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Lost Memories

Chapter 4- Lost Tear Gems of Memories

Kurama held Hiei close to him. He didn't want to cry but he couldn't help it, Hiei just stabbed himself and now he is either dead or just unconscious. Tears would just fall from his check. Kurama didn't know how to react to the situation, he knew that he could have stopped Hiei, but he didn't get to do it. He was not fast enough. Kurama carried Hiei on his back, he didn't like people to stare at him if he were to carry him bridal style. Kurama whipped his tears; he still thought that he was responsible for it. That is why he felt so miserable. Kurama carried Hiei back to his home. Hiei didn't show any sign of life, his eyes were just closed; he didn't seem to be breathing at all.

People would stare seeing Kurama carrying Hiei on his back, Kurama couldn't care more. He carried him till he got home. Once he got home, he opened the door, and went straight to his bedroom; he laid Hiei on his bed. He watched the fire demon closely. As he looked at Hiei's face, he started to cry again.

'I should have run faster! I should have stopped you from going inside that portal. Now look you're either dead or unconscious. Hiei I am so sorry, I should have looked out for you more. I am so sorry, it's my entire fault!'

Kurama cried beside Hiei. Kurama cried for hours, he didn't eat dinner. Shiori was out for work so no one was there beside him to comfort him. Kurama stayed by Hiei. He never left him. Kurama could only blame himself for what happen to Hiei. Kurama held Hiei tight, and he hugged him. Kurama cried when he hugged Hiei, when he hugged Hiei, something dropped from Hiei's palm. Kurama couldn't see it at first, his tears made his vision a little crappy. When Kurama settled Hiei back on the bed, he whipped his tears away. He got the thing that fell from the palm of Hiei from the ground. It was a gem it was color red with a mixture of black like fire. Kurama quickly realized that the gem was actually one of Hiei's tear gems. Kurama held it close, and kept it.

After a while Kurama called Yusuke, Kuwabara, Koenma, and Botan. He told them the whole incident. Yusuke and Botan were the first once who got to the house of Kurama.

The door knocked, Kurama knew that it was Yusuke and the others. He quickly wiped his tears and tries to look like he didn't cry. Then he opened the door, Kurama was trying to put a smile on his face but sadly it didn't work, the pain was too much for him to handle. Especially when your loved one is the one in danger you cannot hide your true feeling if hurt or not.

Once Kurama opened the door Yusuke was the first person he saw. When Kurama answered the door Yusuke and Botan noticed that Kurama had just cried, his eyes were very red.

"Kurama, we got here as soon as we heard you call, you seemed worried man. How's Hiei?" Yusuke quickly noticed Kurama and his eyes they were red, it meant that he had just cried a lot.

"Thank you for coming you guys I appreciate it." Kurama was wearing a fake smile on his face. He led the four to the living room.

"Tell me Kurama what happened?" Koenma asked.

Kurama gathered all his energy to tell them what exactly happened. "Well after the picnic Hiei and I stayed in the park quite longer, after sunset we left the park. Then we were just talking till we made it back home, but on the middle of our chat, Hiei was somehow hypnotized." Kurama stopped to catch his breath back.

"And then?" Botan was eager to know what happens after that.

"Hiei was hypnotized, I tried to stop him, but he would only say 'someone is calling me' I tired to stop him. Suddenly a portal opened, Hiei was drawing closer to the portal, I still tried to stop him but he would just push me away. Then he entered the portal. When I went inside the portal, it seemed it didn't want me to get closer to Hiei. Even if he was so close he looked so far away." Kurama again stopped.

"Once I got close to him, he got this spirit dagger and stabbed himself. He stabbed himself on his heart. When I got the hold of Hiei the dagger disappeared and gems came out, I just don't know where they went." Kurama was finally finished with the story; he didn't want to show that he was deeply affected by it.

"Where is Hiei now?" Koenma asked Kurama.

"Hiei is upstairs in my room. He is resting there; I think I am not sure if he is either dead or alive." Kurama said with such deep sadness.

"Don't worry Kurama, Hiei is still alive." Botan said cheerfully.

"What! Don't kid with me Botan." Kurama said.

"No really, Hiei is still alive. You say that gems came out right?" Botan was trying to lift his spirit up.

"Yeah."

"Do you have a sample of it?" Botan asked.

"Yeah, I've got one here." Kurama got the tear gem or Hiei from his pocket and handed it over to Botan.

"Just as I thought." Botan was examining the tear gem Kurama gave to her.

"Why?" Kurama was curious.

"Have you ever heard of Lost Heart?" Botan asked.

"Well yes, but I don't know the details." Kurama said.

"Lost Heart is when your heart is shattered together with your memories it drifts away." Botan said.

"Wait you mean to tell me Hiei has no heart right now?" Yusuke asked.

"Well you can say that. This tear gem is a piece of Hiei's heart, you have to put it back in his heart and he will start breathing again. If the body doesn't have a heart it will die that's why Hiei is neither breathing or showing any signs of life, he is just asleep he is drifting in a different world right now, but he is not dead. If he doesn't have a heart or even a piece of his heart for more than a day now he will surely die." Botan explained.

"One more thing, even if you did put a piece of the heart memory of Hiei he wouldn't wake up that easily."

"Why is that?"

"You have to complete his heart first. I am make his heart memory is whole again. He cannot live with parts of his life unknown to him he needs his whole heart and memory to live."

"So if his heart will never be completed again what will happen?" Yusuke asked.

"Hiei will remain asleep forever. Till his heart will be whole once again." Koenma answered.

"So you mean to tell me that, this tear gem is a piece of the heart and memory of Hiei?" Kurama got the tear gem back form Botan.

"Yes, you better place this tear gem back to Hiei now." Botan said. Kurama nodded. He went to his room together with Yusuke, Botan, Koenma, and Kuwabara. They all saw Hiei sleeping, but he was not breathing.

"You have to put it, in where he was stabbed." Botan told Kurama.

Kurama nodded.

Kurama placed the tear gem above the part where Hiei was stabbed in his heart. The body of Hiei quickly absorbed the tear gem of Hiei. Kurama held the hand of Hiei tight, the hand of Hiei was cold but slowly it became warm. Hiei was breathing again, but he was still asleep.

"He is breathing again." Kurama was smiling now, he was happy to know that his best friend wouldn't die.

Yusuke, Botan, Koenma and Kuwabara had smiles on there faces now just like Kurama.

"Let's go downstairs shall we?" Kurama closed the door behind him leaving Hiei asleep in his bed.

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Once they were all downstairs Yusuke and Kuwabara couldn't help but ask more questions about the Lost Heart. "Botan, how come the heart of Hiei is tear gems?" Kuwabara asked.

"Umm…let me see…I think its because Hiei doesn't show his feeling very well he keeps it all to himself, he doesn't really express himself freely like we do, so all his emotions are all trapped inside like the tear gems. His heart memory is not made of tear gems it just transformed into tear gems; I think maybe it just suits him maybe that's why…" Botan explained.

Kurama was making snacks for his visitors, he did call them late at night they deserved some food or hospitality while they are there.

"The point here is we have to get all Hiei's lost tear gems back or Hiei will never be awaken again." Koenma went straight to the point.

"Why do we need that shrimp anyway? He is nothing but trouble." Kuwabara said.

"Kuwabara, how can you say that? Hiei is still our friend you know." Botan said.

"Hmph, I still don't think he is worth it." Kuwabara said.

Kurama arrived with all the snacks and drinks, they all ate including Kurama he didn't have dinner.

"So we better start looking for the tear gems of Hiei by tomorrow, better get a good shut eye. It will be hard looking for it, it's very small." Yusuke said.

"It's not that hard to look for it as long as you are familiar with Hiei's spirit energy. It's basically same, so when you pick up any spirit energy similar to Hiei's that's his tear gem." Koenma said.

"Okay then. We'll start tomorrow. Kurama agreed?" Yusuke said.

"Yeah. Thanks guys very much on the behalf of Hiei." Kurama smiled again.

"There is no need to thank us, we are your friends and as friends we should help out one another." Botan said cheerfully.

"I still think he should be left alone." Kuwabara murmured.

"What? What was that?" Botan said out loud.

"Uhhh…no nothing, I just said yeah we should rescue Hiei!" Kuwabara was being sarcastic.

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Everyone soon left; Kurama was again left alone at home with Hiei. Kurama quickly cleaned the living room, as soon as he was finished he went to his room to look after Hiei. He went closer to Hiei and held his hand tight, he was happy that Hiei was safe and he was not going to die. Kurama didn't cry anymore, he just stayed beside his fire demon. He held Hiei's hand with both of his hands.

"Sorry again Hiei, sorry that I didn't have a chance to protect you. I am very sorry. At least now your safe and you won't die; I promise you that I will retrieve all your memories back I swear I will. I should have told you, before this happened that I loved you. I love you Hiei, so so much I know that you treat me only as a friend but I see you more than just that and I am glad that I met you, I am very happy that I became your partner, friend, or even best friend." Kurama whispered this to Hiei's sleeping body.

Kurama hugged Hiei once again, and he kissed him on his forehead.

"I hope that your dreaming of a nice dream Hiei, I don't want you to get worried. Good night, my fire demon." Kurama slowly drifted to sleep. He fell asleep beside Hiei, he was still holding his hand tight, not wanting to let go.

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"Mukuro, what if Kurama doesn't succeed will you find another heir?" Yomi asked.

"No, because that will never happen Hiei will return to his normal self again and I am sure of that. I will not look for another heir."

"You put a whole lot of faith in the both of them do you?"

"My dear that is the power of love. Love can over come anything." Mukuro smiled.

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Black Dragon Tsubasa: So what do you think? I have to turn in now its 3:05am I have to sleep. I didn't edit it, so please comment in my grammar. (Yawns) Okay there. Reviews please! (Falls to sleep).