Her Shattered Heart Chapter 3- Three Simple Words
"Yuna…" Tidus lowered himself beside her huddled, trembling form. Instantly, she shrank away coldly from his supportive gesture and continued sobbing frantically into her shaking hands. He had to calm her down…already Yuna was seemingly pale, her skin icy and clammy to the touch. She had worked herself up into an untamable frenzy of sadness, making Tidus' job all the more difficult.
"Yuna, please…" he tried again, but his plea was simply ignored. If anything, her tremors and cries increased and suddenly, he found himself at a loss for what he should do now. He had to calm her down; there was no question about it. He was the cause of her pain and therefore the only person capable of putting a stop to her emotional torture.
'Me and my stupid words…'
Tidus eyed her fraught and despaired frame helplessly, on the edge of tears himself at seeing her in such a state. He lunged at her then, engulfing her in a desperate embrace. Yuna remained limp in his arms for only a second, before realizing what had happened. Instantaneously, she began thrashing about, trying to writhe herself free of his rigid grasp.
"Please let me go…" she managed to get out, even while still weeping heavily.
"No…it's okay Yuna, I'll never let go of you again…" Tidus replied, his voice quaking with unshed tears.
Yuna's expression only saddened at this and she continued her resistance against his attempts to restrain her. She kicked; punched and scratched away mercilessly at her guardian's torso and limbs as tears carved new paths down her rather flushed cheeks.
'I…I don't believe you…'
'Liar…'
Tidus held onto the ex-summoner for dear life, wincing and yelping whenever any part of her body came into contact with his skin, but still he refused to let Yuna go despite the enormous amount of pain she was capable of inflicting.
Finally after a few minutes Yuna seemed to quiet down a little, her violent movements becoming rather sluggish and her breathing ragged from expending so much energy on attempting to escape. She was also quite weary from crying so hard.
"Why…why are you still holding me? I've hurt you…a lot I'm sure…" She whimpered softly into his chest, honestly believing that he would have released her by now. "I know…" he whispered gently in her ear, his voice cracking from the ache pounding throughout his entire body as he tried to move into a more comfortable position. "But, you have to admit I deserved that…" Tidus tried to force a rather pathetic laugh at his own expense, while Yuna's eyes simply widened in shock at his confession…he did kind of deserve it…all of a sudden she felt a new onset of fresh tears pushing at the corners of her eyes as she examined his arms more closely from where she was now trapped upright against his chest. Bruises and bloody scratch trials plaguing his toned biceps…Yuna now felt incredibly guilty for the injuries she had imposed and was about to apologize when a voice in her head halted her speech.
'No…I can't let myself fall into this trap again…not again.'
"Please don't do this…I-I'm sorry for what I did to you, but you…you wouldn't let go. I…I already know how you feel, so please…spare your concern," she tried to say firmly, unfortunately though, her stern voice was slowly being drowned out by the sobs building in her throat with every new word formed on her lips. "Even if you say that you're not going to leave me…I don't believe you, to me…they're just empty promises that you are unable to keep." Yuna felt her anger begin to boil involuntary underneath the surface, as her body tensed up in Tidus' unyielding grasp. "So spare your lies for some other gullible fool…"
Tidus mealy sighed as he tightened his hold on the young women, preparing himself to put to use the words that were so badly needed at this moment to mend the situation.
'So much to tell…and yet nothing to say…'
'Okay Tidus just try and start out really simple…'
"Yuna, I'm sorry…I honestly…never meant to hurt yo-"
"Stop," Yuna interrupted callously. "Don't sit there and say you never 'meant' to hurt me because if you didn't, you wouldn't have betrayed my trust let alone my feelings like you did."
"You're not listening to me…" Tidus argued, pulling away from her slightly in order to meet her furious stare.
"I don't want to listen to your pathetic excuses…the point is you lied to me! YOU LIED! You made promises that you knew you couldn't keep! Why! You put me through those two years of complete agony and, you tricked me into thinking that you loved me! Well I'm not-"
Yuna's abusive rant was abruptly brought to a halt when Tidus forced the gap between them closed, and violently pressed his lips against hers in a last ditch effort to make her understand how he felt. Mainly because his lousy words obviously were incapable of making any kind of difference. At first, he was just as surprised as she was at what he had just done and of course, Yuna was incredibly reluctant and tried to pull away numerous times, using her arms to try and repel herself away from his chest and out his secure embrace. Tidus, on the other hand would only push harder against her back, causing her arms to cave in under the pressure and temporarily surrender for a few minutes before venturing to break away once again.
Yuna couldn't readily admit to herself that she was indeed enjoying the kiss, as she continued to feign reluctance in hopes that he would eventually break away. She wanted more then anything to be able to enjoy it, but with every event, every word, every gesture, every movement that he had given her…that he had promised her and then broken into a thousand tiny pieces, playing through her mind at such a relentless pace, she found the idea of wanting to enjoy the kiss even less appealing. But the solution was so simple. All Tidus had to do was say those three simple yet heart wrenchingly beautiful words that would wash over her aching scars, healing them of all past damages completely. 'I love you' It was that easy.
It truly was that straightforward. And yet stillhe refused to say them.
Why couldn't he see it?
Was he refusing to see?
If so, then why?
At the sudden thought that Tidus could be so ignorant of her emotional state, Yuna immediately felt her anger begin to force its way to the surface again as it took control. With her new found strength, Yuna was able to break the kiss, and although more then a little reluctantly, she managed to meet his saddened gaze.
"Please don't…y-you lied…y-you promised me…I've told you already not to play with my feelings like that are you truly that clueless?" She looked at him apprehensively, more desperation evident in her voice then anger. Tidus lowered his line of vision to the ground; unable to even answer her question…or statement…he couldn't tell which. Yuna scanned her mind frantically trying to come up with something that could possibly grab his attention…and if she was lucky, maybe even a response.
"I-if you don't…love me then…why did you come back?" She knew that question was being a little overly dramatic, but at this point she was dying for him to show even just some kind of small acknowledgement that her presence was indeed known to him.
Tidus only tightened his arms around her back, even more livid with himself for not being to even say 'but I do love you.' He didn't know what was wrong, the words just refused to form in his mouth. His throat had gone dry and raspy and his tongue felt like a lead weight. Instantly of course, he blamed his 'asshole' father for bringing him up in such a careless and daunting environment. Maybe if he had shown him even the slightest amount of compassion, the smallest inkling that he cared for his only son maybe then, Tidus wouldn't be in this predicament. Maybe if Jecht had said to him even just once those three easy yet fantastic words 'I love you' even once,then he just might be able to return those words to the people or rather person he needed to the most at the moment with a little less effort.
Tidus was unexpectedly interrupted from silently cursing his father when he heard incredibly faint whimpers coming from nearby. Instantly upon realizing the most likely source, (AKA: the girl lying sprawled carelessly across his lap) he ran his fingers through her hair soothingly, wordlessly calming her sobs until they finally started to die away.
"Yuna…please, could you listen to me for a second?" Although quite unwillingly, after a few moments Yuna began to sit up slowly, extracting herself carefully from her guardians lap, she took a minute to compose her feelings as well as wipe away the scattered stray tears from her flustered cheeks before turning to face Tidus' rather reluctant gaze.
Tidus could tell, just by quickly glancing up at Yuna's expression that she didn't want to have anything to do with what he wanted to talk to her about, making the already unnerving atmosphere in the room even more unpleasant. It was true. Yuna didn't want to stay…it was so easy to get up, walk out the door and run away…and yet, despite all logic she found herself unable to move. She didn't want to have to endure Tidus' explanation as to why he didn't love her and that thought made her more then displeased. It would be down right excruciating!
'Don't put yourself through this Yuna…it'll only hurt more then it already does.'
But even with her minds reasoning, her legs still refused to move and remained glued to the spot. He didn't love her, so what was she still doing there? The underlining answer to that question was all too obvious, she knew. The answer was why Yuna wasn't moving…why she wasn't running…why she wasn't leaving.
She had been trapped and imprisoned by the one thing she had tried to deny countless times already…her feelings.
She loved him…
And as long as she did, Yuna knew that she would in the end, do whatever Tidus asked of her. Even after all he had done, all he had said (or rather not said!) she couldn't pull herself away. Although she couldn't confess it to herself, she needed to hear him say this…even though she may never ever hear those three simple words and instead be turned down ruthlessly, she couldn't help but still hope.
Besides, what did she have to lose?
'Come on Tidus no more running away…'
'You're only hurting her more with all of this avoidance.'
'Blaming Jecht won't help you…'
'Just whistle and I'll come running…I promise'
'Not until the end…always…'
'But you know when it is all over…we will wake and our dream will end…our dream will vanish.'
'I really did promise her…and I really did break it…I've caused her so much pain.'
'I didn't know then about what would happen at the end…'
'But…the reason I didn't tell her even when I found out is because…it would have shattered her heart.'
'Looks like I did that anyway…'
'I have to make her understand how I feel!'
'I just have to say those three simple words…'
'Otherwise I'll lose her…forever.'
"Yuna," Tidus stated, breaking the all too uncomfortable silence, making the tense air in the room lift ever so slightly. He reached his arm out to her and gently cupped her cheek in his palm, using his thumb to gingerly wipe away the tears still falling down her face. Yuna responded by leaning in a little, the warmth that radiated from his hand was incredibly inviting…but why was he doing this? She tried to search his expression for some clue to explain his actions, but he only seemed to be returning her stare blankly, clouding his true intentions, making Yuna of course all the more curious.
Nothing though prepared her for what Tidus said next…all of a sudden, his mysterious stare vanished and Yuna was hit candidly in the face with his look of pure adoration.
"Yuna…my Yuna…I do love you…so much."
A/N: Yes I have another short chapter (by my standards). Sorry guys, I have been really busy this week and I know you really want me to update so I thought that I had better post something! You'll all be happy to know though, I am on holidays now for two months so hopefully, I'll update every few days depending if I get the right amount of reviews. :P I'm glad that everybody is enjoying this so far and everybody who reviews gets a little thank-you note in their inbox and I'll also try and R&R at least one of our stories (if you have one). If you are an anonymous reviewer and you want a thank-you note, just leave you email address in the review! But I want you guys to review because you like the story, not just so you'll get an email from me, that's an added bonus:)
The plot will start coming into light in the chapters to follow, I promise. Unlike my other story "Please Tell Me" in which I had no idea where the story was going until I wrote another chapter… (Stupid, slack and unorganized of me I know) I have actually figured out the plot for this story, making it a hell of a lot easier to write (Who'd of thought:P) So I promise that the plot shall be revealed in the next chapter…these first few were just to set the mood:) It should also lighten up quite a bit in the next few chappie's as well…but don't expect it to stay that way, this is an angst story after all MWHAHAHAHAHA! But for now, look forward to some TidusxYuna fluff heading your way! Everyone please ENJOY and REVIEW!
