Hey, guys. What's up? I'm so sorry it's been so long since I've updated. I started this poem a few days ago but sort of lost inspiration. Then a couple hours ago my Dad's girlfriend called to tell him her mom had just passed away. I had never met her, but I still feel bad for everyone involved. Anyway, I decided to use that for this poem. And like He Doesn't Care, this one is also not refelctive of my relationship with anyone.

Okay, important note: I've decided to stop this at 30 chapters, for a number of reasons. First of all, I'm feeling like a lot of my most recent poems are lacking inspiration and just fall a little flat. Secondly, I don't want this to continue on and on forever, because I think it'll just get sloppier. And thirdly, I've started a new chapfic, and I really want to focus on it. So there will be two more chapters after this one, and I'm going to continue writing poems as ideas hit me, and maybe post any really good ones alone, but other than that I'll probably come back in a while with another collection.

Disclaimer: I'm so tired. Wait, I'm not tired anymore. Huh. Oh, wait, I don't own anything. Now I'm tired.

Oh, and this is Raven's POV about Malchior. I'd sort of wanted to stop saying who it was about by this point, but I'm too tired to care right now.

How is it possible to miss someone so much

That you never really knew?

Someone that lied to you and used you and made you feel special

And that's what hurts the most

That he made you feel special

When you know you're not special

Not at all

But you liked feeling that way

And you miss feeling that way

And because of that

You miss him

How is it possible to feel so much

After a lifetime of not feeling and not loving and not caring

To feel so much and to deny so much

And then when it's gone

To feel it even more

It shouldn't be possible

And you hate that it is

And you hate that you'll never feel again

And you wish you never felt in the first place

But even more

You hate that you loved feeling those feelings

And that makes you hate him- and miss him- even more