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Lost Memories
Chapter 8- Back to the Painful Past
"What do you mean Koenma?" Kurama was eager to know what Koenma meant by he had a bad news about the Tear gems, because everything seems to be doing fine, they just need to search for the Tear gems harder able to find all of the them, so what is Koenma talking about?
"Kurama, Yukina, everyone…" Koenma first turned to Kurama then to Yukina and then to everyone else in the room "…as you see this search of yours wont be as easy as you think it is." Koenma's voice suddenly became lower.
"What the heck do you mean Koenma?" Yusuke asked being bothered.
"Let me first explain, and its best that all of you listen attentively especially you two, Kurama and Yukina." Koenma turned to them again.
"Okay then." Kurama said his voice was low, like he knew trouble was up at his sleeve.
"As you see, I used the spirit watch in the spirit world to look for the Tear gems of Hiei, well all the readings it was making were very accurate and the places all of you searched were the places the spirit watch has pointed, but once you got all the Tear gems in the Human world, the watch cannot detect any more energy coming form the Tear gems of Hiei." Koenma paused; he took a deep breath before telling them the rest of the story.
"So you mean we got all the Tear gems back! That's good news! Kurama aren't you happy?" Yusuke jumped for joy, he didn't know there was still more to the story.
"I wouldn't go there yet Yusuke, I am not finished yet." Koenma demanded Yusuke to sit down and listen to the rest of the story.
"I thought that you just said we got everything!"
"Yusuke shut up and let Koenma speak will you!" Genkai was paranoid with Yusuke.
"Stupid old bitch." Yusuke murmured.
"Now Koenma go on with the story." Genkai said.
"Well knowing that the readings from the watch were accurate, I thought of searching in the spirit world using the watch, and to my surprise there were few found, but only a few. My staff were the once who found these Tear gems." Koenma took out a purple Chinese box and opened it; inside the box were some of the Tear gems of Hiei. Koenma handed over the Tear gems to Kurama, Kurama accepted, Kurama carefully examined it, to see if it really were the Tear gems. In addition, it was.
"Wow, Koenma did all these come form the spirit world?" Botan asked surprised to see the Tear gems.
"Yes apparently." Koenma answered.
"What does this mean Koenma?" Yukina started to become upset.
"This means the Heart of Hiei is scattered in all the three worlds." Koenma went to the point.
"WHAT!" Yusuke shouted aloud.
"Koenma are you sure?" Kurama wanted to be sure, of what Koenma just said.
"Yes, I am afraid so."
"But how!" Kuwabara asked.
"Do you know what is the true origin of the Tear gems of Hiei?" Koenma asked everyone, he really expected the answer form either Kurama or Yukina.
"The ice apparition…Koorime." Yukina answered softly.
"That's right, now the energy of the Tear gems of Hiei is attracted to its origin or it went back to its roots. Not all apparitions can shed Tear gems it is a rare power to have. Hiei is half ice demon and half fire demon, but he takes his powers more of a fire demon, but he still has some special abilities only a Koorime can posses. An example is the shedding of Tear gems, but an normal ice maiden would have shed a blue Tear gem for it represents its birth, but for Hiei knowing that he is partly a fire demon the color of his is red with the mixture of black, its all combined. The Tear gem is from the ice demon or his mother and the color is form the fire demon from his father." Koenma stopped, and took a breath.
"So you mean to say that whatever abilities both the parents of Hiei has Hiei also posses them only they are combined?" Botan wanted to be clear.
"Yes, that is why he was called the Forbidden one in the ice island of Koorime." Koenma said.
"Koenma you mean to tell us that the Tear gems has sent off to the land of it origin or the ice apparition island where he was born. And now we have to look for it there?" Kurama asked.
"Yes that is exactly it." Koenma said.
"Do you know where the floating island is?" Yusuke asked Koenma.
"That's the hard part in this search, not only do you have to search for Hiei's Tear gems but you also have to look for the island where the Koorime's live, its hard to look for it for it is hidden well in the sky. Moreover, men are strictly prohibited to even enter the island. Maybe you know Yukina?" Koenma asked.
"I know where the island is. Before I knew about my Oinisan I used to live there, I know where it is so there is no problem with looking for the island." Yukina said offering help.
"That would really be nice Yukina, thank you." Kurama smiled at her.
"Of course, anything for my Onisan." Yukina smiled back.
"Yes there will be no problem in looking for the island now, but I don't think that the Koorime's would be glad to see you again Yukina, after you left in search for your brother, you just abandoned your own people and once you come back I don't think that they would be too happy to see you again. It may be hard to get in." Koenma said.
"Don't worry; Kuwabara and I are going to distract those bitches while Kurama and Yukina look for the Tear gems alright?" Yusuke seemed excited with what is going to happen.
"Yusuke I don't think that you can outstand all those ice maidens all at the same time." Koenma said.
"Hey! Do not forget that I am a demon too! I have demon S class blood running through my veins." Yusuke reminded them.
"I guess so, so when do you plan to go there? Kurama?" Koenma turned to the fox demon that seemed to be in deep thought.
"Tomorrow." Kurama said straight.
"Okay, but who is coming with you?"
"Me!" Yusuke volunteered first.
"If Urameshi is going so am I!" Kuwabara said.
"I have to go I must save my Onisan…" Yukina said softly.
"I wont, I need to get back to my temple." Genkai said drinking her tea.
"Huh? Why not?" Botan asked.
"You see all of you here are strong enough to face the people in Hiei's past. All you need to do is use your heads, and do not do anything stupid without thinking. And I have to play this new video game that was sent to me, just recently so I want to play it." Genkai drank her tea.
"What!" Everyone was surprised with her reason and fell of the floor.
Genkai just sipped her tea.
"So Botan you coming or what?" Yusuke asked.
"I think I will stay with Koenma in the spirit world, I will just look out for you guys okay?" Botan smiled, she did not want to be in any kind of danger so she avoided it.
"So it's Kurama, me, Kuwabara and Yukina going right?" Yusuke made sure.
"Yukina! You're coming! I am so glad your watching over me!" Kuwabara said aloud, being his normal self.
"You moron! She coming to save her brother you idiot!" Yusuke said.
"Her brother?" Kuwabara wondered.
"Oh yeah, Kuwabara is the only one who didn't know the connection." Yusuke whispered to himself.
"No nothing! It's nothing!" Yusuke pretended.
"Come' on Yusuke! Tell me! Kurama do you know anything about it? Please can you tell me?" Kuwabara practically begged.
"Uhh…Yukina?" Kurama did not know what to do, if he told him Hiei would seriously kill him for sure, but Kuwabara had to know sooner of later.
"Kuwabara, Hiei-kun you see we are…related…" Yukina said.
"What do you mean by related? How family, friends? what?" Kuwabara was impatient.
"Remember my brother the one I've been searching for? Well I found him." Yukina paused, its about time Kuwabara knew as well that Hiei was the brother of Yukina, before Yukina even knew it was only the both of them who didn't know.
"Right you said you are an ice apparition? How can you have a brother? That would only mean your brother is…" Kuwabara stopped, Kuwabara somehow figured out why Hiei sheds Tear gems, and his connection with Yukina.
"Yes, Hiei is my Onisan." Yukina half smiled at Kuwabara.
"Hiei is your brother? Does Hiei know? But you two don't look anything alike!" It was a shock for Kuwabara, but he understood.
"Like what Koenma said, we all know that Hiei is the forbidden one in the Koorime island, even for the Koorime's, that is because he had inherited the powers of a fire demon, and he is more of his father than of his mother." Botan said explaining.
"I never knew that, I didn't even know that Hiei has a sister, until Yusuke was captured…" Kuwabara thought "…but ever since then you never said anything after."
"Well Hiei will kill all of us now that both Yukina and Kuwabara know." Yusuke thought.
"What do you mean!" Kuwabara shouted.
"You see everyone knew about their connection except for the both of you, Hiei didn't want to talk about it so we all kept silent." Botan said.
"You knew! Why didn't you tell me? You knew that I was looking for my brother." Yukina did not know that everyone knew but herself and Kuwabara.
"I am sorry Yukina; Hiei didn't want you to know. He says that he is ashamed that he was your brother, that's why he didn't say anything, and we all respected him for that so we too kept silent." Kurama said apologizing.
Yukina was somewhat hurt when Kurama said these, she would have accepted her brother whoever he was, and the part that makes it all hurt even more was the fact everyone knew, and never said anything.
"Yukina I hope you understand." Kurama said.
"Its alright, what's important is what is happening right now. Now that I know, I might as well just be happy, I found my brother after all." Yukina smiled.
Everyone smiled at Yukina except Kuwabara who was still sort of out of place, now.
"So are we going to the Koorime Island tomorrow?" Yusuke asked.
"Yes." Kurama answered.
"Better get some good rest everyone. It's going to be a hard day tomorrow." Koenma said.
"Yeah I think he is right, and I have to return all these to Hiei now." Kurama took out the Tear gems.
"Uhh…Kurama can I stay for a little bit longer, I want to be with my brother you see." Yukina asked.
"Yukina…"
"Please?"
"Okay then, I am sure Hiei would also want you there." Kurama smiled.
"Genoa I can go back to the temple about later tonight, I know the way so you don't need to worry." Yakima told Genoa, Genoa was like her guardian.
"Just be careful Yukina." Genkai permitted.
"I will." Yukina said.
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After a while, everyone soon left. Kurama, Shiori, and Yukina were left. All of them cleaned up the mess. Yukina wanted to help even if she was not asked to, both Kurama and his mother are kind people and did not want to ask help in cleaning up from their guests, but Yukina insisted.
"Shuichi, why is Yukina left here?" Shiori wondered organizing the living room.
"She had to stay with her brother." Kurama said.
"Brother?" Shiori wondered.
"Mother, can you please sit down?" Kurama invited his mother to sit in the sofa.
"Yukina, you can go ahead upstairs I need to speak to my mother alone." Kurama said.
Yukina nodded. She went ahead to Kurama's room to be with Hiei.
"Huh? Shu-chan whats going on?" Shiori was confused.
"Mother, I have to confess something's to you, whatever happens you wouldn't talk until I am finished okay? In addition, do not run away or anything, I have meaning to tell you this for quite some time now; I just needed to gather up my courage to tell you. So you promise?" Kurama said hoping his mother will understand. Kurama was afraid at that moment, he did not want his mother to be mad at him or anything, he just needed to tell her the truth if not soon, now.
"Okay Shuichi, I promise." Shiori agreed.
"Mother, do you believe in magical creatures? Demons to be exact?" Kurama asked.
"Well no, I don't, as a child I did. But not anymore." Shiori did not know where this conversation was going, but she kept her promise.
"Did you know that when you were conceived with me in your womb, it was really a girl? I mean your suppose to have a daughter?" Kurama asked again not wanting to rush things.
"No I didn't, I and your father wanted to be surprised so we didn't ask the doctor what the gender my child was going to be." She answered, still she was confused.
"Well you were going to have a girl, but I changed it." Kurama said, not having eye contact with his mother.
"What do you mean you changed it? That's impossible."
Kurama took a really deep breath "Mother don't be shock with what I am about to say but you should really know who your son is, I am Youko Kurama a Fox Demon, I came from the Demon world called Makai. Before, I became Shuichi Minamino, I was Youko Kurama, some hunters had wounded me badly, if I let the bleeding go on I would have died, so I came here to the Human world, and traced the most suitable place for me to live so I can recover from the painful injury." Kurama stopped to take a deep breath.
Shiori did not say anything, she was just dumbfounded with was her son just said.
"So I took the place of your real daughter to be your son right now. Even if I am a Fox demon this is still your daughters body, the Youko Kurama is in me, and it will only be awaken if I concentrate my energy in transforming. So mother, I am still Shuichi only you knew about the Youko in me." Kurama said.
Shiori did not say a word, she kept quiet.
"Mother are you mad at me? I don't think you would accept me now." Kurama made a fake laugh, but deep down he hoped that his mother still accepted him; his mother was after all his most precious thing.
"I used to be a ruthless, cold-hearted, merciless demon, but when I came to live as your son, I learned about kindness, love, compassion, and mercy. That is all because of you, mother. That's why I love you so much." Kurama said.
There was silence in the room, it was quite long. Shiori needed to understand it all again, maybe, she did not say anything. Kurama was worried, maybe she was mad, maybe sad, or maybe she did not want to think it is true. Kurama still held high hopes that his mother was not angry. Neither one of them looked at each other eye to eye.
"Ku-Ku-Kurama…" Shiori broke the silence; she was trying to call her son with his real name.
"Y-yes." Kurama answered.
"I wanted to try out calling you by your real name…" Shiori tried to make the mood of the room a little pleasant but it seems it didn't work "…can I still call you Shuichi? After all, you are my son. Don't worry I am not mad at you, I was just surprised." Shiori smiled.
"But…aren't you angry that I lied to you, my whole life as Shuichi is practically a lie." Kurama said looking down. When suddenly he felt his mother's warm arm around him, Shiori hugged her son as tight as she can.
"Don't worry, I am not mad, rather I am happy you told me. I don't care if you are a demon or not, or if you're a boy or a girl, you're my son; I created you so I love you. I am just like any other mother who loves their children, I love you even more." Shiori said, Kurama returned the hug. Slowly both of them cried, Shiori was happy to see her son telling her about his past, she knew that Kurama loved her just as much as she did.
"Thank you Kaasan." Kurama said.
"I knew that you were going to be a girl, did you know when you were born you looked like a girl, when we discovered that you were really a boy we were all surprised, even the doctors. That's why your always so beautiful Shuichi." Shiori giggled a bit whipping the tears in her eyes, Kurama smiled. Shiori and Kurama parted, both of them smiled at each other.
"Thank you mother, it's a good thing I told you, now I feel so much better." Kurama said.
"I am your mother, there is no escaping it, besides I love you no matter what you are remember that."
"I will."
"Ah wait, Shuichi umm…I was wondering what does this have to do with Yukina being here?" Shiori asked.
"Ah well you see, you know my friend Hiei right?" Kurama asked sarcastically.
"Of course, he is the only friend you would always hang out with, well aside from your friends a while ago. I always notice that you were very close to him. I was wondering why he wasn't there a while ago…" Shiori thought.
"Well you see something terrible has happened to Hiei…"
"What? What happened to him?"
"Hiei, is also a demon mother, to be exact, he is a fire-ice demon. Meaning, he is partly an ice demon and fire demon. His heart, well it was taken away from him, and it is scattered…" Kurama stopped.
"How can that happen? Is he alright?" Shiori was concerned.
"Right now yes he is, Yukina is with him. Mother, Hiei's heart is lost and all of us I mean Yusuke and my other friends try to look for it, his heart is represented as Tear gems, Tear gems are tears that turn into stone gems, like this one." Kurama showed one Tear gem to Shiori.
"So you mean this is the heart of Hiei? Why it looks beautiful." Shiori got the Tear gem and studied it.
"No, not exactly but a part of it, we have to collect all of it. Now, Hiei is asleep, he will never be awake unless all of the pieces of his heart are back. And we are trying our best to look for it." Kurama said getting back the Tear gems.
"Poor Hiei, so if you never get to retrieve all of it Hiei will never be awake again?"
"I am afraid so…"
"Where is Hiei now? When did this happen?"
"Hiei is in my room with Yukina his sister, it happened two days ago." Kurama said.
"Why didn't you tell me sooner? I could have helped you." Shiori said.
"Sorry mother, I didn't have the courage to tell you, gomen."
"Shu-chan…you know that you can tell me anything."
"I know."
"So now, you have to continue your search till you find it right?"
"Yes, Yusuke, Kuwabara, Yukina, and myself will be leaving tomorrow, we will go to Makai to look for the missing Tear gems there, so I think I wont be back until a couple of days." Kurama said. "You see, Hiei is called the forbidden one in where he was born. He was born in the land of Koorime's, demons that are all women, they strictly forbid men, but you see Hiei's mother broke the rule. She eventually fell in love with a fire demon and made demon love, and as a result of Hiei. Koorime's can reproduce by them so he mother of Hiei was also conceived with another child and that's Yukina. When the both of them were born, all the Koorime's were afraid of Hiei he was on fire, his body was on fire; it meant he was also a fire demon." Kurama stopped.
"That's so sad of Hiei." Shiori pitied the past of Hiei.
"The elders of the Koorime now didn't want to ruin the Kooime tradition of the only girl policy so they thought of ways to get rid of him, so they threw him from the island." Kurama was just sad telling the story.
"How can they do that? Poor Hiei so what happened after that?" Shiori was absorbed by the story of Kurama.
"Now even if Hiei was only hours old, he was already smart enough to know what the elders really wanted to happen to him. Therefore, Hiei swore to himself that he would take revenge on what the Koorime's did to him. After Hiei's mother found out that he was thrown off the island, she committed suicide. Yukina found out about her brother, and left the Koorime Island to to look for him."
"Hiei, what painful past he has…" Shiori felt bad for Hiei.
"So now his heart seemed to be attracted to the Koorime land, Koorime's are the only apparitions that can create Tear gems so Hiei's Tear gems went back to the place where it originated. So we have to get them all back." Kurama said.
"What do you mean Hiei was thrown off? Is the island a mountain or something?" Shiori wondered.
"Is far worst than that, the island is a floating island. Not only is it floating its very well hidden. Luckily Hiei survived the fall." Kurama said.
"I didn't know how terrible Hiei's past can be, is it why he was always quiet?" Shiori asked.
"Well yes, he doesn't just trust anyone you see…" Kurama said.
"Oh I should be careful."
"Don't worry mother you already earned his trust." Kurama smiled.
"That's good to hear."
"So tomorrow Yusuke, Kuwabara, Yukina, and I are going to the Koorime Island to retrieve the Tear gems of Hiei." Kurama said.
"Shu-chan you be careful."
"Of course mother, I won't let myself be dead just yet." Kurama smiled.
"Let me help you, I will watch over Hiei while you are away, don't worry I will take good care of him, like he were my son." Shiori offered help.
"Thank you mother." Kurama smiled.
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"So Kurama and the others are going to the Koorime island will they? I hope they don't have trouble getting there, knowing that it's the Koorime Island, men are not allowed." Yomi said watching Kurama in his mirror.
"They are all powerful, but Koorime's are also powerful, I think with a lot of determination they will get all of Tear gems back." Mukuro said.
"Maybe. Kurama just told his mother about his life a Youko. Surprisingly Shiori want angry at him that is a shock."
"Shiori loves Kurama that's why she still accepted him, it goes same with Hiei. Even if he is the forbidden one, I couldn't care much of his background, all I want is his power, he is strong that's why I choose him as my heir." Mukuro was like a mother to Hiei, but in a rougher way not like Shiori and Kurama. However, Mukuro still treated Hiei like a son. She also wanted Hiei to realize feelings that he himself has not discovered yet that is why she agreed to Yomi's proposal to make all of these to happen.
"Lets see…"
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Black Dragon Tsubasa: Okay I know its long, but I had too the sequencing of events here was appropriate for one chapter. Well I hope you enjoy, my back hurts so as my ass, I have been seated for three hours straight. (Sigh) Well just, give me Reviews please! Grammar and spelling too!