A/N: The paragraphs in italic are Relena's thoughts, just so you know. Oh, and no flames please...

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing or the characters.



Prologue

Relena looked into the mirror that faced the bed. She stayed still for a moment, eyeing herself but more importantly, keeping herself from thinking about her husband. She didn't want to turn around and find that he was already gone…again. She didn't want to be alone. She wanted him to be with her.

It's been one year since I married the man they called the PERFECT SOLDIER, and I've never spent an entire day with him as my husband. I guess he was too perfect of a soldier for me. He always treated me as someone to guard and protect. I was his mission…just a mission. I don't even think he loves me. He is always accepting missions that will take him away for some time. And when he returns, he'll find another mission to accomplish.

She was a mess. Her hair was oily and stringy, most of them in knots that seemed impossible to undo, and her eyes, once clear and beautiful, were now red and dry from tears. She'd already quit her job as Vice Foreign Minister, so she now cared less about her appearance and more about the person with whom she will spend the rest of her life loving.

I'm pregnant…He doesn't know this, and I bet that he won't even care. I want my child to live in a world of love, peace and friendship, where no one would just glare at him and give him the cold shoulder. I want him to be appreciated and to be noticed. I don't want his father anywhere near him. I'll raise him myself. I don't need his help.

And so, she made the big decision. She dressed up, packed her bags, withdrew all her money from the bank, and left a letter for him to read. This was her farewell to him.

I will leave Heero Yuy…