A Rocker's tale p2

Speed. One word. One small word. One big change. One big chance. Now that we're on tour I get a lot of time with him. No football. No McDonalds crap. Just us (and the guys.) But we know how to get away from them. We go into the bedroom/ bathroom. (disturbing I know). "So how have your problems been doin?" he asks. "Better," I tell him. "Now that it's just us." He laughs. "And the guys." I laugh too. "Them." "Come on! You cant tell me you didn't notice them writing "Juderman" All over the door!" "Okay I did notice." We continued our conversation until it turned into a kiss. When it finally ended I said "Wow, um that was, "Unexpected" He filled in for me. "Ya." We lean in again. It's a weird thing to date somebody in the band. You have to walk on eggshells to make it anywhere. The even weirder thing is, not with Speed.

He really doesn't care if I act normal around him. He wants me to be me, not the perfect, can do know-wrong Brady-bunch clone. Instead he wants Jude Harrison, not so Instant Star. I love that about him. I know him. He knows me.

Its are first concert on tour and I am sooooo nervous. Speed and I have to tell the world about me and him. We'll have to face all those stupid "Juderman" fans for the rest of the tour. I hate this. Why now? Wait, I take that back I know Speed. He is perfect for me. He'll get me through it. I thought. He will.

"Jude?" Speed suddenly came up to me.

"Somebody wants to talk to you." I turned around to see Tommy loking me straight in the eyes.

"Why are you here?" I said in a flat voice so he couldn't tell what expression or I felt right now. Leave me alone you stupid ass! I thought as we stood there glaring at each other.

"Hi Tommy, I'm glad your back." He said in a girly voice as if like I should be saying it. That made me mad. That's when I said something I though I'd never say to Tommy.

"Hi Tommy, I'm glad for Fucking abandoned me!" I yelled and ran out of the room.

Tommy tried to follow me but Speed pinned him to the wall.

Finally Tommy pushed speed off and followed me. "Come on Jude, I didn't want to hurt you so I-"

"You left me clueless to what's going on left at the same time as our date!"

"You don't understand Jude!"

"What's not to understand.

He studdered. "I- I don't know. I had to Jude!"

"I don't care if you had to! You could of told me what the hell was going on!"

The fire grew in Tommy's eye's. "Look Bitch, I had to go if you liked it or not! I didn't even expect to come back! Who gives if I didn't tell you why?"

"I did Tommy, I did!"

"Then maybe I did too! I didn't have much time okay! I chose to leave for a reason!"

My heart dropped. My voice became weak. "You- you chose to go?" I asked my word hardening.

"That's right Jude! I chose to go." I didn't go because I had to, I wanted to go!"

That was it I lifted up my and stared to swing. He grabbed my wrist before I could do anything. Then he yelled "I don't want to fight you!"

"Well too damn bad! I want to fight you!" My wrist was becoming numb from his grip.

"I won't fight you, Jude!" He yelled again.

I started to cry. "It's been a year Tommy! A whole fucking year since you left with no explanation or phone calls!"

"I'm back now."

"Fuck you Tommy!" I started to run away.

"Jude,"

"Go to hell!"