"Sara." Catherine called her name again. She'd gone into a sort of catatonic state ever since she said 'oh' and Cath was fairly sure why.

"Sara, you need to do a test before you're sure." said Catherine gently shaking her shoulder to get some response.

"Grissom." was Sara's response. Her mind was in overdrive. If she was pregnant what would he do--what would she do? She wasn't good with children and they had only just got together. What if he panicked and ran away? She'd never seen him run away before but there was always a first time.

"Sara do you want to sit down?" asked Catherine, afraid Sara might collapse into her arms any second.

"Em."

"Okay come on." Catherine led her back to the bench and sat her down.

"I need to know." Sara announced getting up and making Cath jump.

"Okay. Do you want me to come with you?"

"No. I need to go." she said simply, standing up and leaving.

"Sara." Catherine called down the corridor after her. "Let me know when you get the result." she shouted.

"What result?" asked Greg appearing.

"On the, the, carpet fibres." said Catherine thinking of a reason.

"Where's she going?" he asked as Sara walked zombie-like out the building.

"She wasn't feeling well. She's going home." said Catherine leaving.

"Then why were you asking her for a result?" Greg called, but got no answer.

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Sara wasn't exactly sure she was in a good state to drive but somehow she'd made her way to the drug store near her and Grissom's apartment. Now if only she could let go of the steering wheel and go inside. Her knuckles were white from gripping and her stomach was turning over.

"Come on Sara." she told herself out loud forcing herself to get out and walked inside.

She felt like a teenager wondering around the store, embarrassed to be looking for pregnancy tests. For some reason she was eyeing everyone in the store like they would attack her at any minute.

As if she wasn't confused enough at the moment she came across an entire shelf fell of tests. Giving in trying to figure out the differences, she grabbed the nearest one and headed for the checkout. There was an old lady in front of her talking constantly to the cashier. The test was burning a hole through Sara's hands as she fiddled with it and the money in her hand before shoving it onto the counter and thrusting the money in the woman's hand.

"Good luck." smiled the woman starring at Sara's stomach, which made her angry, she snatched the test of the side shoving it into her bag and marching back to the car.

She couldn't remember getting home. Now she found herself stood in the hallway, her feet frozen to the floor. The test was gripped in her sweaty hands so tight she'd crushed the box.

What if she was pregnant and she became a mother? She'd probably screw up the kid so much they'd be taken away. What if the saying was true, would turn into her mother? Would the child have to stand and watch Sara and Grissom argue? For certain they would at least be a loner. Parents didn't set a great example for socialising. What if Grissom left her, what if he was angry? What if he didn't want children? She'd never talked to him about it; it had never really come up. She knew there was something in his childhood that made him be the way he is.

These thoughts were too much for her. She felt the bile rise in her throat but still she remained rooted to the spot. Falling to her knees she began to retch her body shaking as she brought up what little was left in her stomach. Shakily she got up, the test abandoned on the floor. she pulled off some paper towels form the kitchen and lay them in the hallway.

She needed to know. Her hands tumbling she picked the test up and made her way to the bathroom.

Five minutes later and she was sat on the floor reading the box for the tenth time. She hadn't dared look at the test on the side. Two lines meant pregnant. One, nothing.

She couldn't do it. She needed to talk to someone. She made her way to the phone and dialled Cath's number.

"Hello." came the cheery voice form the other end.

"Cath."

"Sara are you okay? what did it say?" Catherine was definitely excited about the answer.

"I don't know, I can't look," sobbed Sara tears falling fast down her cheeks.

"Why not?"

"What if I am? I'd make a terrible mother. What about Grissom? What if he hates me? What if he leaves?"

"Sara calm down. First you would make a great mother. Second Grissom would not leave. Although I don't know what goes on in his mind, he loves you and would love your child."

"Cath I'm scared," whispered Sara reaching for the test.

Catherine heard a sharp intake of breath before fresh sobs erupted down the phone.

"Yes." said Sara her voice shaking.

"Okay Sara calm down, don't get yourself worked up. I'll come round after work and we can talk. Okay?"

"Okay." came the week reply before the phone hung up.

"Damn." sighed Catherine. The cupboard door opened and Hodges stood starring at her. When Catherine had realised it was Sara calling she had slipped into the storage cupboard to have a private conversation.

"Were out of flash paper." stated Catherine pushing by Hodges and hurrying down the corridor.

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Sara was sat huddled in the corner of the bathroom gently rocking herself. The idea of a life growing inside her terrified her. There was so many whys she could ruin it. Grissom would probably just stand starring at her and then go for a walk and never come back. Sara laughed bitterly to herself at this thought as she got to her feet throwing the test in the bin.

There was one way she could stop this problem but the idea of ending a life before it had begun was worse, even for Sara, after having seen the many ways life could be ended after birth.

Sara now found her self stood in the hallway the floor reaching up to her body. A mixture of stress and the fact she had hardly eaten caught up with her and the world faltered into darkness.

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Grissom was listening to the gentle click of his suitcase wheeling down the driveway. He was tiptoeing despite the fact it was nine in the morning as Sara would probably just have got of shift and be asleep. He wasn't one for surprises and doubted Sara was too, but catching the earlier flight home so he could be with her when she woke up was one of his best idea, even if he though so himself.

He quietly turned the key in the lock and was surprised to find bits of kitchen paper laid out in hallway. He was even more surprised to find his girlfriend laid on the floor like a sleeping angel.

TBC….

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