AN: This is a sad little ficlet. I was sad when I wrote it. Please review. Comments and constructive criticism are welcome.
Disclaimer: I own NOTHING. So don't sue me. If you do… well. Whatever. But I do not own anything.
Warnings: Slash, and sadness.
Draco is strong. He is what I want to be.
Forever the cunning Slytherin, following what he believes, he is a spy for the order. He's got the Dark Mark, and Voldemort trusts him more than he ever trusted Snape. Maybe its because Draco has that natural charisma. The kind that makes everyone want him to be their friend and have his approval. His way of sensing what other people are feeling, and when he finds a joke they like, he can draw it out. He also has that ability, the one where he knows other people weak spots from the start.
He can be so charming, that even Hermione and Ron had forgiven him. Not entirely, but they don't hate him now.
He is so… graceful. And beautiful. I would never say it to his face, he would probably curse the shit out of me. But he is. His skin is pale, and he's incapable of getting lasting scars or zit's at all. And he's got these silver eyes that just… I can't describe it. But they're amazing. His hair is so light, and almost like feathers that it takes the softest puff of wind to blow the strands around.
He's got guts, and he's got that natural grace. He goes to the Death Eater meetings, and no one suspects a thing. I didn't think it could happen, but I think he's won Voldemort over. Not even his father suspects a thing. He doesn't let anyone know how he feels, and everyone thinks everything is just dandy with him. But I don't think everything is OK.
He's kissed me before. And done everything else with me. But lately, he seems… like he's steeling himself for something. And I know what it is, but the sad part is I cant do anything for him. I do have a 'saving people thing'. But I can't save him, and I know it. He is going to do the thing I have been begging him never to do. But he always gives me this painful look with his grey eyes.
He's going to sacrifice himself for me. He's going to go out there, and he is going to tell Dumbledore where to send me in order for me to kill Voldemort. Then he's going to attack Voldemort. That Riddle kid is never even going to know what his him. And when his back is turned, killing Draco, I am going to kill him. Maybe I'll kill him before the killing curse gets to Draco, but I don't think I can.
Draco has said to Voldemort that he is spying for him from the order, and so he is going to have it be just himself, and Voldemort, giving the secrets of the order to him. And me. I'll be there, hidden. Then Draco will attack him. Draco helped us get all the Horcruxes, so now its just him.
I hope I'll get there in time. But I don't think so. And after I kill him, I think I'm going to have to kill myself too. Because I can't live without Draco.
I love him.