Summary: Yuna looks out the window and sees Tidus and Rikku laughing and playing with each other and she can tell that they like one another.
A/N: Well, I've been reading loads of fanficts about Tidus and Rikku. And I got to thinking, what would Yuna be doing? Thinking? So these are her thoughts. Nothing more.
Disclaimer: I have no idea if something like this has been done previously. If so I'm sorry. I don't own any of the characters or anything like that. I just wrote it. That's all.
Thoughts of Yuna
I gaze through my window and see Tidus and Rikku running around the tall pillars that are surrounding the lodge. They are laughing and I can see that they love each other. I know that it's impossible for me to be with him. Tidus is going to keep going, keep living; he has a chance to be truly happy. Whereas me. I am going to fade. Death I am no longer afraid of. But never having the chance to love and be loved back that scares me.
These feelings are hard to keep inside. My emotions are all but bursting out, screaming in agony. Happiness for my cousin that is what I should feel. Jealousy is no help and will only lead to farther, darker places that I wish not to go. I am a summoner; I am supposed to be the example of strength and hope. My hope, my inspiration, my will to keep fighting and not give up is gone though. No, he is still here. How could he possibly understand what I feel?
I see him looking at my cousin with more than just affection, more than just love. It's deeper than that. More than want and need. Gentleness? Passion? Both of those yes. But most of all tenderness.
Looks, feelings, actions, and the ones that Tidus and Rikku are sharing. Experiencing those would make this all worthwhile. Helping others, defeating Sin so that others can share that is good, no is wonderful. Though it would come easier if I understood what exactly I was fighting for. What exactly I was going to give my life for.
No matter. I can work through this and I will smile for them. My cousin needs me there for her, and I will not let something like this pull us apart. We have our place in life; I am going to fulfill mine to the best of my ability. No matter what.