Title: Starting Over
By: Andrea75N
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters, storyline, or TW...um...come to think of it I don't own anything except my cat. Haha...Serious note: just being a fan don't sue me. Please.

Pairing: B/F ...later

Warnings: (forgot to put this on there) little bit of language (occasionally), probably some sexual content and brief nudity...haha...sorry thought I'd put that in there.

CHAPTER FIVE

Bosco had left as soon as Faith had fallen asleep. He used his spare key to lock the door and stalked quietly to his apartment on the third floor. He winced as he moved his arm. His bruises hurt, his back-ached, and his head was pounding. His heart hurt just as much as his head right now. He stood at the threshold starring at the dark and lonely apartment. He pursed his lips together as he entered and slammed the door taking just a fraction of his anger out. He flipped the lights on as he made his way toward the fridge. He yanked it open to hear the bottles of beer clank together. He swallowed as he grabbed a bottle and shut the door hard. He made his way to the couch tossing the cap off along the way. He eased himself down on the couch and swigged his beer. He hated himself for not saying something. He shook his head as he thought about Faith and Miller. He leaned his head back and glaring at the ceiling. He breathed in deeply as he shifted his beer to his left and bringing the right hand to his face. He felt of his scar. It hurt tonight. He knew he wasn't the best looking guy in the world anymore, but he cared about Faith more than anything.
He regretted not speaking to Faith in many years. He wondered what would have happened if they stayed in touch. Would they be together? He ran his hand thru his wild hair. What if he had been the one to father Alexa. He paused as he raised his head and gave a sad smile. He bit his lip as he sat the beer on the coffee table. Alexa. He chuckled thinking of his fridge. It was truly blue, he wasn't joking. He had came back from the bathroom and Alexa had her blue crayon going to work on it. She said she liked the blue better than his ugly 'blab' color. He felt tears come to his eyes when he thought of losing Alexa, but most of all, losing Faith again. He sniffed as he got up slowly and went to his bedroom. He didn't know what to do, but he couldn't lose her.

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Alexa held Faith's hand as they got off the elevator on Bosco's floor. Faith licked her lips nervously, she didn't know why he had left. He didn't wake her. Any other man and she would have been mad, but this was Bosco. Faith started to knock and Alexa pulled on her hand, "I wanna."

"Okay...here," she picked her up, "...push the buzzer."
Alexa pushed it and then pushed and held it for a least five seconds, "Okay...that's enough."
She put her down and gave a sigh, "You're getting heavy."
Alexa giggled and began jumping around. Faith shook her head as she knocked, "Maybe he did have to work today."

Bosco jerked the door open, "What in the he.."
He stopped when he saw Alexa. "Bok!"
"Hey gorgeous," he said picking her up. Faith smiled at the two as Bosco held her. Faith looked down when she realized she was starring at his bare chest. Bosco cleared his throat noticing the awkwardness and put Alexa down, "What's goin on guys?"

"We're goin shopping!" Alexa yelled out and she began to jump and down again. Finally she took off running down the hallway. Bosco chuckled as he leaned on the doorpost. Faith scrunched her eyebrows as she moved toward taking note of his bruises, "Oh my...Bosco are you okay?"

Her fingers crazed his bare arm sending shivers thru him. He let out a breath and she backed off, "Sorry."

"It's tender," he said giving her comforting smile. It really was alright, it didn't feel as bad as last night. Just the feel of her touch was enough, "It's feels better though."

"Oh, well, you probably don't wanna come out then," Faith said as she decided to stay outside the apartment. Bosco had been acting weird to her for the past few days. She'd been throwing little flirts here and there, but he didn't seem all that interested to her. Bosco straightened up then, "Huh?"

"Well, you mentioned a few days ago that you had Sunday off and I have today off, so then I thought that maybe you'd wanna come with us. Shopping, you'd go with us to shop."

Faith stood there quiet watching Alexa, she had pulled out her coloring books and crayons Bosco had bought her and was singing something. Bosco watched Faith and nodded, "Sure."

She looked at him surprised. Bosco was a little surprised at his answer too. He meant to say not this weekend "Really?"

"Yeah...let me go graba quick shower," he stepped back to invite her in and she just stood there. He cleared his throat, "You wanna come in Faith?"

"Oh..right. Yeah." Faith stepped in and closed the door. Bosco made his way back to his before, but stopped on his way and kissed Alexa on the top of the head. Alexa, not phased, continued to color. Faith sighed as he disappeared into his bedroom. She sat her purse on the counter and went to the couch. She sat down across from Alexa watching her color. Bosco was great with her and she really loved him too. Not having a father figure to grow up with did have an effect on her. Bosco was the closest thing. It's not like Miller had been there. He was wanting his chance though, he had told her that much. Faith looked down at her hand, rubbing them together nervously. She was about to spend the entire day with a man that was her best friend, again, and to beat it all, not too long ago they had fell asleep in each others arms. He was gone this morning when she woke, it made her nervous. As if she had done something wrong. It's not like they had kissed or had sex, it was just that it was Bosco. Maurice. She had only called him that a few times. She remembered his 'girlfriends' calling him that, it was a little personal for Faith. Faith chose not to call him that for 'intimate' reasons and of course she was married to Fred. She wasn't supposed to have feelings for Bosco. What about now? She hadn't expected to see him again. She thought he was at Bed-Stuy.
Now, Miller was back. She licked her lips as she looked down at the picture Alexa was drawing, it was trees and flowers. She smiled at her, though Alexa was not looking. Miller wanted a part of their life. Faith looked back down the hall for Bosco, his bedroom door was closed. She bit her lip as she looked back at Alexa, "Honey, you stay right here. I'll be back."

"K," Alexa nodded and shoved book out of the way as she took interest in Bosco's coffee table.

Faith knocked on the bedroom door, "Hey Bos..."
Bos opened the door dressed in just jeans. His chest still slightly wet. Faith tore her eyes away to meet his, "Can..I..talk to you for a sec?"
He swallowed hard as he opened the door more, "Alexa?"
"She's fine, coloring.."

He backed up and headed of toward his connected bathroom. Faith looked back down the hall at Alexa and then closed the bedroom door. Bosco peeked his head out when he heard it shut, "Are you okay?"

"Yeah..." Faith said as she began to sit on the bed beside diverted away. There was no way she was sitting on his bed. It would probably make her cheeks flush even more. She leaned on the door jam as she watched him put gel in his hair. She didn't know he wore gel. That explained why his hair was so soft. She looked down all of a sudden when his eyes glanced over at her, "This is awkward."

Bosco stopped what he was doing and picked up his towel wiping his hands on it turning slowly, "Awkward?"

Faith shoved her hands in her pockets, "Just last night...you know, me blowing up and then the whole Miller thing. Then...you, leavin like you did? Did I...I just don't wanna make you uncomfortable."

Their eyes met and Bosco played with the towel nervously, "I didn't wanna wake you and even though Alexa wants me to have a sleep over...it probably would be good right now."

"Why?" Faith asked not missing a beat. Bosco raised his eyebrows as he took a breath. Miller, Miller, Miller! "You talkin about Miller again. Got me to thinkin that it don't look good with me there. Kinda ruins your chances."

Faith nodded in agreement, "My chances?"
Bosco tossed the towel in the bathtub. Faith's eyes followed it. Bosco took in a silent breath, here she was standing here is his bedroom and he just tossed out his only thing to occupy his hands. So, he mimicked Faith. He shoved his hands in his pockets. As long as they weren't touching Faith, he'd be okay. He could control himself.

He started to open his mouth but stopped. He wasn't going to tell her to run to Miller. Faith huffed, "He's her father Bosco."

Bosco shook his head backing up to lean on the sink, "You did this same thing with Fred, Faith."
"I...that was a mistake, no you know, that was different. He was my husband. Totally different."

"No, he's still the father of your children. Miller is the father of Alexa. There's no difference. There both jag-offs," Bosco finished with a shrug. Faith stood straight crossing her arms, "Bosco..."

"Don't 'Bosco..' me," he mimicked and he stood up straight to match her, "You deserve better Faith. A whole hell of a lot better than Fred and Miller."

She swallowed realizing how close they were. Faith shifted her eyes to his lips and he followed her gaze down to her full lips. She unconsciously licked her lips and Bosco closed the distance. He barely grazed her lips when Alexa opened the door, "Mommy."

Bosco backed away quickly rubbing his neck. His eyes searched something to stare at. Anything that didn't include Faith. Faith turned toward her daughter, "Yeah baby."

"Your phone," she handed it to her mom and ran off back to the living room. Faith looked down at the number. It was Emily. "I'll be back."

He gave a nod as he sat down on the edge of the tub. He ran his fingers over his gelled hair a few times to mess it up. He can't believe he had asked moved in, he made the first move. A move that failed, but it was still a move. They didn't kiss, they grazed.
"Hey Bos," Faith came back in and he looked up at her, "Do you mind watching Alexa? Emily needs me."

"Sure...everything alright?" Bosco said shifting. He wasn't about to get up. She nodded, "Yeah she...she just needs me right now."

"Ok." Bosco nodded as she said thanks and walked off. He starred down at his bare feet. He rubbed his eyes, he was stupid. How could he possibly think she could love him.

XOXOXOXOXO

Thanks for all the great reviews ya'll. And thanks to those who aren't leaving reviews but are reading. Thanks! Chapter 6 soon. Happy Easter ya'll!

Laters,
Andrea