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A/n: I know. I know….everyone hates for not updating in like 6 months but I hope this makes up for it. It's a long one. I even have the next chapter almost done. It's the last one that'll be a flashback. Thanks for sticking with me through all of this. I hope you review and you like it! Look for the last 3 to come!

Chapter 20—The Look into the Past—part 3

Sixth Year

"Alexia! Where are you?" Remus and Lily yelled as they wandered in the dark. Sirius and James gathered close behind them.

"Do you think she found that cat? Or…Anya I guess it would be," Lily said worried.

"I'm not sure," Remus said. Alexia made her way out of the woods.

"Alex, what happened?" he said as he wrapped her in his arms.

"Hagrid has her," she gasped. Their heads turned toward Hagrid and he was carrying a girl identical to Alexia. The only noticeable difference was that her hair was darker than Alexia's strawberry curls and it was straight as a board. "Let's get her to Dumbledore," Alexia said.

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The sun was rising as they sat around Dumbledore's office, all looking at the sleeping girl and no one saying anything at all. She finally started to wake up and everyone jumped up in the seats. Anya's eyes bolted around the room and stopped on Alexia. They didn't say anything as they looked at each other. Alexia went to the floor on her knees and looking at Anya.

"Alexandria?"

"Yeah…it's me." Alexia bit her lip and held back the tears in her eyes. Anya threw arms around her sister and they sat in the floor and cried.

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"Sometimes I think it's too good to be true," Alexia said as she looked at Remus. "I can't believe she's functioning so well here. And Professor Dumbledore helping her with figuring out her past—it's just really great."

"I think so too Alex," Remus smiled at her. "What are you doing Friday?"

"There's a Hogsmede trip…"

"Yeah, I know. I was just wondering if you'd want to go somewhere with me while we were there…like on a date…with me."

Alexia's face lit up. "I'd love to." He smiled back at her.

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"I just don't understand this!" Anya tossed down the book in front of her. "I don't know why I can't remember! I can't write it down if I don't remember."

"I understand your frustration Anastasia and—" Dumbledore began.

"Don't call me that!" Anya yelled. A look of fear overcame her face. "Don't…" Dumbledore looked at her, his eyes twinkling.

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"Did you kiss her?" Peter laughed as put his face down by Remus' shoulder. Remus ignored him and read on.

"He isn't going to tell a blighter like you Petey," Sirius joked as he tossed his Defense Against the Dark Arts book toward Peter's head. Peter sat back down and quiet passed through the room. Sirus and James were tossing looks back and forth.

"I'm not telling either of you either, so you can just stop with the bloody looks." Remus said, not moving his gaze.

"Come on Moony! It's been over a week already! Will you just tell us? We're going to find out anyway you know," James smiled. Remus put down his book and the three gathered closer.

"Well…" Remus paused. "I'm not telling you! Give it up!" With that he left the room, leaving his three friends to their own torture.

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"Anya, I'd really like you to back me up on this. Tell your darling sister that she should inform us of the happening between herself and our little Remus," Sirius smiled at her.

"Well, that's all well and good but in the few short months I've known you, I have realized that you always get what you want. And knowing Remus, I would say that you asked him and he rejected you. I would also say you asked Alexia and Lily and they also wouldn't tell you. Now you've decided that I would tell you something. Is that right?"

"No not exactly, we never asked Lily."

"Sorry blokes, but I'm not saying anything. I'm not the betraying type. Even if I were, I know nothing," Anya said as she went into her class. The three boys looked at each other and walked dejectedly to DADA class.

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"We've all talked about it and we're all going to stay here with you for Christmas," Lily smiled.

"All of you?" Alexia smiled. "Are you sure?"

"Yes, we're sure. We want to be part of the first Christmas with your sister," Remus replied.

"That's great! Thanks a lot."

(Christmas break begins.)

"This is great. Thanks for taking me out on a walk," Alexia smiled to Remus.

"Sure. You looked like you needed it." Remus pulled her close to him.

"I talked to my brothers this morning, their going to come here so they can see her but they don't know when—sometime during the break. I haven't seen them since…it's been a long time." She was quiet as they walked through the falling snow. "I guess I'm—I have a question for you. We've been—well, we've been this for a while now and—"

"'This?'"

"Yeah…that's what I was asking: What are we Remus?"

"Well…I thought we were boyfriend/girlfriend. But if that's not what you want…"

"It is. It is what I want." They stopped walking and snow fell around them as he kissed her.

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"Jeremy! Ryan!" Alexia said as she flew into their arms.

"Wow, you've grown up. You look beautiful." Ryan smiled at her. Jeremy hugged her and she couldn't let go. They looked around as Dumbledore came in.

"Hello Jeremy, Ryan. I hope the trip was good," Dumbledore smiled.

"It was great Professor, thank you," Ryan smiled.

"There is no need in prolonging any introductions. Come, let's take you to your sister."

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"Things seem to be going well," Lily smiled to Remus.

"We never really knew them, different houses, but they seem pretty great. It's like they were never apart."

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The school year was almost over and Anya had been functioning very well at Hogwarts. For the first time in her life, Alexia was going to spend the summer away from Hogwarts and stay in England with Anya and her brothers at their new home. She had a real family again, great friends and a wonderful boyfriend who completed her. Things finally made sense in her life.

It was late at night. The rain howled outside and the portraits slept soundly in the halls of Griffyndor. They didn't wake as the Alexia walked by them. It was like she was gliding. Something was calling to her and she was answering.

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"Where is Alexandria?" Dumbledore asked them all as they piled into hid office.

"She was here last night when we went to bed but…she's just gone." Lily said.

"She didn't leave a note or anything." Anya added.

"Where could she have gone in the middle of the night?" Sirius asked. Dumbledore looked at them all.

"I honestly don't know but we will find her."

"But she leaves tomorrow…what's going to happen?" James asked.

"I'll owl her brothers and tell them that Anya will be the only one joining them for the summer. When Alexia is found, I assure you she will be found and she'll join them."

"This isn't good. She was thrilled to get to see them for the whole summer. This just doesn't make any sense." Remus told Dumbledore. Dumbledore shook his head as the students left. Alexia would never leave like this.

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Every week of the summer break Remus, Lily, James, Sirius and her sibling owled Dumbledore to find out anything about Alexia. And every week Dumbledore or McGonagall wrote back saying they 'regrettably had no information.' Every morning Dumbledore checked the room for any sign of Alexia and Filch was asked to check it periodically throughout the night. Dumbledore searched with a group to find her but the continued to have no luck. It was as if she was just gone.

Then one night toward the end of summer, Alexia walked the halls of Hogwarts and crawled into her bed. Filch, on one of his nightly rounds, saw her asleep and ran to inform Dumbledore.

Alexia woke up to see Dumbledore around her bed. "Professor, what's…?"

"Are you alright Alexandria? We've been looking all over for you."

"All over?"

"Yes, we've been searching for months and…"

"Months? What do you mean months?" Alexia asked jumping out of her bed.

"Alexandria, you've been—what day is it?"

"It's the next to last day of school. Anya and I go to stay with Jeremy and Ryan tomorrow."

"Alexandria," Dumbledore said softly, "I'm sorry but it's not. The day that you think it is, we woke up and you were gone. It's been two and half months. You've been missing."

"But---But that's not possible. I don't…I went to sleep last night and I woke up and now—you're telling me it's been this long?" Dumbledore shook his head. "Then, how do I not remember any of this?"

"That's what we'll have to figure out."

Seventh Year

"Alex! It's so good to see you! I was so worried!" Remus kissed her as he boarded the train. "Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. I promise; I'm fine. I've missed you." He hugged her as they went to their carriage. "You aren't staying here are you? Don't you have to go to the prefect carriage?"

"Oh…I'm not a Head Boy. I'm just a regular student." He smiled at her.

"Regular is a bit off, mate." Sirius said, putting his things above him. "You're never going to be regular. Hey Alex, give me a hug." She smiled and gave him a hug. "We were worried about you."

Anya came back in the carriage. " You're here Remus. Good."

"Alexia?" Lily shrieked as she ran to hug Alexia. "I've missed you so much! We were all so worried!" There was a man who walked down the hall calling the prefects and Head Boys to the prefect carriage. "Bullocks, I don't want to leave you. But duty calls I guess. Remus are you ready?"

"Oh Lily, I'm not Head Boy."

"What? You're not? Then…then who is? Oh, I'm going to get stuck with some git aren't I? Who in Merlin's name could be Head Boy then?"

"Oh Evans," James said appearing for the first time, "we'd better get to the prefect carriage. We'll be late." As fast he appeared, he disappeared. Lily gasped and looked around the carriage at all the astonished faces

"Surely not…Dumbledore wouldn't…How…But…I knew I'd get stuck with a git for a partner." Lily said as she turned on her heel.

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"You know, I never thought I'd say this," Lily sighed as she sat down next to Anya and Alexia, "but I wish I wouldn't have taken the Head Girl position."

"What? Why?" Alexia asked. "Oh…I know why. Working with James getting to you that badly?"

"It's only been a week!" Anya exclaimed.

"He's so infuriating! A thorn in my side. I don't understand why Prof. Dumbledore gave the position to him. Nobody has ever just usurped right to Head Boy with no experience. And the way he talks to me sometimes…arg! He's so full of himself, acting as if I want him. It's annoying!" Alexia laughed. "What?" Anya joined in the laughing. "Why are you laughing!"

"Because your hilarious!" Alexia smiled.

"Hilarious? Why do you say that?"

"You wouldn't be so annoyed by him if you didn't like him so much."

"I do not like James Potter! At all; Most times I can barely tolerate him!" Lily exclaimed.

"You keep telling yourself that, Lily. But you've told yourself that you don't like him for how many years now: 3 or is it 4? I've lost count now…"Lily started to object but Alexia wouldn't let her get a word in. "I'm just telling you that you need to stop fighting with yourself and admit it. If you don't, it'll be a long year—for you and everyone else." Lily looked at them both, nodded and left the table.

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"I have so much work to do. I thought seventh year was supposed to be easy!" Sirius sighed as he plopped his dinner tray on the table.

"Well, it's not," Peter sighed shyly.

"Hey, have you seen Anya anywhere?" Alexia asked Sirius.

"Why would I know where she was?"

"I don't know. I was just asking. I haven't seen her since this morning and neither has Lily."

"No, I haven't seen her," Sirius said. Alexia nodded and sighed and left the table, Sirius and Peter tossing looks.

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"Why do you have to be so impossible?" Lily shouted at James.

"Why do I have to be impossible? Why do you have to be impossible?"

"I am not impossible! This is a simple task and you're making it so hard! You're infuriating!"

"Well, you're like a million bloody bludgers straight to the head!" James yelled back at her.

"If I'm that bad, why don't you ever let up?"

"Because I apparently like being tortured incessantly. And if I let up, you'll never…"

"Never what?" Lily asked. James went back to his papers. "Never what James?"

"Be with me…okay? You'll never give me a chance." Lily's eyes got big and even James was surprised by what he had just said. Lily had never expected him to say that—to be that honest with her. "Just…just never mind. Forget that I even said that. It's—" James got up from the desk.

"James… I—"

"Don't worry about it Evans." James took another step and he was getting closer to the door. Lily's mind was racing.

"James! James wait!" He turned and she ran to him. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings. I—"

"I don't want your apologies, Lily." James stated bluntly. "I just want you to be honest to be honest."

"Who says I'm not being honest?" Lily asked, trying not to get angry at him.

"I know you're not. You haven't been honest with yourself in years. I don't know why you're afraid of me. I've never done anything except try to show that I like you. I've liked you for years and you, of all people, know that. But I can't keep trying to make you see that anymore. You need to just be honest with yourself. You've fought it and you keep fighting me but just be honest, Lily! With yourself and with me. I can't keep doing this." James looked at her sadly and walked out the door. Lily just stood there and looked at the spot where he had stood. His words haunted her; was she really lying to herself all these years?

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"Aren't you two just the most sickening couple ever?" Sirius snorted as he and Peter walked into the Gryffindor common room.

"What?" Remus asked.

"Nothing. You just think you'd find a better place to snog, that's all." Peter snickered in the corner at his comment.

"We weren't snogging!" Alexia shrieked.

"Well, you could've fooled me." Sirius played.

"Like you wouldn't if you had the chance to snog…someone," Remus smiled. Sirius shot him a look that was marked with death and he stopped the smiling. Alexia chose to ignore the whole thing for sake of her sanity and Peter just hovered in the corner.

A/n: There it was! Please review and let me know that yall still like me! Thanks!