pen-Pen waddled across the living room towards the kitchen and a deliciously intoxicating can of beer. On his return trip he paused and looked at the two lovers, lying on the couch. He didn't "wark" or really even make a clear expression, he just looked at them with a blank face, or what passes for a blank face on a warm-water penguin, before returning to his freezer beer in hand. This whole exchange cause Asuka to look at the clock and realize the time. While Misato hadn't specified when or if she would be back tonight it paid to be cautious. So with very little enthusiasm in her voice Asuka broke the comfortable silence:
"I better go wash up now." Asuka said getting up from the couch and heading towards the bathroom. A nice hot shower was always something she enjoyed, though especially after coitus and emotionally demanding days. As she was showering she faintly heard the hiss of the front door opening and muted voices through the walls.
'Phew. Good idea there Sohryu in going to the shower when you did.' She shut off the water and grabbed a towel as she heard the voices come closer. Through the bathroom doors and walls she heard snippets of the conversation "…ood to see you." "She'll be alright." "…lay her down.". As they went past the bathroom towards Misato's room. Asuka could put two and two together and realized Misato must be horrendously drunk and Kaji brought her home.
'What an excellent opportunity.' Asuka thought a devilish plan forming in her brain as she put the towel on, opened the door, and ran to catch Kaji in the doorway.
"Won't you stay Kaji?" Asuka said as she ran down the corridor in her towel before clinging to his arm. She smelt Misato's perfume on him, but figured it was either from him carrying her or maybe something more…frisky. She filed that away for later, her goal now was to convince Kaji and additionally anyone he talked to that she was still crushing on him and definitely not having copious amounts of sex with Shinji.
Despite knowing it was a ruse Shinji still had a pang of jealousy in his heart as he saw Asuka fawn and drape herself over Kaji in nothing but a towel.
"I don't have a change of work-clothes Asuka." Kaji said in his particular unflappable and charming way as he extricated himself from Asuka's grasp being careful to not touch any of the goods. Asuka toyed with the idea of letting the towel drop to really sell the subterfuge she was attempting but quickly discarded it as a step too far.
"But Kaji it's so boring here with this baka! I want a real man!" Asuka said in her most pouty voice. If it wouldn't give the game up Shinji would have rolled his eyes at her statement. Wait did he and not realize it? He wasn't sure and couldn't remember. How do you forget what you did or didn't do ten seconds ago?
Kaji merely gave a slight smile and headed towards the door, jacket draped over his back.
"Goodbye Shinji, goodbye Asuka. Take care of Misato." Kaji said in his signature tranquil voice with a grin on his unshaven face as the front door shut between them.
"You don't think you overdid it a little?" Shinji asked Asuka after a moment.
"It had to be convincing baka!" Asuka said in a voice more like how she talked to him at school, harsh and critical. She turned to look him in the eyes before continuing, "Besides…" she placed a hand on his cheek before continuing in the her soft, warm voice that was reserved for pillow talk "…you know how much I love you."
Shinji reached up and caressed the hand on his cheek before responding.
"I love you too Asuka." Shinji said with a smile on his face, the jealousy forgotten as he stared into the cerulean orbs of his lover and saw only love there in the windows of her soul. He leaned over to her and they shared a long, loving kiss, their arms wrapping around each other, the breath from his nose tickling her as they shared this moment. But eventually it had to end.
"Good night Shinji." Asuka said as the kiss ended and she turned and headed to her room.
"Good night Asuka." Shinji replied as he watched her head down the hallway before sighing and going to bed himself.
Several Days Later. Women's Locker Room. NERV.
"That Bastard!" Asuka screamed as she slammed her hand into the nearest locker before continuing. "He beat us so easily. To be honest, getting beat that easily is a little frustrating, don't you think?" Asuka continued as Rei silently changed out of her plugsuit and into her school uniform. The irony that both Asuka and Shinji had scored all time highs and that he had only edged her out by 0.7% was lost on the Great Asuka Langley Sohryu and her pride. "The great invincible Shinji! This just means we get to take it easy now, right? But I guess we should at least do our best not to be left behind." Asuka finished as she raised another fist to strike at a fresh, innocent locker.
"Goodbye." Rei said quietly as she left the locker room, leaving Asuka alone with her thoughts. The raised fist unfolded and the locker, if it had been sentient, would have given a sigh of relief at being spared a dent in its body.
'I am so going to blue-ball him later for this.' Asuka thought to herself, though she wasn't sure of that thought's actual sincerity as she started to unzip her own plugsuit. 'That baka.' She thought as her plugsuit fell to the floor. She still couldn't help smiling when she thought of him though, his friendly face and cobalt eyes. Her old self would have been absolutely livid with the Third Child for beating her and wounding her pride. But now Asuka was merely annoyed, her identity no longer based around the praise of others or herself, instead her thoughts focused on how to make Shinji's balls beg and burn for release as long as possible.
'You're in for it now Shinji.' Asuka said closing the locker and heading out.
Later.
"Combat is a man's job!" Shinji said with highly uncharacteristic confidence as he assumed the point position against the latest Angel to arrive in Tokyo-3. A zebra-striped orb the Magi had next to no information about other than "Yep, something's there."
'Bastard. This must be for last night.' Asuka thought absently as she began to move into position to support Shinji. "If you want to finish then go to the shower!" She had said after torturing him, bringing him to the edge of release before stopping.
"Damn it." Asuka said as her power umbilical got hung up on a building and she hurriedly swapped it out for a new one.
"Asuka are you in position yet?" Shinji asked over the comm.
"Not yet." Asuka responded as she placed in the new power cable and resumed moving. After another few moments Asuka was overlooking the 12th Angel, codenamed Leliel. The plan was for Shinji to fire on the Angel with his over-sized pistol, hopefully attracting its attention so that Asuka could jump out and get a clean shot with her axe. If that didn't neutralize the Angel then maybe it would get its attention enough so it could be drawn out of the city so that the accountants at NERV's already way overbudget collateral damage department wouldn't be on suicide watch after this battle.
"In position baka, on your mark." The Second Child said as she crouched atop a building for cover.
The eerie silence of the city was broken as three shots rang out and bullets the size of artillery shells flew through the air toward their target. At the same time Unit-02 jumped into the sky, axe held high to bring it down on the orb just after the rounds impacted. But as Asuka was in flight she saw the orb disappear before her very eyes.
"What the-" Asuka started as she did a double flip to land on top of a nearby building just as she heard Shinji scream as a black shadow appeared under his feet and began to suck him in. Though not just him but all the nearby buildings began to sink as well.
"Shinji!" Asuka said as Shinji unloaded the rest of his pistol into the shadow that was slowly consuming him. Unit-02 jumped across the buildings like a frog using stones to cross a stream and landed on the building next to Unit-01. She grabbed its hand with one of hers while she swung her axe down into the shadow only for it to get stuck immediately. She let go of the now stuck axe and instead pulled on Unit-01's hand with both of hers. So focused was Asuka on this task that she missed the fact that the building she was standing on had fully sunk into the shadow and now her Eva's own feet were now sinking.
"Asuka!" Shinji said just as Unit-01's entry plug descended below the plane of the shadow.
"Misato! Misato! Hel-" Asuka screamed in vain. Still desperately holding on as her own Eva submerged into the opaque depths.
"Rei. Pull back." The normally tough Misato said in a shaky voice as the Magi reported no trace of either of her charges.
Some Time Later
"There is nothing on any of the sensors. No radar, lidar, visual, audio or radio contact. Hell not even any sonar or spectrographic contacts. It's literal nothingness." The Second Child Asuka Langley Sohryu said as she ran through the checklist one more time in her head before looking at the one piece of data she did have "Except that." Asuka continued as she looked at the red blinking light in the entry plug denoting pressure being exerted on the Unit's left hand. "Which means.."
"…she's there." Shinji said looking at the reading on the pressure pad on his Eva's left hand. While he wasn't as versed in the workings of Eva units as Asuka or Ritsuko he knew enough to determine that his and Asuka's Evas were in this place, if you could call it that, together. He'd tried contacting her on the radio but to no avail. No signals were getting through.
"Baka. I hope you've switched over to emergency power, that ought to give us some time for NERV to come up with a plan to save us." Asuka said trying to keep out the twinge of doubt that told her this was the end from her mind.
"So sleepy." Both pilots said in near unison as they curled up in their entry plugs and dozed off.
Oh? Two of you? How interesting.
"Who's that." Shinji Ikari said in a daze. As far as he could tell he was on a train. The train was empty, save for himself and Asuka who he could see on the opposite side of the train diagonal to him, as well as what looked to be a younger version of himself across from him dressed in what appeared to be zebra striped clothes. That meant something but Shinji wasn't sure why he thought that confused as he was.
We are Shinji Ikari and Asuka Langley Sohryu.
"That's bullshit! I'm me!" It was Asuka's turn to speech and she took a much more combative tone to the situation they found themselves in. It was now that Shinji noticed there was also a younger version of Asuka across from her also dressed in clothes with zebra stripes.
We are you. The self incorporates another self. The self has always been composed of two selves.
"Two?" Shinji responded in a meek and bewildered voice trying to make sense of the situation.
Yes the self which is observed by others, and the self which observes itself. To expound the self that is you is different from the self that exists in the other's mind.
"Different?" Shinji said as he looked over at where Asuka was sitting. Only now noticing both she and he were in their school uniforms and not their plugsuits, which seemed weird to Shinji but he couldn't quite place why.
"So the idea of Shinji I have in my mind isn't the real Shinji?" He heard Asuka ask their enigmatic interlocutor.
No. Both are true selves, yet both are unique and able to be changed.
"Changed?" Asuka asked. Shinji noticed her own voice was weak as well after her earlier outburst and she wasn't moving except for her lips as she talked. Come to think of it he couldn't move either. This was strange.
Yes. Both of the selves that exist in the other's mind have changed much over the time you have known each other.
'What do they mean.' Both pilots thought simultaneously.
From your first impressions.
"Strong. Confident. Fiery. Arrogant"
"Meek. A doormat. Baka. Pervert."
To your first victory together against Israfael.
"Still a child herself. Determined but vulnerable."
"Still a meek pervert. Afraid of being hated."
To now.
"Confident. Love. Passion. Caring."
"Determined. Love. Baka. Protective."
When did you stop being afraid of being hurt? How did these feelings develop?
"She kissed me."
"I kissed him."
The memory played before them. It was after Mt. Asama. They were still at the hot springs resort Misato had decided to take them to as a reward for all their hard work. Said guardian was taking a shower after the last round in the springs. So Asuka decided to take this chance to ask the question that had been nagging at her. She dressed in her striped bikini and cornered a toweled Shinji in a secluded spot and asked:
"Why did you save me?" The question hung between the two pilots, seemingly stifling the air around them until Shinji offered a response in his meek voice.
"I couldn't let you die. Not while there was something I could do about it."
"Why not let me fall into the volcano and then you could have Misato, Rei, and everyone else to yourself. And no one would hate you because you were just following orders."Asuka asked, her tone accusatory and inquisitive.
"I couldn't live with myself if I did that." Shinji said raising his voice in response before continuing "I did it because I don't like seeing other people get hurt." He said his face becoming serious, determined, like it had been at the climax of their fight with the 6th Angel.
"Close your eyes."Asuka said with a frown on her face and Shinji had wondered what punishment he would get for daring to save someone as prideful as Sohryu.
'No matter what I do everyone will always ha-' Shinji's thoughts were interrupted by lightning flowing through his body emanating from his lips. His eyes popped open in surprise to confirm what his other senses told him to see Asuka Langley Sohryu, eyes closed and kissing him. Shinji couldn't think, he just stood there barely able to absorb what was happening. His hands instinctively went to her sides, carefully avoiding any of the merchandise but still feeling her soft creamy skin beneath his hands as they drew her closer as he closed his eyes and took in the moment.
They stayed like that for an untold moment. Until Sohryu broke the kiss and Shinji's hands returned to his side. Both shyly avoiding looking in each other's eyes
"Why?...why did you do that?" Shinji managed to ask as he brought his cobalt eyes up to look into her cerulean spheres.
"I…I…" Asuka began her cheeks a burning red blush a shade darker than her hair before turning around and beginning to run away but not before pausing for a moment to look back at Shinji and blow him another kiss.
'Looking back. I don't know what overcame me in that moment. It was like my body was on autopilot making its own decisions.' Sohryu thought as she replayed the events in her mind.
What came first? The change of yourself in your own mind or the change in the perception of you he had?
"I don't know. I'm still so confused about how it happened. It seemed I was living in a dream. Before it I was one way and after it I was different." Ikari answered.
"They blur together. Love is like when you mix paints together, the line where it stops being one color and changes into another is hard to see. You know it is there but cannot point to any single place to say where it begins. Looking back I can't say where I began to love Shinji, If it was before or after the volcano."
"But I don't regret it for one moment. We're alive now. She loves me, she cares for me, she showed me that happiness can be found in this world if I accept the world and the people in it. I love her for breaking me out of my shell of self-loathing and self-deception."
"He loves me for simply being Asuka. That is enough. If he can love me for being Asuka, then I can also love myself, not for being the best, but for simply being Asuka."
Hmm. So love, of oneself and others, is the way to weave a path to the way one reaches the light.
"If you want to be needlessly poetic and unoriginal then yes." Asuka answered, a bit of her old fire sneaking into her voice.
In that case. Who said "I love you" first?
"That…"
It was at the NERV swimming pool. After that first kiss both were dancing around the other. They talked differently than before, less constrained, more open about their true thoughts and feelings. They had kissed more since the first time. Occasionally passionately and deeply, Shinji even fondled her breast once when he was particularly bold earning a slap, followed by a kiss to "Make it feel better". Needless to say both were aware of the growing feelings between them but their past traumas were still holding back the words.
During one of their now civil conversations, Asuka had discovered Shinji couldn't swim, so she decided she should teach him.
She was wearing her striking and probably too revealing red and white striped bikini and he was in a new pair of blue swimming trunks.
Rei was gone, somewhere else, not sure where. So they had the pool all to themselves. Starting with floating and doggy-paddling they eventually got to a part of the pool where their feet couldn't touch the bottom.
Shinji was absolutely terrified, he would have quit long before if Asuka hadn't been there with him. Asuka caught herself touching and holding Shinji much more than necessary to keep him above water. Her hands gingerly stroking across his body feeling his skin, the Third child seemingly oblivious to what she was really doing.
"You know I still don't understand why people like swimming. Humans weren't made to float." Shinji remarked as his head again bobbed below the surface only to be pushed up by Asuka's shepherding presence.
"Baka. Because it's fun." Asuka said having just savored another long firm hold of Shinji's body as she had pushed him up by the chest and stomach, her hand had been precariously close to his crotch and had they not been covered in water Asuka would have noticed the nervous sweat on Shinji's brow.
Shinji's head bobbed under the water again and Asuka she wasn't sure whether it was a fluke or her subconscious was extra bold but her hand brushed against Shinji's crotch.
And he was hard.
'Fuck.' Asuka thought. The wheels in her mind turning, debating, carefully considering the benefits and ramifications of this path before the hormones burst in and said 'fuck it, just do it'
"Let's go." Asuka said in a serious tone, grabbing Shinji's arm and leading him to the edge of the pool.
"Whaaat?! Asuka?!" Shinji protested as she dragged him out of the water and he hurriedly grabbed a towel to dry as they went to hide his embarrassment.
She guided him through the hallways of the facility, avoiding the cameras' line-of-sight and half-drag half-lead Shinji to a place where there were no prying eyes. Or well she really hoped there were no cameras in the locker room.
Having arrived she shoved him in the empty locker room and he fumbled onto a low bench in the corner of the room.
"Asuka I'm sorr-" Shinji went silent midway through his trademarked slogan and gulped as he saw the predacious grin on Asuka's face as she made her way over to him.
"I think you need a test Ikari."Asuka said approaching him.
"A test?" Shinji said nervously, trying to keep his legs together to hide the offending member.
"Yeah, I want to see what you remember." Asuka said finally reaching him and bending over at her hips giving him an envious view of the cleavage in her bikini. "For example thermal expansion." She said giving her bust a slight jiggle.
"Thermal Expansion?" Shinji's mind immediately recalling where he'd heard her say that before and dreading where this was going.
"Yes. Take my hand. It's warm isn't it?" Asuka said placing her right hand upon his cheek. It was warm he thought before she continued. "What do you think will happen if I put it here?" She said as she grabbed firmly at his groin area. "Do you think it'll expand?" Asuka asked as Shinji's face grew bright red and he winced at her too-rough touch "Or is it already ready?"Asuka whispered into his ear in a seductively teasing tone.
"Asuka… but… we don't…have any…" Shinji started before Asuka released her grip and turned as red as Shinji before responding:
"Baka not that!" Asuka exclaimed her face becoming just as red as his. "Just some fooling around is all." She said trying to sound confident but Shinji could hear the uncertainty in her voice.
'She's never done this before.' Shinji realized. She was in the same boat as he was. His mind made up, with a little help from the teenage hormones screaming "Go! Go! Go!"
"If you're sure Asuka." Shinji said. Much more confident and sure than Asuka expected. His face set in a stern expression she had only seen in combat.
She sat down on the bench next to him and they both moved so that the bench was between their legs, with one leg on each side. Shinji and Asuka wrapped their arms around the other in a warm embrace and shared a kiss much more passionate than the one at Mt. Asama and a harbinger of things to come. After the kiss, Asuka reached her hand behind her back and undid the knot holding her bikini top in place. Shinji sat there stunned, holding his breath at the sight before him.
"I won't slap you this time. Promise." Asuka said, face still red with nervousness as she rested her hands on the bench behind her and leaned back to give Shinji an ample view of her breasts. They were the same creamy white as the rest of her skin save for the medium sized brown nipples that were already standing upward in anticipation. They were big for someone of her age, at least a B cup.
Shinji merely nodded and began to fondle Asuka's breast, even began to kiss them. As Shinji was occupied with her bust she brought her arms up and tugged at the hem of his swim trunks. She was rewarded with Shinji's cock popping out, released from the prison of clothes.
'I'm alive, this isn't a dream.' Shinji thought as he felt the smooth, warm skin of Asuka's hand on his rock hard member. Gently stroking it. He brought, almost on hormonal autopilot, one of his hands to the knot holding Asuka's bikini bottom and undid it. The last scrap of clothing falling away, leaving Asuka bare before him. She simply and silently opened her legs and he moved his hand down to her opening, that goal of all male ambition and desire.
"Don't be so rough." Asuka said as Shinji did what every single man has always done the first time he's ever touched a woman's most private place.
"Sorry." Shinji apologized his fingers much more lightly exploring the folds and creases of the skin than made up Asuka's pussy.
"Baka." Asuka responded as she continued stroking him.
Eventually moans and heavy breathing resounded in the locker room as they continued to rub and stroke each other. Despite some early problems both of them had with regulating their grip and strength, they were nonetheless approaching their respective edges. Until, finally, they came.
It was not by a long shot the first time either had orgasmed. But bringing oneself to orgasm and being brought to orgasm by someone else are entirely different things. They looked into each other's eyes, as bodily fluids dripped onto the bench, and chests heaved in breaths. Words passed between them, both too dazed to remember who started it, but absolutely certain they said it. And meant it.
"I-"
"-love-"
"-you."
"After that the floodwaters broke. Our hearts opened to each other I told him my secrets,…my past."
"And I told her mine."
Is the relationship merely physical. Are you both simply using each other for comfort to avoid being alone?
"NO!" The pilots answered in unison. The train they were in seemed to shake at the resolve present in their voices at the denial of such an accusation.
Neither pilot knew it but at this time the Magi detected the circumference of the shadow changed by 0.3 micrometers. The Magi were at a complete loss to explain this anomaly and dutifully registered it as a glitch in the observation telemetries.
Such radiance. Let's see where you first became one.
'They don't mean…'
'…do they?'
It was some days after the battle against the 9th Angel Matarael. Despite the lack of electricity and power the battle had been fairly simple, a full burst of a pallet rifle all that was necessary. But Asuka's Eva had been damaged by the Angel's acid. Shinji and Asuka had both had to hide their worry and relief after the battle from Rei, lest she discover their feelings for each other.
They had both agreed to keep their relationship a secret worried others would try to separate them. They had of course fooled around more since the escapade in the locker room but they had not yet done the deed. Both had been unready to do that, but after the danger of their last battle and not knowing what the future held, they had decided the present was a good a time as any.
Their one concern was protection. But Shinji had an idea there. When they went back to school he did his best to encourage, as discreetly as possible, Toji and Kensuke's jibes about him and Asuka being newlyweds until eventually they dared him to go and buy some protection so that in Toji's words "The world won't have any little red-haired devils running around." That way it would look to any observing Section 2 agents that he was merely buying it out of a dare by his friends.
Once that was taken care of they waited until one of Misato's double shifts dealing with any myriad of issues that arose from her position as Operations Director.
They were in Asuka's room. Blinds shut, doors locked, a towel laid out underneath her. Both of them wearing nothing but the nervous smiles on their faces.
Shinji opened the foil packet and followed the pictograph instructions as he unrolled it onto his hard and eager member, praying to every god he knew that he did it right.
Condom in place, he hoped, he positioned his member at her entrance, the reservoir cap rubbing against her waiting labia. He leaned down and they shared a soft kiss before he placed his hands on her knees and readied himself.
'Don't mess this up baka.' Asuka thought as the moment dragged on to infinity before she felt Shinji's cock, slowly tentatively push its way into her vagina before hitting something that blocked his advance. Shinji knew what it was. Asuka knew what it was. It was the last obstacle in their path to becoming one.
Shinji looked down at Asuka's face for reassurance. She nodded in response and brought her hand up to his squeezing it to let him know it was okay, that she wanted this. Encouraged by this Shinji pulled back before thrusting forward and trying to, as gently as he could, take away Asuka's maidenhood.
Asuka gritted her teeth and let out a curse at the pain she felt as her hymen break. Blood flowed out in the space between Shinji's cock and the walls of her vagina, dripping onto the towel under them. After feeling the tearing that had happened within Asuka Shinji stopped moving and stared at Asuka, worry etched onto his face as he saw her grimace and the blood that flowed forth.
'Did I do something wrong?' Shinji thought anxiously.
"Go slow." Asuka said almost out of breath as the pain subsided and she began to fully feel the sense of fullness that now permeated her. It just felt right, like they were made for each other. Shinji responded with a nod and soft slow strokes of his member.
Asuka was so tight it felt as if every part of Shinji's cock was being squeezed when he was in her. Even through the condom he could feel her walls and the resistance they offered as he moved in and out of her. It had barely been a few minutes and Shinji was already unable to hold back the pressure building up in his balls.
"Fuck." Asuka said as she felt Shinji's premature orgasm even through the latex. She was just starting to get some tingles of pleasure too.
Shinji pulled his now spent member from Asuka's pussy. The condom's reservoir was filled with Shinji's load, the milky substance almost obscuring the details of his cockhead, while the latex was covered in rapidly drying blood, as where Asuka's labia and her thighs around it.
"Don't you fucking dare Third." Asuka said, pre-empting Shinji's apology. She leaned up and reached over to the nightstand, grabbed another foil packet and threw it at Shinji, who gracelessly caught it in his hands. Her meaning clear. Try Again.
It was the next day, and three condoms later, when Shinji finally managed to last long enough to make her come with strokes from his member. To say it was a cathartic experience for the both of them would be both correct and a huge understatement. They laid there panting at the exertions, Shinji on top of Asuka, his member still inside her, still hard despite expending itself, and stared into each other's eyes peering into the other's soul and knowing in that moment that their bond was unbreakable, that they completed the other on every level, mind, body and spirit.
"I love you."
We have what we need.
Meanwhile
Major Katsuragi was not having a good day. Both her charges, her children, were lost and she had been relieved of command by her "friend" Ritsuko for being emotionally compromised. 'They don't even care about the pilots, hell they don't even care about Unit-02, only Unit-01. Why? What is so special about it?' Misato thought as she took another drag of her cigarette in a desperate attempt to calm her nerves.
"I thought you quit."
Misato turned around and saw the perpetually unshaven face of Ryoji Kaji, though his standard grin was absent, replaced instead with a melancholic grimace.
"Why are you here?" Misato remarked with more bitterness than necessary as her emotions looked for any outlet.
"I heard about what happened. I knew how'd you be feeling." Kaji answered. Most would call his tone nonchalant but Misato knew him well enough to know that he was serious.
"Is that so?" Misato said as she stubbed out her cigarette and turned to face her former lover.
"I'm worried about them too, they're good kids." Kaji stated before continuing his face and tone darkening "…they didn't deserve this." Kaji said after a moment of silence had passed between them.
"Don't talk about them like that! Like they're already dead!" The suffering Major said, crossing the distance between them and starting to punch at Kaji's chest as the dam holding back her emotions finally ruptured and she began crying as the punches rained down. Kaji merely silently took her in a tight embrace pinning her arms to her sides to spare his chest further abuse. Misato's legs seemed to turn to jelly and she collapsed in Kaji's arms and they both sat on the cold concrete beneath them, Misato gripping the collar of his shirt tightly as she wet it with her now uncontrolled tears.
'I can't leave her.' Kaji thought. The realization sending a shudder through his body. He knew the path his line of work and his quest for the truth would put him on. What the likely outcome was. 'But then she'll be all alone.' The thought in Kaji's mind was like a spark, igniting a wildfire that spread and consumed everything in its path. His decision made, his resolve strengthening. The truth had to be found, but not at the cost of leaving Misato alone in this world.
"I love you Katsuragi."
In the Shadow.
"I don't want to die!" Both pilots screamed in their respective entry plugs as they noticed the LCL they were in had become cloudy. Their hands uselessly battering themselves against the manual release.
"I want to see him again!" Asuka said bringing a fist down in her seat.
"I want to see her again!" Shinji said as he used his legs to try and force the manual release, again to no avail.
"Please…" They both said as the oxygen deprived environment in both their entry plugs sent them back to edge of unconsciousness. Just as they both neared that precipice something awoke simultaneously in the cores of both their Eva Units and made themselves known
"Mother?"
"Mama?"
As the pilots fully slipped into unconsciousness the eyes of the their Evas shone with a bright white light in the endless abyss they were in.
And as the Evas activated Kyoko, being the more inquisitive one, saw something, interesting in the seemingly infinite Dirac Sea. She reached out and grabbed.
NERV Forward Command Post
"Let's start while there is still a chance the pilots might be alive." Ritsuko said looking at her watch as she advanced the countdown to the start of the operation.
"Energy level rising!" Hyuga said as the dials and readings at his station went haywire and gave nonsensical readings that shouldn't be possible with humanity's current understanding of physics. They showed the shadow was threaded with red cracks and seemed on the verge of shattering along with the ground. How does a Dirac Sea, an entire dimension of infinite vacuum, just shatter like tempered glass struck by a rock? What kind of power would that take?
"But we haven't done anything yet!" An exasperated Ritsuko exclaimed.
"Could it be Shinji and Asuka?!" Ibuki postulated as she tried to make sense of what the data was telling her.
"Their power levels should be drained, it's not possible!" Ritsuko said. Her tone one of incredulity as she leaned over Maya and looked at the readings they were getting.
The zebra-striped orb shook, releasing a strained, painful cry from somewhere as the white of its body slowly turned black leaving nothing but a dark sphere that seemed to be shaking.
A hand, stained red with blood, erupted through the sphere and gripped at the opening it had made. Soon another hand closed tight around something burst through the opening as well and with its forearm on the other side joined its counterpart to rip an ever larger hole in the screaming orb. Eventually, the small opening gave way to an immense tear in the orb through which appeared the source of the Angel's demise.
Both Evas appeared, bloody and still holding onto each other's hands as they seemingly stood in the fissure they had made in the angel, howling in triumph as they reemerged into the world. The sphere finally gave way and collapsed onto the ground leaving both Evas standing on a craggy, scarred surface, covered in blood. The Evas stopped their berserk roars for a moment and looked at each other. Unit 02 lifting its hand up toward Unit 01 and offering what it had in it.
"No it can't be…" Ritsuko said in horror as she saw the two double helical shapes Unit 02 had clenched in its hand.
"How are there two S2 organs? Aren't all the angels all supposed to have just one?!" Lt. Ibuki said in astonished horror at the sight.
"Perhaps since this Angel has two forms, it has two S2 organs, one for its shadow-orb body the other for the Dirac Sea?" Aoba offered as a possible explanation, eyes still glued to the scene before him as the red unit gave one of the S2 organs to its blood-stained purple counterpart.
"Or maybe since the Angel exists in multiple dimensions so does its S2 organ therefore it could have been duplicated due to quantum uncertainty?" Hyuga suggested, also captivated by the sight of both Eva's biting into and subsuming the S2 organs into themselves.
"Damn! There's still so much we don't know about the angels!" Ritsuko cursed as she gazed at the berserker Eva's. Both units now let out triumphal roars atop the shattered shadow they had emerged out of, their restraining bolts and shoulder armor bulging and shattering off, revealing the cloned flesh beneath. Afterwards the maws of both units turned in unison to the sky before slowly panning down toward the NERV forward command post, and to Ritsuko it looked as if they were glaring directly into her soul. Filling it with the cold, absolute terror of realization.
"Call off the airstrike, we can't risk provoking them into a berserker state against us!" Ritsuko screamed as the fear nearly overtook her professionalism.
"Wyvern this is Kingdom. Abort, abort, abort!" Aoba screamed into the headset in a desperate attempt to avoid that exceedingly horrible possibility.
Above the combined might of every air force this side of the planet, with enough firepower to glass a continent, veered away and returned to their bases.
The Evas watched them as they went, before deactivating as their berserker states receded and they shutdown, collapsing onto the shattered remains of the Angel they had so thoroughly destroyed.
A/N: So here is chapter 3. It's a long one, I thought about making it 2 parts but decided against it. There was a lot of stuff I wanted to unpack and world building to do. Specifically, one thing I see with a lot of Lemons is that Shinji and Asuka for some reason open up and then next minute are going at it like rabbits, so I wanted to give an overview of how they got here and how the relationship built up. Also my favorite part of Evangelion is the emotional/psychological side so I wanted that in. The next ones are definitely going to be shorter. The S2 organs are my way of making Shinji and Asuka's Evas ridiculously OP so that they can easily deal with the stuff coming at them in the future. Because these two episodes in the series are the inflection point after which the positive upwards track the characters were on, comes crashing down in burning fire and sinks to the bottom of the ocean. That doesn't really fit with the tone of this fic, or all of the steamy lemons, and hell I've seen even more ridiculous stuff on this site to give the characters a happy ending. As always review and let me know.