Speedfanatic05: Why can't they catch a break? Well because there the Speedle family of course. lol. Maybe after this fic I'll do a pure happy talleigh fic. But you know with me that's so hard, because I'm in love with the drama.

Tithemahiwen: First of all, thanks for reading my story! And secondly i'm sorry that the suspence is killing you. But hey its what we live for right? lol.

CHAPTER-----14-----

Calleigh sighed as she sat down in a chair in the kitchen. "I just don't know what to do, Lizzy. It took me forever to get him to calm down last night."

"Well, Timmy used to get them as a little kid when his oldest brother Johnny would tease him about monster's under his bed. Johnny stopped." said Elizabeth Speedle as she poured Calleigh a cup of coffee. "And then the panick attack's stopped."

"Did they ever start back up again?"

Elizabeth nodded. "Didn't Timmy tell you?"

Calleigh looked at her mother in law curiously. "Tell me what?"

"Well..."

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Tim groaned as he rolled over. He had this pain in his neck, it was one of those pains that you think is just from sleeping the wrong way but then you sit up and you realize...its a full blown migrane. He put his head in his hands and took a few deep breath's. He honestly couldn't remember how long it took Calleigh to calm him down. And to tell the truth apart of him really didn't care. He just couldn't tell her the reason why this man was haunting their lives. It was to...embarissing.

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"...He started having them again when he lost Ricky."

"His best friend Ricky?"

Elizabeth nodded. "Yeah he was murdered, shot and killed right in front of Timmy. A part of me thinks that's why he became a CSI."

Calleigh looked up at Elizabeth with wide eyes. "What?"

"Timmy, didn't tell you that either?" asked Elizabeth slowly. She sighed. "Well, I always figured you new. I mean you read that kid like a book, i figured you would have beat it out of him or something."

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Tim sighed heavily as he walked down the stairs and over to the kitchen. He stopped in front of the swinging door when he heared his mother talking in a semi hushed tone.

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"It was dead of winter and Tim had asked if he could go play catch with Ricky. Dead of winter I haven't the fantest idea why they wanted to do that but Tim had just broken up with his girlfriend, and serious girlfriend I might add, so I let him go, and about 2 hours later he calls me crying hysterically."

"Tim, was crying?" Elizabeth nodded. "I've only seen him cry twice before. It just doesn't seem like Tim to cry."

Elizabeth nodded once again. "He was at the police station, so I went down there and he told me how a man came up to them and told them to empty their pockets." Elizabeth took a second and took a sip of her coffee. "Tim said he reached into-." Both Calleigh and Elizabeth jumped when the swinging door to the kitchen opened to reveal a very angry and upset Tim Speedle.

"Mom you said you wouldn't tell anyone!"

"Timmy..."

"And Calleigh of all people!" Tim voice cracked slightly as he spoke. He shook his head and left the room.

Calleigh got up from the chair and followed him. "Tim."

"Leave me alone, Calleigh!"

Calleigh followed him up the stairs and grabbed his arm when they got to the top. "Tim, sweetheart just talk to me."

"I can't...its to..."

"To what?"

"Its to embarrising. Ok. Just please let it go."

"Why can't you just tell me? Do you not trust me?"

"No, its not that."

"Then what is it?" asked Calleigh frantically. "Tim, you promised me you could tell me anything, and I know that you are hurting right now but you are NOT the only one going through this so please just tell me what is going on."

Tim sighed and placed his hands on Calleigh's cheeks. "You wouldn't understand, you..."

"Then make me understand, Tim."

"You'd blame me, you'd say it was all my fault...you'd say that it was my fault for everything that's happend."

"Tim, sweetheart your not making any since."

"Just let it go." said Tim as he began to walk away.

Calleigh followed him to their bedroom door where again she grabbed his arm. "I'm not letting it go Tim! Your hiding something from me and I want to know what it is! YOU PROMISED ME YOU COULD TELL ME EVERYTHING NOW GOD DAMN IT TIM, SUCK IT UP, STOP BEING A COWARD AND TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!"

Tim looked at Calleigh in horror. "I'm the coward? All I have ever done is try to PROTECT THIS FUCKING FAMILY CALLEIGH!"

"OH WELL GOOD JOB ON THAT TIM! IF YOU HAVEN'T NOTICED WE'VE BEEN GETTING DEATH THREATS FROM SOME PSYCHO PATH IN MIAMI!"

"THAT'S WHY I CAN'T TELL YOU! GOD JUST...JUST LET IT GO! WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO STICK YOUR NOSE INTO PLACES WHERE IT DOESN'T FUCKING BELONG CALLEIGH! WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO GET EVERYTHING YOU WANT! IT KILLS YOU THAT I KNOW SOMETHING THAT YOU DON'T DOESN'T IT!"

Calleigh looked up at him her green eyes blazing with fury. "GO TO HELL TIMOTHY!" said Calleigh as she turned on her heel and headed for their temporary bedroom door. Tim grabbed her arm roughfully and pulled her back to him.

"You wouldn't understand. OK, you just wouldn't." he said in a much quiter tone. Calleigh pulled her arm away from him and headed for the door again. "Come on, baby."

Calleigh turned around once again as she got into the bedroom and placed one hand on the door knob and shoved the other one in Tim's face. "All it is with you is baby, baby, baby, baby. Like that's going to make up for every stubborn little thing you do Tim! You don't want to tell me what's going on, you don't want to tell me something related to this case, fine! But when you get killed because you with held information DO NOT come crying to me!" yelled Calleigh as she slammed the door in Tim's face.

Tim sighed and stepped away from the door. Why couldn't she just see that he was trying to save her, why couldn't she just understand that what happend to Ricky was all his fault, and the reason why countless lives in Miami were taken away were because of him and the mistake he made when he was 18. Why couldn't she just understand that because he loved her, he was with holding information from her. But maybe in the end she was right he was a coward, afraid that if she learned the truth she'd think less of him and leave. Maybe he thought she would just take the kids and leave him. And to be honest, if she did...he wouldn't blame her. Maybe she would be safer that way. But what Tim didn't understand was without him she wasn't safe. And what Calleigh didn't understand was without her he was nothing.

TBC...