Discalimer: I own only the characer(s) I have created.
A/N Sorry it took so long to update! I really had to sit on this chapter for awhile before I decided what to do. Alot of you think that Celia and Casey should just move to Stars Hollow, but that's not my plan. I will show some flashbacks including Casey and Celia, their situation and why they wouldn't be able to make that move. Really I just wanted to add something that would effect Jess alot but at the same time avoid Rory becoming pregnant. I don't know if you'll like this chapter or not because I'm still not totally sure what to write. Done with my rambles for now so on with the story!
"Yeah I'll do it. But I am not letting you just run off and try to forget this kid. He or she will know that you are their father. You and Celia will visit, write, call or email once a month. You will be apart of it's life unlike our fathers you got that? The only reason I'm doing this is because I know you guys can't leave New York." Jess said completely serious. He wasn't going to let this kid have a life like his or Casey's. It didn't deserve that as Casey said.
"I know. Thanks man. You don't know how much I appreciate this. Celia too. I will be a part of this kids life if it means that you'll raise him or her. I wasn't planning on trying to forget it you know." Casey had been a little taken abcak when Jess said that he would think about leaving the kid with him so he could forget it. He'd never be able to forget about it.
"Yeah, just making sure neither of inherited that gene from our so called fathers." Casey just nodded and looked around the apartment uncomfortably. Things between them had always been layed back, now, things would never be the same. Whether that was a good thing or not, no one knew.
"I like Rory. She's not the usual slut that can't read." Casey said changing the subject.
"One of the reasons I love her." Jess said sitting down as if it was nothing.
"Wait a minute. Did you, Jess Mariano, say that you loved someone?" Casey said totally dumbfounded.
"She's not just somebody, Case. She's got me jumping through hoops for her. I really care about her. If I didn't then I would be back in New York with you by now. It's not like she's just there to keep me from getting bored." Jess said it, meaning everyword.
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"...she's just ther to keep me from getting bored..." That's where she stopped listening. She had gone upstairs to check on them and had only caught that part of the conversation. His words kept running through her mind. She wouldn't have believed it but he sounded so serious. Maybe he really did just want to get in her pants. Maybe this is all just some meaningless crap he wanted her to believe. But that couldn't be true. When she looked in his eyes, she saw love, unconditional and true. Maybe that's just what he wanted her to think. But if he was just doing this to screw with her head then why would he go back to school and actually try?
She must have heard wrong. But the chance that it might be true made he want to throw up. Before she knew it, she was running downstairs all the way home. Once she got there she slammed the door and threw herself on top of the couch crying, hard.
She hadn't cried this hard because of anyone before. She cried because of Dean, but never this bad. Her heart felt like it had been torn into seven pieces and burned. She could not believe that he could say such a thing.
That was how Lorelai found her when she got home an hour later. "Babe, what's wrong?" She was really worried. Rory didn't ever cry this hard. Rory sat up and hugged her mother for dear life. Like she could make all the bad go away. She was able to make the monsters go away when she was little, or get her away from Kirk when he was being himself. There was no reason she wouldn't be able to fix this, right?
"... Jess... I heard... Him say... That... I was just there... to keep him from getting bored..." Rory choked out shaking with sobs. Nothing in her life had ever hurt so much. Lorelai held Rory whispering things to her soothingly. Once Rory had calmed down a bit Lorelai once again asked her what happened and Rory filled her in on Casey's stiuation, what he asked Jess and what she had heard.
"Wow. Somehow, I just don't believe that. Are you sure that you heard him right? Jess is usually sarcastic, maybe he didn't mean it." Lorelai tried. But once Rory had her mind set, it was hell to try to convince her otherwise.
"He sounded pretty serious when he said it."
"Hon, you do know there's a possibility that you only heard the last part of his sentence right?"
"I know, but, just to hear him say it made me sick. He really cared, cares, about me and to hear those words just... aroused the doubts I had at the beginning of our relationship."
"I know babe. At first I didn't know if I could trust him or not. He got sent here from New York because he was getting in trouble. But he was there for you through the Dean situation, respected your space when Lane needed you and helps you study for school. He has to care about you, or he is a really good actor. But let's face it, Jess in drama? I don't think so." That made Rory smile. "So I take it you're going to talk to him?"
"I guess I should. He was there for me when I needed him, now it's my turn." Rory sighed and got up. "But I should clean myself up a bit first, huh?" Lorelai smiled and nodded as Rory proceeded to the bathroom. Hopefully, eveything would be fine for now. There was enough drama that day for a year.
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When Luke saw Jess and Casey come down stairs laughing, he figured everything was alright. And then he remembered Rory and instantly went into father mode. "What did you say to Rory to make her run out of her like she was on fire?" Luke demanded.
"What are you talking about? When I went up she was working down here and I haven't seen her since." Jess told Luke looking at him as if his head exploded and grew back.
"About 2 hours ago she went upstairs only to come running downstairs like I've never seen her run. She was upstairs where you were so my only guess is you said something to her."
"She didn't even come into the apartment." Casey told Luke.
Luke looked at them both to see if they were lying, and since he couldn't read their eyes he gave them the benefit of the doubt. "Well, she was obviously upset, you should talk to her, Jess."
"No, I'll go." Casey suggested. He had been wanting to talk to Rory one on one and figured this would be the perfect chance. "I wanted to talk to her anyway." Jess looked at him skeptically. "Relax, man."
"Fine, but send her here when you finish talking." Jess conceited reluctantly.
"Deal." He asked where her house was and then made his way out the door. He didn't have to go too far before bumping into her. "Rory, just who I was looking for."
"Hey, Casey. Is Jess at the diner?" She didn't want to be rude but she really needed to tallk to Jess.
"Yeah, but I was hoping I could talk to you."
"Umm, sure." She turned and they started walking through town. "What's up?"
"Luke said that you were upset. I think I might be able to help you out there. What happened?" He wanted to get the easier subject out of the way first.
"I heard something, but I'm not sure if Jess meant it." She said blushing slightly. She too a deep breath and looked at him. "He said that I was just there to keep him from getting bored. Please tell me he didn't say that." Casey smirked.
"He did say that but, he was just telling me that he was in love with you and being his sarcastic, smart ass self." Casey said hoping that she would believe him.
"But he sounded so serious." Rory argued all though she didn't know why.
"He was serious, serious about being in love with you. You've got him, Jess I don't give a shit Mariano, in love. Not just anyone could do that. Not with the life he's led. You're his Celia. At the risk of sounding cheesy and like a romance novel, you're his other half. I've never seen him look at anyone like he does at you." Rory sighed relieved that she had just misheard him. But she didn't think that was all that Casey wanted to talk to her about.
"I love him too. I dunno, it just hurt to hear the person you love say something like that so convincingly." Beat. "I know that wasn't the only thing you wanted to talk to me about Casey."
"Perceptive as well. You're right. I have to ask you somethiong that I need an honest answer to. Promise?" He looked at her as she debated whether or not to promise. Normally she would automatically agree, but somehow, this situation seemed different. Probably because she was talking to Casey, part of Jess's past.
"I promise." She said finally.
"I want to know whether or not you think asking Jess to raise my kid is being a bad father." Wow, definately not was she was expecting. Not that she knew what to expect. Definately not that.
"Well, it depends on your situation. If you're running away from this, then yes. If you want what's best for the baby, then no. If there's something you aren't sharing with Jess as to why you want him raise your child, but it's for the best, then no. I know we don't really know each other, but I have to know. Why don't you just raise your baby with it's mother, your girlfriend?"
FLASHBACK
"And don't you ever think about telling the cops again!" A tall, well built man with short brown hair dressed in an Armani three-piece suit yelled at Casey before leaving and after punching him in the gut.
Casey wanted out. He knew telling cops was stupid but seemed like the best idea at the time. And now he has assured that would never be able to get out. He was going to be a father in a matter of months, he couldn't have this kid while stuck working for the mob. One day he'd leave and he never come becoause he made a stupid mistake and he wouldn't be able to leave Celia to raise a kid on her own.
This kid, his child, deserved to lead an untainted life somewhere safe. In a place where he would be able to keep his/her innocence for longer than seven years. A place where s/he wouldn't have to deal with abusive basterds just with his/her mom for sex and money.
And then it struck him. He knew who he could trust to do the job and keep his kid safe. The person he spent half his child hood with, the only person he ever really trusted, the guy who was like his brother in a completely safe enviornment.
He wanted this kid, but not under his circumstances, and he couldn't ask Celia to get an abortion just because of it. He had to talk to Celia, and then Jess. If Jess didn't do this, he didn't know what would happen.
END OF FLASHBACK
"And Celia doesn't know the first thing about being a mother. It's not like she can get help from anyone other than me and I don't have a clue. I want this kid in good hands, somewhere safe, to turn out okay. If anyone would be able to do that, it'd be Jess. If I could just bring Celia and the baby here I would, but I can't. Celia doesn't want to leave New York and you know why I can't leave." Casey explained to her hoping she wouldn't think bad of him. She seemed to have a good judge of character and if she thought him a coward or loser, what would Jess think?
"Well, I guess you'd be acting as a father trying to keep you baby safe, and that's a good thing." She smiled warmly trying to cheer him up and breaking him out of his serious mood. He returned the smile and she knew that they would get along just fine.
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Rory and Casey had walked back to the diner. Casey just wanted to listen to music and call Celia so that gave Jess and Rory a chance to hang out for a little while. They decided to go to the bridge for some quiet. The town had seen Rory wallking with Casey earlier all smiles, and of course, they were gossiping.
"So you're really gonna raise a baby?" Rory asked leaning her head on Jess's shoulder. It sort of surprised her when she heard that he said yes since he didn't usually like kids. But then she realised that Casey was one of the few people that Jess would do almost anything for.
"I'm not doing this alone. Not as long as you're around. There are somethings things you'd be better at than me." He seemed sort of squeemish, Rory would have laughed but he would have been mad then.
"Like what?"
"Like changing dipers, and dressing the kid. You know, stuff like that." He shrugged wrapping his arm around her.
"So basically, all the dirty work." Rory looked at Jess and he nodded. "You do know that the baby will be staying at the apartment with you during the night and you'll have to feed him, change dipers and rock him back to sleep. Or you could read Hemingway aloud." She smiled at his face as he realised this really would be a lot of work. But she would be there to alieve some of the work. They'd be a team raising this baby. Just like if they were married.
"How about this, we share the dirty work? Bsides, I'm sure Lorelai will want to play with this kid and help take care of him right?"
"Mom loves babies. When they're cute and clean."
"Well, at least we know who to leave the kid with when we go out. This will not effect our dating. Not if I can help it." Jess was not going to give up kissing Rory or reading with her for this kid. What he didn't know was that this kid may never do that.
"Of course not. But maybe we should get it out of our systems, you know, just to be sure." She smiled suggestively. He smirked in return leaning in to capture her lips with his.
Life was going to be very different from now on, they knew that. They just didn't realise how much things would change. How would they deal with school? What would happen if something went wrong?
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Luke and Jess were closing the diner, the only noise was of them cleaning up. "Casey's girlfriend is pregnant and he wants me to raise his kid. I said yes." Jess said breaking the silence. He would have not told him just to avoid this conversation, but Luke'd notice if a baby was in a crib upstairs seven months later.
"You're joking right? You're sixteen, Jess. How are you going to take care of this kid and go to school? You need to gradutae or you can't stay here, and if you don't graduate how are you going to make enough mone to live in a decent place and feed the kid and yourself? Have you even thought any of this through?" LUke ranted. How could Jess be so irresposible?
"Yes, I have. Rory is going to help me. We'll only have another year of high school by the time the baby is born. We'll figure that out then. I am going to graduate. When the kid is old enough, I'm going to go to a state college and get my degres so that I can make a living from home. I will take care of this kid and myself, but no matter how hard I try, I'll never be able to do it alone. Luke... I need your help. Just for a little while. Just until after high scool." He looked at him with a pleading look in his eyes. If he didn't have Luke's help, and Rory's help, he'd screw this kid up and that's what they were trying to avoid.
"Wow. Jess... I'm not real good with words, but, you're doin' good kid. This baby will be lucky to have you and Rory raising him. I have to say, you're growing up. Hell of a lot more than your mom when she had you." Luke smiled at Jess warmly which Jess returned. Maybe he was doing something right with this kid. He knew most of it was Rory, but he hoped that he did a little something.
A/N Wow, that took long to write. It's not much, but I think I like this chapter. I am soooooooooooooo sorry about the long wait! This chapter was really hard to write. The thing about Rory misunderstanding Jess wasn't even planned. I just got an idea and wrote half of this chapter. But once that was finished, I didn't know what to write anymore. I know that Jess is alot different than in the show, but this is hwo I like to portray the character when he left. And Rory seems different as well. I really have lost all respect for her. The show is only worth watching to see Luke and Lorelai together, reality hitting Rory like a ton of bricks and Jess coming back to be the hero for once. I like my Rory. She still has that innocence, I hope, but she isn't such a prude and shy. I prefer her stronger, rather than weaker. I don't know if I wrote Luke in character so I'd love it someone could tell me. Once again, I am soooooooo sorry about the long wait! And with a cliffhanger too. Damn I'm evil. FYI: I write faster when I get alot of reviews! HintHint "Reviews Love" just like HollywoodLove(my nickname). Also if you could tell me what you think about this poem I wrote. Nothing to do with Gilmore Girls but I was in an emo mood. I'll love you forever if you do!
Everyone cares
No one cares
No one knows what it's like to be me
To feel loved one minute
And alone the next
To have people to talk to
But unable to reach them when needed
To have people come to you for advice
But have no one to ask
To wait for someone to come along
And love you completely
But never meet them
To want something so bad
And never have it
To slip in and out of reality
Hoping, wishing for what you know may never come
To have what most people desire or don't have
But know they are just materials
To feel incomplete
Without someone to make you feel whole
To feel loved one minute
And alone the next
-Rose Fliegel
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