Okay here's the better version of this chap.with some spell check and grammer check hope it's better than before!
Chapter 11: My Confessions
The group had been walking back to the girls' house and they finally reached it after playing and messing around with one anther the whole way. Most of them had adjourned into the house for ice cream and a movie but Shadow had taken Amy into the fenced in backyard. Amy willingly followed. Shadow was surprised when he saw a trampoline in the yard and was even more surprised when Amy made him join her on top of it. They were lying side by side arms behind their head, and watching the stars twinkle against the night sky. Amy sat up for a moment and looked down at Shadow.
"What?"
"I just never thought this would happen."
"What're you talking about?"
"When we first met I thought we'd hate each other forever but we didn't we changed and now we're sitting here as friends." Shadow sat up too as she spoke. "You know I think we started being friends the minute you deiced you weren't going to leave me in the park that night."
"Amy I wanna know something." He looked at her with serious eyes.
"What is it?" Amy pulled her keens to her chest and rested her head on top of them.
"Who is that hedgehog you were with that day I found you in the field?"
Amy's eyes closed slightly as she turned her view to the side. "That was Tucker."
"Why was he…touching you like that, and why didn't you try to get away?"
"Tucker is my old boyfriend he says he's still in love with me but I know he's not. He just wants to have his way with me that's all. When I didn't want to stay with him anymore he black mailed me. I did my best to escape it but I knew that if I did he would rune my life and then what would I have to go back to." "Finally he said to make it easier on me that every time he did that to me he would pay me…like a prostitute." Amy held back some tears as she continued. "He did that because he knew that back then I owed a lot of money and he took advantage of that."
"Did he ever try to go all the way?" Shadow had to know if Tucker had raped her.
"No but if you hadn't been there that day I think…he would have." She got up and sat at the edge of the trampoline, Shadow followed her.
"Amy that night in the park you were hurt…and it was because of him wasn't it?"
"Yes."
"It's my fault if I hadn't asked you for money." Shadow turned away leaning in the opposite direction his fist clinched tightly.
"No Shadow don't say that." Amy took his hand and turned him back. "I did it because I thought I had too. If it wasn't for you I probably would have been raped by Tucker."
Shadow turned away slightly not looking at her face. "Amy remember you asked me what I wanted?"
"Yes."
"What I want…is you."
"Ha ha Shadow could you try to be serious." Amy forced a smile.
"I am serious Amy you're what I want." Shadow turned and faced her fully.
"Shadow this isn't funny." Amy's expression changed to that of sadness and slight anger.
"I'm telling you the truth." Shadow told her.
Amy got up off the trampoline and in a bit of a harsh walk moved toward the street. "I just told you a very painful part of my past and now you're making jokes about it." Amy broke into a run and disappeared down the street not wanting Shadow to see her tears.
"Amy wait!" Shadow was going to run after her but he thought that if he did he might make things worse. "Why didn't I just keep my big mouth shut?"
"Cause you don't know what you're doing for one." Shadow looked to the house. Knuckles was leaning in the framed of the backdoor.
"What are you talking about?" Shadow asked.
"Face it Shadow it's obvious you've never been in love. You probably didn't even know what love was till you met Amy."
"And what am I to do about it?"
"You love the girl apparently so that's one place to start. You need to tell her that you're in love with her." Knuckles walked out into the yard and past Shadow he was strolling next to the flowerbed. "You have to remember Amy's a special case she's afraid of being with someone again."
"How did-"
"Rouge gave me some hints." "Amy's not going to fall into you're arms the first time so if at first you don't succeed try try again." Knuckles knelt down and picked a beautiful blooming flower. "I think Amy loves you too. She's just afraid she's going to get hurt again. You're job is to prove you'd never do anything to hurt her." Knuckles through the flow to Shadow who caught it easily.
"Knuckles how do you know all this anyway?" Shadow questioned.
"I guess you could say I'm just a true romantic." Knuckles smirked.
"No you're just horny and read way too much into those 'What A Girl Wants' magazines." Shadow threw the flower at Knuckles head make a perfect bull's-eye.
"Hey they work don't they; besides what of you got to lose." "You've lost you're heart, your mind, your pride and let me tell ya, you can only go up from here."
"And to think I use to never even consider attempting to understand the female mind." Shadow sighed as he looked up at the stars.
"Yes I know such dangerous territory." Knuckles shoved Shadow to get him back down to Earth. "Come on Shadow." He gave him a light punch in the arm. "Get you're head in the game." "I mean it's not like this should be much of a challenge for you now if you were Sonic then we'd have a problem no wait it'd be hopeless. But come on man you've got looks, charm, and a knack for understanding the mushy side of a female's feelings. Not to mention you seem really protective over your particular female of choice there for you don't stand much change of losing her."
"What are you; the date doctor?" Shadow looked at him wondering where Knuckles came up with this stuff.
"As a matter a fact I am." Knuckles was leaning against a tree now.
"What do you do in your spare time?"
"I help guys like you." "You know like the dude form 'Hitch' what'd they call him ow yea a cure for the common man." Knuckles shrugged his shoulders. "What can I say I'm just gifted."
"Yea and it isn't in the head." Shadow walked toward the garage.
Knuckles shook his head Shadow was going about this all wrong. He followed his buddy into the garage. "Look Shadow Amy loves music she seems to express all her feelings through that maybe if you express your feeling the way she does she'll understand you're not faken."
Shadow looked at his guitar witch was sitting in the corner form yesterday's practice as a song began to come to mind.
Amy was sitting somewhere downtown in a pool hall. She was on a barstool a brown glass bottle in her hand. "Why can't I just be happy?"
"You can if you just stick with me." Of course he would be right there on the barstool beside her to rub salt in her wounds.
"Tucker go away I don't wanna talk to you." Amy turned on her stool so she had her back to him.
"You owe me come on lets get out of here together."
"I'm not going anywhere with you; just leave me alone…I don't need this right now." Amy laid some money on the bar and then got up to walk away the bottle still in her hand.
Tucker followed her out of the pool hall and down the street. "Come on Ames you know you need me."
"No you're actually the last thing I need." Amy was getting anger by the second with this jerk she was going to snap soon.
"Come on Amy what's wrong? Afraid your new boyfriend would dump you if he found out about us?"
"Shut up Tucker." Amy's anger couldn't be contained any longer. She let the bottle in her hand slip so she was holding it by the neck.
"Is he gonna kill me if I touch you again?" Tucker taunted.
In one swift movement Amy hit the bottle against the brick wall she was walking beside and broke the bottom off of it. She turned to Tucker and held the sharp jagged edges of the bottle up to him only inched from his flesh. "You won't have to worry about him killing you because I will have already done it by the time he gets here!" Amy looked at him with a glare of death. "If you try to touch me again I won't hesitate to fight back." Amy held the bottle a little closer to his neck before turning away in a sharp manner and walking off back towards her home. Tucker watched her disappear as he rubbed his neck where the glass had been.
Amy still held the neck of the bottle tightly for fear of Tucker coming after her anyway. She may not have looked it but Amy was scared to death she would give anything for a good song right now or even more for someone to lean on right now. Amy lifted her head as a sound made it's way towards her. It was music and a voice. A voice she'd recognize anywhere.
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
Amy was standing at the far corner of the front yard now she dropped the bottle to the ground as she watched Shadow and the other guys play she knew he hadn't seen her just yet or so she thought.
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Amy could feel tears coming to her eyes at that moment as Shadow made full eye contact with her. Some how it made her move out from her hiding spot standing in plane view. Shadow put his guitar down and let Knuckles take over the main guitar playing as he just continued to sing.
That's why I need you to hear
I found a reason to change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
Amy had taken a few steps and was in the middle of the grass area of the yard. Shadow took the chance and started walking toward her. He reached her and then took her by the hands and laced her fingers with his own as he continued to sing.
I never meant to do those things to you
And so have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I found a reason to show a side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
Amy looked at him as some tears streamed down her face. She wanted to say something anything but nothing came to mind she was at a loss of words for once in her life.
Shadow pulled her to him and wrapped his arms around her.
Knuckles was shoving Sonic into the house all the while covering his mouth so he wouldn't rune the moment.
Amy didn't resist she couldn't. Shadow held her a bit tighter. "Before I was a different person I was colder a lot less trusting…but then I met you." Shadow rested his head against the side of hers. "You made me feel something that can't ever be replaced and it can't ever die. You made me feel love and now I can't survive with out you." He brought his head back so he was looking her full in the face and directly in the eyes. "I'm in love with you Amy."
She smiled softly at him as she stared into his perfect face. She placed her hand on the edge of his face and ran her finger tips down it slowly. "Do you promise that if I love you to then this will last forever?" Amy stared into those blood red orbs looking for truth.
"Amy this is a love that will last…forever." His eyes shifted back in forth looking at her waiting for an answer.
"I guess you always get what you want." Amy smiled as she wrapped her arms around his neck. Shadow grinned as he eased in and kissed her.
The kiss was more than Amy could ever imagine she never new passion until she kissed Shadow the hedgehog. He was a good no amazing kisser.