Passion – After the Battle
Okay so, the third chapter! two in one day! score!
Thanks again for everyone who reveiwed, your insight and motivation means a bunch to me!
New chapter, same disclaimer!
- Kirux
Chapter Three: I Need More Affection
I didn't know what to say after that really. I wanted to tell him all of it just plain up front. Yet I didn't want to ruin what was left of our friendship. I sat up straighter, my back against his head board and looked out of his window. I must have been out for quite awhile because from what I could tell it was late morning.
"What is it that you want to tell me, Riku?" There was a tone of worry in his voice and I continued to stare out into the morning sun.
" Sora, it's not so much what I want to tell you, but rather I want you to tell me things." This was partially true, but it also gave me time to regroup myself and figure out how I wanted to word things.
"What do you want to know Riku?" He sat at the oppositeend of the bed and looked out the window also.
"After we closed the door," I watched the gulls glide by the window lazily, "and the islands came back. Why didn't you return here, to be with Kairi? Besides the whole Castle Oblivion Thing."
"Because I wanted to find you, too. I felt that it wouldn't be right to just leave you. Actually, I knew that I wouldn't be completely happy without you here. I knew Kairi would be fine without me," He turned and smiled at me, "Anyways, I had spent so much time looking for you, I wasn't going to let you just disappear on me."
"Looking for me? I thought that you had been looking for Kairi the entire time before we closed Kingdom Hearts," I was actually shocked to hear this. Whenever our paths had crossed he always asked where Kairi was. I went and found her and tried to restore her heart only to get his attention. That's the way it had always been for me. I never really liked her as I've said. I just pretended that I did to make sure Sora still had a reason to pay attention to me.
"I was, and after I found her and took her to Traverse Town,.I kinda, forgot about her. I truly wanted to find you, because we have been friends since my earliest memories," I could see him turn and grin at me through the corner of my eye, and I too smiled. Not because he was smiling, but because I was relieve to know that I had meant more than Kairi to him.
"Okay, now that that's cleared up, could you please tell me where Kairi is?" I wanted to know so that I wouldn't be surprised or interupted when she came storming through the door.
"She left early this morning for Radiant Garden. She said she didn't know when she was coming back and made me promise to take good care of you. She was really worried when you collapsed in the secret place." He frowned a little, "why were you crying?"
"Hmm?" I heard him but it didn't sink in. I was too busy doing a mental happy dance to pay attention. Kairi was gone, and now was my opportune moment to steal Sora away from her.
"I asked why you were crying back there, in the cave," he seemed agitated, "and don't even try to say it was because Kairi was leaving because both of us knows that entire bullshit."
"I was crying because…" I couldn't tell him now, not yet. I couldn't tell him about my true feelings it was to soon, "I was crying because I felt so alone. Ever since we came back together, you and Kairi have been inseparable. Sure all three of us have hung out together, but it would have been nice if it had just been us for a little while longer. So that we could catch up on things. So we could maybe share our adventures with each other."
"Riku, you could have just said so in the beginning," he looked at me as though he were hurt, "If you seriously felt as though we weren't spending enough time together you should have told me. I would have asked Kairi to give us some time alone…"
"In the beginning? In the true beginning she wasn't here, remember? In the true beginning it was just you and me. Than the meteor shower happened, and she came with it. That was when it all began. That is when you became so obsessed with her."
"Riku are you serious? You've been holding a grudge towards her since we where that young?" he sounded absolutely shocked.
"I thought you would have noticed. You always spent so much time fawning over her, like some love sick puppy. She knew she had you in the palm of her hand. Think about it, whenever she asked for something you'd be the first to jump up and volunteer to get it. The only way I could ever get your attention is when I took Kairi's away from you."
"You can't be serious!"
"I am serious Sora, and stop looking at me as though I'm some kind of twisted creature. This is how I feel! I can't hide it anymore! Sora, I was always so jealous of her! You were always with her! You never ever took anytime to be with me, and only me. The night the darkness came, when I was by the papou I thought for sure you would take my hand, but you stopped short. If you had taken it, it would have been just you and me again! We could traveled the worlds together, without her interfering all the time."
"Riku, I don't understand what you mean by all of this. Why would you want to be with just me so badly? Why couldn't we be friends and include Kairi?" he seemed so confused, and I was crying again. I felt like such a wimp, crying so much in such a short time span.
"Are you that blind, Sora? Can you seriously not understand what I'm trying to tell you? I want you all to myself! I want for it to be just you and me again so that I might stand a chance!"
"A chance at what Riku? Please just tell me!" he moved up and sat besides me, looking straight into my eyes. His eyes burned with bewilderment and I thought for a moment, hope. I knew I would never get another chance like this.
"Sora…." I whispered, partly because I was breathless by him being so close, partly because my throat was sore from yelling and crying.
I knew it had to be now. This was my opportune moment. I leaned closer to him, wrapping my arms around his neck and looking him square in the eyes. He froze as I pressed my quivering lips to his. I had waited so long for this moment and it was finally here. I saw his eyes widen with surprise, but he didn't seem to resist. I broke the kiss and slowly pulled away.
"Sora, now is my chance to love you."
BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Oh man three chapters and I finally got to that. It makes me go "OMG SO CUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTE!" and I'm the one who wrote it! Wow, I don't know how I'm gonna follow this one up. Stay tuned for the next exciting installment!
- Kirux
