Woah, step back! Alibi2014 writing BB/Rae? I must have hit my head on something... Okay, it's not totally bb/rae, you can kind of decide their relationship for yourself. You'll see. (Uh, so in case it isn't clear, this isbbpov about Raven.) But worse than that... I made BB a bad guy! Who am I and what have I done with Alibi2014? Okay, woah, deep breaths... No, this actually has a story behind it. My step-grandpa died last night after a stroke, and what upsets me the most is that I can't feel that really heavy sadness. I just can't. And it's upsetting me. I wanted to write something where someone had those emotions, to see if I could get it out that way. Well, this sort of morphed, because I feel no animosity towards my step-grandpa. It's just that inability to feel what you want to feel.
Disclaimer: Blue green 9X60. Remember what that means? Eh, whatever.
Her eyes are sunken
And her lips are cold
Her skin is pale, almost white
And her breath is gone
But try as he might
Though he looks at her figure, fallen so young
He can't form the tears
He can't find the pain
He can't choke on his breath
He wishes it were denial
It's become something he's good at, but try as he might
He can't convince himself that's what it is
Or he wishes it were shock
At seeing it all happen so quickly
Painlessly, at least that was a relief
But he can't convince himself of that, either
He can only know in his heart
That she froze his heart
And cracked his smile
While he tried to smile
So now
Though he can see her eyes
Lips
Skin
Breath, long gone
He can't form the tears he knows he should
Or feel the pain he knows is human
He can only remember how he felt
When she threw taunts at him like fire crackers
And hurt his ego like only someone you want to please could
He can't find that pain
Though she gave it to him by the gallon
But now that pain
He can't find it
He doesn't care