My December

By

Nymphetamine-Nemesis

Song

My December

Lyrics

Linkin Park

Why? Why do I have to feel such pain alone?

Why did everything end like this?

This is my December
this is my time of the year
this is my December
this is all so clear

Tifa Lockheart thought to herself, as tears filled her dark eyes. She closed them tightly. Tears streaming down her paled face.

I have no one…

I don't have a home…

She coughed up a sob from deep within her throat. Her hands moving to cover her face in shame. Even though she was alone.

This is my December
this is my snow covered home
this is my December
this is me alone

I've give up anything to have some one love me..

And anything to have a real home..

And I
just wish that I didn't feel
like there was something I missed
and I

She cried out in pain. It felt like someone was trying to kill her.

Was it loneliness?

Take back all the things I said
to make you feel like that
and I

Cloud…

Or was it Guilt?

Aerith…

Just wish that I didn't feel
like there was something I missed
and I
take back all the things I said to you

Maybe both…?

Some how she thanked Gaia it happened. So she could have him to herself…

Even in death Aerith still had him.

It wasn't fair.

And I give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to…

Of course Tifa loved Aerith as her friend.

But, envy was the devil.

Or maybe it was the loneliness she was suffering from.

Nothings ever right.

Nothings ever going to change

…for me.

Tifa had pulled apart from the rest of her team. She couldn't handle smiling oh so fake anymore..

This is my December
these are my snow-covered dreams
this is me pretending
this is all I need..

She could hardly take it anymore. She screamed out. Her hands no longer on her face. But, balled up at her sides.

And I
just wish that I didn't feel
like there was something I missed
and I
take back all the things I said
to make you feel like that
and I
just wish that I didn't feel
like there was something I missed
and I
take back all the things I said to you…

"I love you Cloud.." The words echoing inside her head.

"I know you do Tifa, But, I don't feel the same…anymore." The words haunting and taunting her with every breath.

And I give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to
give it all away
to have someone to come home to..

He doesn't love me. She doesn't love me..

This is my December
this is my time of the year
this is my December
this is all so clear…

She took in ragged breaths and her entire body shook with sorrow. She wiped at her eyes, but couldn't seem to stop the tears..

Make the pain go away..

I don't want to be here anymore..

I know the truth of this..

But I don't know myself..

I want to be welcomed home and missed..

And I give it all away
just to have somewhere to go to

And I don't want to be alone anymore

Give it all away
to have someone to come home to..

She stood up. Nearly stumbling, as sobs started to rack her body again. Knowing whether or not if she'd ever stop crying.

Ever stop hurting.

Yea, yea. I know. Read and review please. Tell me if it sucked.