WARNING there's a lot of songs in this one. Still hope you like it though.
Chapter 10: Who I am, Who I use to be
The band's first big performance had been a great success even though the two main singers had been missing for the first part of the show. Shadow had walked Amy back home and stayed there with her for the rest of the day. The others had come back later after eating and they were all warned by Shadow not to ask questions or beat up on Amy about why she wasn't at the festival. There was some good news a gentleman from the M.O.A had been at their show and personally invited them down to the tryouts. It had been a few days sense then and everything was starting to simmer back down to a semi normal level or so it was expected. Through those past few days Shadow and Amy had become almost inseparable something had just clicked between them and they were together all the time they were like best friends now. Through out all of this Shadow had thought a lot about how he felt about Amy, and about the anger that consumed him when he saw another mans arms around her. He had tried to fight it but he couldn't Shadow was slowly beginning to realize that he was falling in love with Amy.
Amy was laying on her bed staring up at the ceiling. She felt something she hadn't felt in a long time. She felt freedom. No more ties to any guy she was free to do as she pleased without anyone to control her. Free to make her own choices and she was making her first right now no more men in her life why did she need a guy anyway she had all she needed right now and that was best friends. Besides she had never met a boy that gave her love the way love suppose to be given and she was afraid to attempt love ever again, she was scared that it would end up like her first love if you could even call it that. She was going out tonight with Cream, Rouge and the guys. She was up and getting dressed. She thought about what to wear and she finally decided on a pair of dark blue jeans with a lovely rose design on the left leg and a cargo pocket on the right leg, she wore a black top with long selves and was cut just above her bellybutton, and then she had on a pair of tennis shoes. She just let her quills hang lose at her shoulders with no hair band or anything.
The boys had just arrived and were all standing in the hall talking with Rouge and Cream. Shadows attention was suddenly on the staircase when he saw Amy descending the stairs he watched her almost without blinking his mouth slightly ajar. She was beautiful in his eyes she was more than that she was perfect.
Amy smiled at him. "Shadow, what are you staring at?"
"I think it's an angle." Shadow didn't know what came over him since when did he start talking all lovey-dovey to anyone.
"Flattery coming from you?" "Okay what is it you want?" Amy said with a cocked brow.
"You wouldn't believe me if I told you." He answered as he extended a hand to her which of course she gladly took.
They had all decided to go to a new karaoke bar and grill that was in town. They had been sitting together in a large booth talking, eating, and drinking. The lot of them were really enjoying themselves. Amy noticed a girl walk up to her the young lady was about 13. "Excuse me You're Amy Rose right from the Black Ultimates?"
"Yes I am." Amy answered.
"I know it's a lot to ask of you but would sing a song for me?"
Amy looked at her and smiled. "Of course Ill sing for you." Amy got up and walked with the girl. "Now tell me what kind of song would you like me to sing?"
"Well there's this boy…" The girl smiled meekly at she thought about it.
"Ah I see I have just the song for you. Amy took the stage and handed the DJ a CD that she had with her. "Play number 7." The music of a slow song started to play as Amy watched the girl approach a boy sitting in a chair. Amy smiled as the boy accepted the girls offer to dance.
I want a little something more
don't want the middle or the one before
I don't desire a complicated past
I want a love that will last
Say that you love me say I'm yours
Don't kiss and hug me and then try to run
I don't do drama my tears don't fall fast
I want a love that will last
I don't just a memory give me forever
Don't even think about saying goodbye
Cause I just want love to be enough and
Remain in my heart to till I die
Rouge and looked at Knuckles and asked him to please dance with her which he did and Tails was also taking Cream out onto the floor for a little slow dancing.
So call me romantic
Well I guess that's so
There's something more you ought to know
I'll never leave you so don't even ask
I want a love that will last forever
I want a love that will last
Shadow had gotten up and was standing a little ways from the stage staring into Amy's eyes as she sung. He knew this wasn't just some song for a fan this was how she felt on the inside this must be about what Amy wanted.
I don't just a merrory
Give me forever
Don't even think about saying goodbye
I just want one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till I die
So there's just a little more that I need
I want share all the air that you breath
I not the kind of girl to complicate the past
I want a love that will last forever
I want love that will last
Always I want one love that will last
I want a love that will last
Amy smiled as everyone clapped and she left the spotlight. She met Shadow at the foot of the stage. "Amy that was really good."
"Thanks it's one of the songs I wrote a long time ago." Amy walked with him back to the booth they all had been sitting in earlier. She slid in to the end and was surprised when Shadow slipped in on the same side as her and rather closely too.
Amy looked at him as she though about what she wanted to know about him something they could talk about. "Shadow what was the first song you and your band ever sang?"
"It was a song called 'Grow Up'."
"Can you sing it to me?" Amy watched him shift around a little. "You don't have to get up on stage just sing it to me with the tune right here no one else has to hear.
"Only if you sing the first real song you ever sang by yourself." Shadow had his arms folded and on the table not making eye contact as he spoke.
"Deal." Amy said as she leaned back in the corner waiting to listen.
Shadow thought hard and recalled the words and tune and then began singing.
This is who I am and this is what I'm like
If you're looking for me I'll be at the show
I could never find a better place to go until the day
I die I promise I won't change so you better
Get right I don't wanna be told to grow up
And I don't wanna change I just wanna have fun
I don't wanna be told to grow up and I don't wanna change
So you better get right cause I'm not gonna change so you better get right
Shadow paused momentarily trying to remover the next verse. It was hard thinking about this song seeing as how it was one he had written when he was a different person. This song was a reflection of his former self, someone that had died long before he met Amy learned of love.
Like to stay up late spend hours on the phone
Hangen out with all my friends and never be alone
I'm impolite and I make fun of everyone
I'm immature but I will stay this way forever
Till the day I die I promise I won't change
So you better get right
I don't wanna be told to grow up
And I don't wanna change I just wanna have fun
I don't wanna be told to grow up and I don't wanna change
So you better get right cause I'm not gonna change I don't wanna grow up
I don't wanna be told to grow up
I don't wanna be told to grow up
Amy felt like she could see Shadows soul right now something he didn't show to a lot of people and she found it was gentle and sweet things she thought she'd never see in him before. She could see that Shadow was once a very different person.
I don't wanna be told to grow up and I don't wanna change
I just wanna have fun I don't be told to grow up and I don't wanna change
So you better get right I don't wanna grow up
and I don't wanna change I just
wanna have fun I don't be told to grow up
and I don't wanna change so you better
get right no I don't wanna change so you better get right
cause I'm not gonna change I don't wanna grow up.
Amy smiled as he ended the song. "Wow that was amazing for a fist song."
"Thanks I wrote that a lifetime ago." He really meant that to it was during a very different life that he wrote the words of that song. "Now you sing your fist song."
"It was a short song that I wrote when I was in fifth grade a song I did for a talent show." Amy leaned on the table too making slight eye contact with Shadow every now and again.
"Did you win?"
"Yes I did." Amy closed her eyes as she stated to sing her slow song. She knew that the words of her first song also reflected a person she no longer was.
Do I miss you Count the stars and multiply by ten
Course I do more than now and then
I could paint a rainbow shine the sky
Set the stars in space faster than explain
How much I miss your face
Watch the moon someday soon he will start
To smile when I say I'll see you in a while
Shadow felt a strange feeling he felt sadness for her he mentally slapped himself for his thoughts at that moment. He wanted so badly to put his arms around Amy and comfort her.
But till then I'll miss you
Dry my tears hide my fears
Till that happy day
To the rainbows end is where I would go my friend
I do miss you so