A/N: I own nothing FF, except a copy of the movie if that counts. All characters are copywrited and are not mine.

Dying to be with you

Tifa extended her hand towards him as Cloud backed away from her, still holding his head. Tifa's lower lip trembled at seeing him in pain. Cloud went to his knees on the floor, he whimpered in pain, his teeth chattered together and his eyes were screwed shut. He felt someone wrap an arm around his shoulders and a hand on his scalp, rubbing his temples softly. Opening his eyes he glanced in her direction, even with a weapon close to his hand and how insane he had become, Tifa still trusted him with her life. He clenched his fists tightly, and forced it hard against the wooden floor. The broken wood sheared his hand as he had expected, but this pain would not block out the one in his head. His mako eyes darted left and right, he wanted to escape from everything, all this pain, all this hatred, all this doubt. But he didn't want to go back to Zack and Aeris...he wanted to escape everything that hurt him...but he wanted to stay with those he cared about.Gritting his teeth he began to argue with the voice inside his mind by drowing it out.

' Fight it Strife...fight it! You're stronger than this! Do you really want to bring this whole world to hell with you! NO! That wouldn't make you better than Sephiroth, fight it damn it! FIGHT IT! ' Cloud slammed his head against the floor, away from the broken wood. The sudden contact made Tifa jump and stop him from doing it a second time.

" What are you doing! " she lifted him off the ground and looked into his catlike eyes. He didn't respond, instead he grabbed her shoulder and forced her towards him before kissing her hard. The action surprised her, but her body was quick to react as she wrapped her arms around him and her eyes shut.

' Tifa...help me escape this pain...I beg of you ' he thought weakly. He grabbed her hands with his own and lifted them above her head, then held them there with one hand. His other slowly dragged down her body. Tifa shivered, Cloud had really lost his mind if this was his diabolical plan. She could feel his hand beginning to slide the cloth pants down her hips. Tifa whimpered wanting more of his touch, she craved more. She struggled against his grip, it was still as strong as it had always been. She battled Cloud's tongue with failing resistance, a small part of her had told her to run, run far far away. But it was also the same voice who would not allow her to actually say ' I love you Cloud '. So Tifa didn't listen to it. His lips pulled away, much to her disliking. She opened her eyes and looked into his. They...they were blue...as clear as day outside, they were blue. BLUE! What could this have meant? Confusion and happiness clouded Tifa's mind, she didn't know what to think. They stared into her crimson ones. Suddenly she saw the pupil narrow, then turn back, then narrow again. His eyes went a sudden green then back to blue.

" Fight it Cloud " Tifa heard herself whisper to him. He closed his eyes tightly, biting his lower lip. He didn't release her, he couldn't, he didn't have any feeling in his arms. His grip on her wrists tightend. She sucked in air sharply as the pain hit her. If almost felt as though he had broken her wrist. But maybe...that had been what he'd been aiming for. Tifa pulled at her wrists again, trying to get them free. She'd at least feel a little better if she knew she could use her hands to escape if needed...and it was now needed.

" Going somewhere? " Cloud was looking at her again, his eyes once again cat-like. The once bright blue orbs had turned back into his mako insane one. Tifa pulled again but didn't get much done by doing so.

Cloud laughed evilly as Tifa pleaded him to let her go.

" Why? So you can run away and continue our boring game of tag? "

" I'm not going to run " she whispered.

" Your not? Again with the ' I'm not running ' shit. You don't hold still long enough for me to believe that ".

" I'm not going to run " she said angrily looking into his mako eyes confidently. He released her wrists slowly. Tifa had always had fast reflexes. Using her speed to her advantage, she wrapped her arms around his neck and forced him down for another kiss. The weird thing to her was, he didn't prevent her from doing so by pulling away. Cloud kissed her back firecly, after all, his mako side had a right to have a little fun...right? Cloud ripped her shirt off in one swift movement. He heard the fabric of his own shirt being ripped and his sword being removed. He opened his eyes during their kiss to make sure she wouldn't try anything with his sword in her hands. Tifa merely tossed it to the side, hearing it skitter across the floor and tap the wall. Cloud closed his eyes again and pulled at her pants even more, letting her lacey panties show themselves. Even with her underwear, Tifa still had to match. Cloud kicked off his boots ( How? Even I don't know ). He tugged hard at her cloth pants and they, like her shirt, ripped and threw it to the side. Cloud realized Tifa had already gotten his pants off and was starting to slide his boxers off. She could do all this with her eyes shut? When and where the hell did she practice this technique? Cloud lifted her slightly, letting his arms get around to her back and unhook her bra. Cloud released her lips as he slid the garmet off her shoulders. He kissed her bare collar bone before biting hard. Tifa made a small noise as she arched her neck, giving him more access. He layed her back down lightly, his hands eager to roam her body. His fingers trailed down to her underwear before he slid them down her legs, he liked the set ( XXU). Cloud kicked off his boxers completely and used his knee to seperate her legs. He lined himself up with her frame before forcing himself into her. Tifa let out a hiss of pain, she was still a virgin, but she didn't expect him to go easy on her, not in this state. Tifa's nails dug hard into his shoulder blades, a shadow over her eyes caught her attention. She opened them, noticing his wing had emerged. Reaching up she touched it lightly, it twitched beneath her touch and fluttered in the other direction as though her light graze had been to hard. To her amazement, Tifa didn't cry. She thought she would have, but something pulled on her nerves, distracting her from the pain. Probably realization that he was making ' love ' to her than trying to murder her. She wondered if this would count into letting Cloud be back to normal, alive and her being able to keep her soul. Closing her eyes she bit her lower lip as her sudden awareness of his thrusts hit her.

' This isn't happening... its a hellish nightmare of some sort...Cloud is fine...I am fine...nothing is wrong...nothing will ever be...wrong ' Tifa thought as she felt his tongue trail up her neck. She felt something tug at her mind, it felt like a sudden thought, but it was different. Trying to focus on it, it happened again.

''' Tifa? '''

' Cloud? '

''' Well this is weird ''' it was Cloud's voice. But he hadn't spoken physically, but mentally.

' You...you can see into my mind? '

''' Apparently '''.

' So...are you still there? ' Tifa asked opening her eyes and feeling his shoulders.

''' Yes ''' he breathed.

' But your also in my mind? '

''' Its rather hard to explain '''. Tifa noticed he was looking in her eyes now, his eyes were blue...but catlike...like he was winning half a battle. He moved towards her ear.

" It really is...Tifa...give me your pain ". Tifa didn't quite know what he meant but suddenly her sort of intimate moment, became painless and completely pleasurable. She moaned as Cloud's next thrust was full of the pleasure her friends talked about. Tifa held onto him tighter as he consumed her mouth, their tongues dancing to the beats of their hearts. Each new thrust brought her higher to her heavens, she laughed at how high he was making her ascend...she should say hi to Aeris, cause she was now in her own Great Beyond.

Barret soothed Marlyn's shoulders as the little girl snoozed lightly. He had been doing this for several hours, unable to go to sleep himself. He wondered how Tifa was fairing if he felt this bad. The girl had always been in love with him, but it didn't seem to do her any good. Cloud was to naive to notice feelings towards him because of his horrible past. The boy wouldn't let down the barrier he surrounded himself with. Barret sighed and decided if he tried to sooth Marlyn anymore he'd end up waking her. Lifting her up onto his shoulder, Barret raised himself from his comfey chair and brought her in her room, Denzal was already sleeping. Tucking her in, he quietly closed the door behind him and walked back to his chair. Picking up his cell he dialed Tifa's number. He had a feeling she wouldn't have slept long. It rang four times before someone picked up, then hung up. Barret pulled the phone away from his ear and looked at it as though it had three heads. He called it again and got the same reaction. Getting angry he called again, this time getting again the pick up, but instead of it hanging up he heard it smash then a computer talk to him.

" This line has just been disconnected ".

" Thats not right " Barret said shrugging on his coat.

" Cait Sith, Red, can you two watch over them? " the two cats nodded and walked into the room where the children were. Barret knew Tifa would be upset, but she wouldn't turn away from a comforting phone call unless something was wrong.

Cloud held the broken cell in his hand. It had begun to annoy him so he merely crushed it with a simple squeeze. He threw it to the side and held Tifa tightly as they lay on their sides on her bed. How he had managed to get them up there with what little strength he had amazed him. His fingers stroked through her hair and held her tighter. Tifa had curled into him, her eyes still open. She didn't understand this one bit, but she managed to get Cloud to do something she always dreamed of. Closing her eyes she traced her fingers over the muscle lines. She felt him pull her hair backwards to make her look up into his eyes. As she did his lips captured her's, and she easily surrendered.

" What the hell happened here! " the both of them stopped and pulled back before looking towards the door. Barret was downstairs wondering about the mess around the bar. He was heard picking up glass and chairs.

" Had a little accident I suppose ". Barret lifted his head, he reconized that voice, but he didn't think he'd ever hear it again. Turning around he was greeted by Cloud, who was fully dressed in what he had been buried in. Barret's eyes widend.

" C...Cloud...how...how... "

" Is this possible? " Cloud asked inclining his head. Barret nodded and Cloud laughed. His eyes were still blue and catlike. He smiled as he snapped his fingers and suddenly Tifa appeared in front of him, dressed like before. How he fixed their clothes she didn't know. He placed his hands on her shoulders and brought her in a tight embrace.

" You can thank Tifa "

A/N: I fear I'm starting to lose my touch... sadness I have so much to do and prepare for...it suxs. But at least next week all week I'm getting home early and will be able to do more updating. So happy ...what do you think?