Make Love to Me

Days passed for Inuyasha and for Kikyo he pretended he was happy. Actually there were times when he was happy but in the back of his mind something was wrong, out of place. The days were generally the same and it was the sameness that was getting on his nerves. It wasn't that he expected to be attacked by demons all the time but everything was so ordinary. The men told the same old tales and the women cooked the same old foods. His only real outlet was when he played with Kaede and her friends. They were always playing some new game and he was glad to join in because there was - anticipation. Yeah, he looked forward to what they would do and how he could win. For Kikyo he lived as if all was normal.

Kikyo did notice his disdain for ordinary life and was at a loss of what to do. She'd grown up in the village and knew the things that went on there and did her best to recreate that for them but maybe she hadn't gotten it right. Kikyo was slow to realize that even though she lived in the village, in no way was her life like an ordinary villager's. She was a priestess and had responsibilities, powers the others didn't. Kikyo cursed herself as she thought of how she must be getting some details wrong because she was as clueless as Inuyasha on how people, regular people lived.

Kikyo was walking in the woods when she noticed a young couple stealing kisses and that's when she knew what she had to do. It was after all why she'd made this reality for Inuyasha. She'd seen him and Kagome kissing. Well now it was her turn. They would make love and then Inuyasha would be hers - forever.

Inuyasha had just left a group of men coming in from the fields and he was smiling. One of them had been talking about a pretty girl and how she'd slapped him when he'd gotten too fresh with her. Inuyasha could just picture the mark on his face. Just that quick a face flashed in his mind and he paused trying to figure out whose face it was. It seemed familiar but it wasn't anyone from the village, shrugging he kept walking and met up with Kaede carrying a little satchel.

"Hey where're you going? We'll be eating soon." He found he was very fond of the child and was still a little surprised by it. Sometimes he felt closer to her than to Kikyo.

"Hey Inuyasha! I'm going to spend the night over at Natsuko's. Kikyo thought you two should have some time alone." Kaede's cheeks pinkened and she pulled on Inuyasha's arm until he bent down. She kissed his cheek, "Have fun! Maybe soon I'll be an aunt!" Giggling she ran off.

Inuyasha felt his own face burn at the little girl's words. Kikyo wanted to be alone with him. Well not once since he could remember had they laid down together as husband and wife. That made Inuyasha pause again. If they had been together for over a year, why could he remember being intimate with Kikyo? Even if he sometimes forgot about being human, Inuyasha didn't think he'd forget that! Again his mind flashed on someone in a hot spring - naked. It was Kikyo but not Kikyo. Had he had an encounter with someone else? And if he did, who in the hell was it? Why did she look like Kikyo?

Now he was just outside the hut and could hear Kikyo humming inside. Inuyasha thought he should feel excitement but all he felt was - confused. He shook his head and took a couple of breaths. Kikyo was expecting a special night and he didn't want to spoil it for her. Finally he steadied himself and went in.

Candles were placed around the room and something bubbled over the fire. Kikyo sat on her knees stirring and looked over her shoulder at him. Black, shiny hair had been left loose and tumbled against her back. "Welcome home Inuyasha."

He swallowed, loudly. "Th - thanks. So we're alone tonight, huh?" Inuyasha stepped fully into the room and felt himself grow warm. Kikyo was only smiling at him but it was the way she was smiling. She had definite plans for this night, for him. A shiver traveled his spine as she looked him up and down as if she'd rather have him for dinner instead of food.

"Yes. You must have met Kaede on your way home. Please sit." Kikyo picked up two bowls and began filling them.

"Let me…just wash up." He was stalling. Why was he stalling? He wanted this, didn't he? It only took a moment to clean his hands and join her. They sat face to face with the fire between them.

Kikyo asked about his day and quietly told him about hers and for a short while things were fine but then she brought him some rice wine and cuddled close to him.

Inuyasha was aroused, how could he not be with Kikyo pressing against him. Plus the wine was helping to relax his nerves. She was his wife and they were supposed to have sex and someday a family and this was the first step. Even while wrapping an arm around Kikyo and lifting her chin so they could kiss, Inuyasha's heart throbbed to think they might make a baby tonight and it wasn't the happy thought it should be.

Kikyo enjoyed Inuyasha's kiss. She could remember the few they'd shared when she'd been alive and how her heart had raced when he held her close. Using those memories Kikyo tried to respond to his touch. Inuyasha was loosening her clothes touching her skin. Oh how she wished she was alive.

Something wasn't right. Kikyo was moving under his touch but she was cold. And her heart, it should be like his own, racing but he had trouble even feeling her heartbeat. Inuyasha's hand smoothed down her neck to her breasts. Her flesh was as white as new snow and just as cold. Maybe if he...Inuyasha lowered his head and began licking her nipples but they didn't respond. Somehow he knew there should be some type of response from her body. Slowly Inuyasha raised his head and covered Kikyo's body.

"Inuyasha, what's wrong? Why are you stopping?" Kikyo opened her eyes. It was true she really couldn't enjoy this as she was but she still wanted it. She wanted to know he found her attractive and wanted to be with her.

"Kikyo…" Inuyasha pulled away from her and stood up. "Something'swrong. You're cold. I don't know if it's me or what but if I can't get a response from you then we should stop. I need you to be involved and you're not." Inuyasha had been pacing as he talked but now went to the screen. "Look, I'm going to go for a short walk. I…won't be long." He'd only glanced at her face once and like her body it was still. Quietly Inuyasha left Kikyo behind.

Kikyo sat where Inuyasha had left her. He'd refused to make love to her. She'd been unable to give him even the slightest emotions. Kikyo realized now more than any other time that she was dead. She'd been able to pretend in every other way but the closeness needed between man and woman was beyond her now. She wanted to cry but she could not even do that. What could she do now to keep Inuyasha?

Ooo, that had to hurt!Inuyasha wants more but can Kikyo figure out a way to give it to him?