Okay, I completely forgot my disclaimer! So, I'll just insert it here:
Disclaimer: I don't own Instant Star or anything affiliated with it (characters, music, etc...).
Thanks to xNaturalBlondex2, samitiny, Can't Stand The Heat, an addict, instantstarroxmysox, LuvTommy56, musical-cynders, shadmsluv, and thatgirlyoucantrust for reviewing. I appreciate it highly!
Also, I don't own the song "Without You." It's by Alexz Johnson, but was never on Instant Star.
Ever since their talk three days ago, Jude decided she'd do anything possible to convince Tommy that she was ready for something more than just a friendship. That she was mature enough to handle a relationship with him and if they didn't work out then she'd be fine. He just needed to see what he ment to her.
She spent the night before locked in her room. Listening to Sadie's stereo blast "Miss Hilton you must be worth a trillion bucks!" as it vibrated her walls, floors, and desk. The annoyance drove her insane! How was she supposed to write a descent song when she couldn't focus clearly? She had inspiration, obviously, but every time she had to open her door and yell, "Sadie! For the love of God!" it slipped right out of her mind.
"Have anything for me?" Tommy asked, as he took off his jacket and sat down on, what he called "His thrown". Aka, G-Majors lobby couch. Jude liked to call it his thrown of lies. And technically it wasn't even a chair, so it couldn't be a thrown.
"Yeah, actually I got some stuff written down in this here notebook."she gave a playful smile and sat down beside him, crossing her legs.
He took the notebook from her, brushing her hand slightly. She wished he wouldn't do that. It drove her crazy when he touched her.
Tommy was silent as he read through the lyrics of a soon to be hit. He'd nod, squint his eyes at certain intervals, and give that deep grunt noise he made when he was really concentrating. His silence was making her fidget. Did he understand what the song ment? Did he know it was basically about him?
"Without you, my life is done. I need you, you are the one." Tommy echoed the words she'd written just the night before.
Her eyes were closed as she finished the rest for him. "All I need is to be loved by you. I'm hopelessly in love, what can I do?"
For a moment she felt as if she was really asking him that question and for a moment she fantasized that he'd answered. Was she really in love with him? Or, was she just in love with the idea of him? Sure, she'd wrote down the words herself but did she really mean them... That's what she was still asking herself. Her head was screwed up with so many thoughts, she wasn't sure if make-believe, reality, or both had blurred into one. Was Jude Harrison sincerley in love with Tom Quincy?.. Sometimes the thought scared her.
"I like it" he commented, snapping her out of dreamland.
"Huh?" she opened her eyes slowly. "Oh yeah, the song." she sat up from her slumped position. "Did you read the rest of it?" she asked.
"Yeah, who's this one about?" he asked casually.
It hurt her how he made it sound like she was an emotional basket case who only wrote songs to fill her void of suffering. She replied just as casually though. "You." she smiled, stood, then walked off towards Studio A, feeling more confident than ever. She turned her head and saw him smiling right back at her, he stood as well and fallowed her in the right direction.
"Without You, take one." Tommy announced into his microphone. She gave him a thumbs up.
Without you, my life is done
I need you, you are the one
All I need is to be loved by you
I'm hopelessly in love, what can I do?
The sparks are soaring
My heart is pouring
'Cause you made me feel that nothing on earth could be more real
Though our relationship is far apart
I wish were more than what we already are
Without you, my life is done
I need you, you are the one
All I need is to be loved by you
I'm hopelessly in love, what can I do?
I need you to hold me, to look into my eyes
Without you my darling, my spirit dies
You're my light when it gets dark
Holding hands around the park
I feel like my heart was born anew
I don't know what I'd do
Without you
Your are my leash, when my heart flies away
I need you, you are the one
All I need is to be loved by you
I'm hopelessly in love, what can I do?
"Perfect" he said, motioning for her to come out.
Jude exited the booth and took a seat on the arm of a chair. "Full of compliments today, Quincy?" she questioned.
Yesterday, he would have made her record a new song about forty five more times. Today, it seemed that the old Tommy was replaced with a Superbot. Maybe he had listened to her when she told him he had changed. Or it could just be guilt.
"Perfect" he repeated.
A smile formed on Judes lips and she wasn't sure why. Emotions; god how she hated that word. She was still a little angry with Tommy for what he had said and how he'd behaved the day before. She was happy at the fact that he was being so affectionate. She was also replenishing in how he told her she was perfect. Okay, he said her song was perfect but still..that ment she was a little to...right? Maybe she was just being over analytical.
She shrugged. "I guess. I mean great work only develops from great minds."
"Are you insinuating that you have a great mind?" he said, sounding shocked and sarcastic at the same time.
Jude stuck her chin out a bit. "I have a great everything." she smirked.
Cocky? No. Self-absorbed? Nope. Incredibly self-confident? Nah. Laughing hysterically at Tommys facial expression? Hell yes! It said it all and Jude was laughing madly on the inside. At one point her brain took it upon itself to say, "You know you want me, Quincy." She should have said it outloud...just to get a few more laughs.
Tommy simply nodded, slowly.
She tucked her hair behind her ear and looked at her feet for a second. Why not go for it! She knew what would happen if he said no. She would handle it like an adult.
"So..I was thinking...this Fri--" she didn't even get to finish her sentence before Kat came busting into the studio ranting about some party and how she needed the perfect outfit and how Jude "Sooo needed to go!"
Jude sighed as she let her friend of Eight years pull her out the front doors of G-Major. Maybe it wasn't ment to be afterall.