Sorry about all the unmet deadlines which were posted in my profile. Apparently, DSL doesn't like me much. However, I showed it! Tightened up the receiver and now the internet's working fine. Again, sorry, but now expect met deadlines unless the internet goes screwy again…in which that case I'll simply switch to Comcast. DSL has not been exactly reliable for me.

So about Chapter 11, this is the longest chapter of the entire story, I felt that I had developed the ideas thoroughly enough so that I didn't want to wait a while before I wrote the second half. Excluded from the last chapter, Terra's feelings which seemed nonexistent in the last chapter, are shown. Plus, the ending may be a surprise to you.

And so, this is where the plot twists once more for the last time in this story. Anyhow, just to clarify something for the people that did not read my comment on the chapter – BEAST BOY IS NOT DEAD. In my stories, he will never be dead as he is one of my favorite characters  Hope that makes you guys feel better.

Terrafan : Haha, it is sort of like that. Well, you'll see…

Tianimalz : Ehhhh…this is how I imagine him when he's more than a bit disgruntled – absolute anger and spite.

Pxleno52 : Thanks for reviewing. Evidently, that story is my first priority after this one is finished.

MoonComix : Not dead of course!

TerraRox : Of course!

Code Name 72261 : Lol, of course not – I would never kill him off. He may be severely injured, in a coma, or even in an infirmary where he goes flatline… temporarily of course – but never to kill him.

Tira's Host : Hahahah, I love your reviews! Thanks.


Chapter XI : Divulgence Pt 1


An eerie foreshadowing of danger rushed down my spine and yet had not reached my brain. Ironically, I held rooted upon the spot, staring at the predicament. Beads of sweat rushed down my forehead another side effect from the fear that overwhelmed me. Held by the wrists, Slade's eyes flashed with animosity impacting me with fear consequently. We both knew that Beast Boy's effort was not a defense but a sacrifice and for that reason my legs began to function once more.

"Terra, RUN! I can't hold any longer…"

And for a split second, there came to me a decision – a choice to run or to stick by his side. With time ticking, I seemed trapped within my own little conundrum. Running was evidently the most logical choice, relieving myself from a horrifying situation. Yet, although the decision would physically relieve me from impending death, it would most likely hold me down in psychological warfare – a perfidy of loyalty. To stick by his side would show loyalty, fighting along side before a probable swift death in practical honor just like soldiers who sacrifice themselves for their country. And that was when a déjà vu hit me. Beast Boy, who had similarly made such a choice was before me. And to those two selections presented before him, he chose loyalty to me, benefiting me with life but disloyalty to me at the same time by "joining with Slade". And though he had chose a loyalty, here he was before me, redeeming himself from a mistaken resolution. Perhaps then, he judged it as a lesser evil but as events came through, it projected as now the greater of evils – a mistake of his conundrum. Now, mine was before me and I felt determined to take the better choice of the two whatever result it may open to.

I summoned, without a word, a rock best I could and located to where the unconscious Titans lay. Hopping onto it, my hands glowed yellow as the rock moved. Yet preceding my final verdict of flight, I peeked a look over toward Beast Boy – perhaps for the last time of my future regrettable life. To that, what I saw before my eyes sparked terror and another insecurity of my choices – something that I knew was inevitable but I nevertheless dreaded – Slade already had managed to release himself from Beast Boy's grip. And no matter how much trepidation the certain feeling that engulfed me, I could not in my power obstruct it. Blood spilled before me in my mind prior to even seeing it and the smell of it created a nauseous feeling within me.

My last sight of Beast Boy before he was no longer within eyeshot was but a green flurry falling toward the ground.

Despite the soft breezes that blew softly against my hair, my head spun violently as I sailed on the levitating boulder causing grunts and groans to erupt from the unconscious ignorant Titans. And as I rode it, I somehow couldn't help but occasionally turn back fueled by an incessant nagging within me to see if Beast Boy flew swiftly behind me. Of course, that fantasy seemed so far in the distance, I even chuckled at myself for even contemplating such a thing. Yet, despite my previous premonitions, I seemed to hold a false confidence that Beast Boy was all right – that he had cleverly escaped Slade for he was always all right. Or at least he had to…for my sake.

By this time, the rest of the Titans had started to stir in their unconsciousness. Cyborg, being the first one, erupted in an uncannily loud yawn.

"T-terra…? What, who, wait, what…" Holding his head like a massive blow had been lain there, Cyborg continued to stutter with words. Oh wait, a massive blow was lain there, evidently, the heat ray. "Ugghh, I don't feel so good, Terra."

I smiled at him as the robot Titan attempted to recollect his thoughts. Truly, I wasn't sure who I was trying to convince that the situation was fine because it obviously wasn't. Perhaps I was attempting to reassure myself…

"I don't even remember the last thing that happened to me…ugh…"

"We were ambushed…" Raven who had obviously stirred to the conversation stuck her own opinion in, like usual – well actually, opinion was more of a fact…Afterall, in her perspective, it was her right to be angry (for once). Yet, I still couldn't help but feel some enmity toward her, for no apparent reason at all either…besides the fact that the ambush was carried out by Beast Boy. My powers grew a bit shaky as her voice sounded and the rock shook a bit.

"Woah, woah, Terra. What's wrong?" said a Cyborg with an all-knowing look upon his fact. As he began to speak, Raven interrupted him in a deadpan voice.

"Beast Boy attacked us, betrayed us, and took down the whole team…at least that was the last thing I saw…"

In disbelief, Cyborg's mouth gaped wide open. "No, no, no way. Beast Boy wouldn't have…"

"It's true, he is Slade's Third Apprentice. What I don't know is how we got onto Terra's rock."

"Why would our friend Beast Boy attack us? Is he not our friend?" Starfire who had just woken up, talked innocently and frankly, quite cluelessly.

And to that comment, a nerve was touched.

"Beast Boy saved … our lives…" I explained softly with a tint of frustration due to their ignorance. And right after that, there was a dreary silence – until I continued on. "When Slade was about to press the button that controlled the cell-splitting, Beast Boy stopped him. And it might cost his life…" Deliberately, I forced a 'might' in the sentence as if that one word might make a difference for the outcome. The last sentence came out with a teary choke because deep within I knew Beast Boy was in no position, at least the last time I saw him, for escape. Of course, I really didn't want to believe it. I now truly knew what "Ignorance is bliss" was all about.

"I'm sorry, Terra, we had no idea…but, wait, what's this cell-splitting you're talking about?"

And so, I reexplained all the events or made my best efforts to cover all that had just occurred before my eyes, every last one of them, from their ambush to Beast Boy's sacrifice, one that left me in tears. As I wiped the last of my tears away, I decided to change the subject around as to prevent anymore tears from streaming down my face. I felt pathetic and vulnerable. Plus, I'd rather not think about the situation right now…

"I-I think this is far enough. We can land now." I set my powers carefully and cautiously so as to place the rock gently upon the ground.

"Good idea, we can contact Robin to regroup and then we'll go to the Tower to cure ourselves with whatever Slade injected us." Cyborg seemed overly happy and upbeat for such a situation like this. A quick heartbeat passed by. Perhaps he had forgot about one thing – Beast Boy's predicament. Did I not just tell him about it? How can he just cast him away…?

Deciding to say nothing and calm down before an overreaction, I settled myself down on the ground.

Picking up his communicator, he attempted to signal Robin, who should have been wearing his communicator.

"Robin, robin. Do you read me?"

"Cyborg? Is that you?"

"Yea, Robin, it's me. Listen, Slade injected us with some kind of –"

"I'm aware of that already. I, actually, have something extremely important to inform you guys about the matter. The injection was zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz"

"Robin? Robin! Do you read me? You're breaking up. You're breaking up. Robin. Robin"

When the communication signal broke up, growing frustrated, Cyborg threw the communicator on the ground and grunted in extreme agitation. Events obviously hadn't came about in the greatest, luckiest fashion.

Raven, who had sat on the ground watching Cyborg and his antics commented.

"Good going. That'll help."

Taking in a deep breath, the robot teen recollected himself and his thoughts.

"It's okay, actually. I have his location. As long as he stays still over at wherever he is, we'll be fine – he can tell us what he was planning to tell us when we meet up with him."

"This is definitely wonderful news! But if it is so important, as you say, soon to be possible?"

"Soon as possible? Yea, but it doesn't matter. We have no other choice."

As they were talking, I could have sworn I heard an abrupt yell, a scream of some sort coming from the direction opposite of where I had escaped from, in other words – the direction of Beast Boy. Unexpectedly, the feeling erupted again in me, I knew the red liquid had been spilled once more.

"Terra, terra? You coming along?" Cyborg had noticed my strange pause and turned to look at me awkwardly. Starfire and Raven also did the same. Concerned, Cyborg motioned toward me and with his sturdy right arm, he waved it to and fro in front of my face in a jokingly fashion.

"It's just that… Beast Boy…"

Cyborg's questioning look upon his face quickly turned into a deliberate frown. Apparently, he grew tired of my obsessing about Beast Boy but I couldn't help the matter. Insecurity, just like the beginning, plagued my life, displaying far gone verdicts with an entirely different perspective.

"Terra, let's go. There's nothing you can do about it…"

His statement seemed so logical yet so ridiculous…Leave? Beast Boy? He sacrificed his life for us for God's sake! And you guys could care less about his wellbeing? My head grew a little hotter at the rest of the team's attitude.

"Terra, the rest of us are waiting for you. Come on."

"Cyborg, I just have to…"

"Listen, Terra, whatever happened to Beast Boy has happened. Nothing in the world can stop it much less you. We have to go." Raven's voice in the matter finally triggered the final straw.

But as I was about to rebut her reasoning, an ear-splitting shriek rung out from Beast Boy's direction. Instinctively, I began to sprint in the direction, following my ears. I had no thought, no mind about the matter, just about Beast Boy.

"Aww, man. Why'd she have to run off like that…You guys stay here, I'll go get her." Cyborg started off to a sprint following me from behind. I could hear his footsteps echo mine triggering a memory of Slade's chase after me a while ago or similarly like when I pursued Beast Boy in the pouring rain. The psychological warfare and insecurities seemed to be starting up ever-criticizing my assessment of the previous matter.

"Terra, yo Terra. Stop!"

I heard the voice, I just didn't want to stop.

"Terra!"

As my eyes grew yellow to levitate a nearby boulder as a ride, Cyborg caught hold of my leg, tripping and dragging me to the floor.

"Terra! Snap out of it! Don't do this!"

"Cyborg, you don't understand! Beast Boy's in trouble. He's screaming in pain, I heard!"

"I know, Terra. I know. But we have to go…there's nothing you can do to help him. Just leave him alone."

The final nerve was retriggered. Leave him alone? Nothing I could do…?

"YOU DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT HIM. ALL THAT MATTERS IS YOU. YOU WANT TO SAVE YOUR OWN SKIN. YOU WANT TO FIND ROBIN AND 'REGROUP'. YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT BEAST BOY AT ALL."

And apparently, his nerve had finally been struck also.

"THAT'S NOT TRUE. STOP TRYING TO BE THE HERO ALL THE TIME. CAN'T YOU REALIZE THAT HE'S NOT COMING BACK?"

"YOU DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL. IT'S THE SAME WITH SARASIM THAT YOU TOLD ME ABOUT. YOU LOVED HER DIDN'T YOU. AND YOU LOST HER. HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THAT?"

"DON'T BRING THAT UP RIGHT NOW."

I tried plenty in an attempt to free my ankle from Cyborg's grip, but my strength against his was unmatched. It was man versus machine.

"LET GO."

"NOT UNTIL YOU CALM DOWN."

"JUST BECAUSE YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT HIM DOESN'T MEAN YOU SHOULD ABANDON HIM MUCH LESS MAKE ME ABANDON HIM ALSO. NOW LET GO."

Then, in an almost soothing voice, Cyborg seemed to regain his normalcy.

"Terra, look. I do care about Beast Boy. Heck, he's been my best friend longer than you've known him. But I care about something even more, Terra. I care about your life. Don't kill yourself over this. Don't waste your life over this. Where Beast Boy is, Slade is also. He made a sacrifice for a reason, you know. Now you calm down. Let's go back. Starfire and Raven are waiting for us."

And for that moment, I did calm down toward Cyborg's big-brotherly like tone. Realizing that, Cyborg began to loosen his grip on my ankle before he finally let go and offered a hand to hold me back up to my feet. That is, until another scream rang out when I lost all my tranquility and broke out into another full sprint, only to be dragged down by Cyborg once more. With a grip that triggered pain, I grunted and gripped the wrist attempting to release myself again.

"He's dead, Terra."

I kept panting for breath even though I was held down. Struggling to move, I slowly crawled my way toward Beast Boy.

"ACCEPT IT"

I could feel his fist tighten around my ankle, and truthfully, I felt pain, yet I struggled forward.

"He's dead, Terra. Accept it. ACCEPT IT."

And to that, I finally ceased crawling ahead. My arms relaxed itself from its formerly tensed position. But although my physical state was in seemingly tranquility, my mentality buzzed restlessly for an answer to those screams that still echoed within my mind.

However, Cyborg didn't know that – didn't know my frantic state of mind, and he ignorantly let go of my ankle. I levitated a nearby boulder as transportation and hopped on it, but not before replying to Cyborg's statements.

"He's not dead until I see him dead." With that, I flew away.

"AAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGHHHH" Frustrated for the second time since he awoke, Cyborg punched a nearby rock that instantly shattered into rubble.

"Raven do you read me?"

"Yes, Cyborg, I read you. Did you talk some sense into Terra?"

"No, she flew away. We'll have to continue toward Robin as just a group of three. Go on without me. I'll catch up."

After taking one last look toward the sky, the robot teen muttered a few strange words, like some kind of wishful charm or prayer.

"Terra…please return alive…"

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So, how many times has it been since I ditched my entire team for something else when they needed me? My head grew hazy as I thought up the worst case scenarios for Beast Boy's predicament. However, the last scream was not too long ago, meaning there was a chance to save him from probable death. Yet, wasn't I flying toward one also? Did I not have Slade's injection flowing throughout my body, threatening to annihilate me in a single press of a button? Wasn't I the one who felt absolutely frightened by the prospect of instantaneous death earlier before Beast Boy sacrificed himself to save me and used the lesser evil to justify my actions – another mistake of my actions. Then, I realized what had fueled me with such inner fire. I didn't want Beast Boy to die like this and I to forever live on within the light of his sacrifice. Such psychological harm would be unbearable. That just seemed too much for me; I had to see him one…more…time. Whatever it takes; I should have chose loyalty.

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"Okay, going to try this again…"sighed Cyborg, who seemed even more tired after his wild chase. "Robin, robin, do you read me."

"zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz"

"Do…you…read…me"

"Perhaps Robin is in trouble and may require our aid?" suggested a worried Starfire.

"No, I don't think that's it Star. If Slade's wayyy over where Beast Boy, and probably now, Terra, is, he can't be in…danger… I think."

Sighing in obvious relief, Starfire replaced her worrisome look with a bright smile.

"We could have traveled more distance if it weren't for Terra as now we have to walk with you, Cyborg. Too bad she left or we could fly." Raven seemed equally agitated as Cyborg for my leaving after Beast Boy.

"Yea, I know, hopefully we can get to her in time…"

"Cy-Cyborg. Do you read me?"

"Robin? Robin! Yes I read you! Finally!"

"Listen, there is something extremely mandatory that I need to inform you guys about. It can't wait."

"Alright…go ahead…"

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After I had looked around to exact the same spot as where I left Beast Boy, I hastily landed and began my search for the green Titan.

"Beast Boy?"

That yielded no response. My hope waned a little bit partly to worry and partly to frustration. Had he ran off in an effort to escape? No, that couldn't be it. There was a scream…and it couldn't have been Slade's scream, that didn't fit.

"Beast Boy?"

My call for him, again, yielded no reply whatsoever. My eyes shifted to a downcast position afraid of what Cyborg tried to break to me the entire time. He was…dead…?

"Beast Boy…don't…don't be dead…"

As if trying again and again would yield better results, I continued my search for him when, abruptly, a voice from behind rung out in a cruel fashion.

"Dear girl, Beast Boy…is right here…"

I turned around swiftly prepared to fight whatever Slade would throw at me, but to my surprise his hands placed themselves behind his back in an almost casual way, perhaps one to lure me in a false-confidence of safety.

"No need to fight… this, after all, is what you've been looking for…"

In Slade's right hand held by his leotard was Beast Boy, who seemed either unconscious or dead. But then it struck me, there was blood oozing from his forehead like streamers. I had faced what I dreaded most – something that I knew inevitably happened ever since that cry of agony. Yet, I persisted forward only to find what I had already correctly predicted.

"You-y-you killed him. You killed BEAST BOY."

"NO, Terra, you killed him" Slade responded in an illogical response but with such certainty that it seemed to hold a convincing tone – one that itched me to believe the statement. I merely stood still unable to comprehend his meaning.

"Dear girl, do you not understand? This entire chain of events was your fault, your causing, and therefore your fault. Why do you speak to me with such…animosity…when you yourself killed him?"

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"Cyborg, I've done some analysis of the injection that he placed in me when I was captured in Slade's base, and I found out…"

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"You see, dear girl , this was my whole plan from the start. I believe the suitable word for the entire quandary is…"

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"We've been tricked, Cyborg. Worried about something that didn't exist. The injection, Cyborg, is…"

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"Fake, Terra. Everything was fake. I had put nothing in your bodies to endanger your lives. It was simply blackmail to Beast Boy to aid me. You see, we had struck a deal. Either he and you would die by the 'injection' or he would do my bidding and live as a traitor instead, but there was never any injection. He, too worried about your chanced fate, accepted my offer when there was nothing to be afraid of anyways. And here he is, Beast Boy, dead for your sake – dead as a sacrifice for nothing."

With that divulgence, he chuckled at the whole situation itself. Shock overwhelmed me. Beast Boy had sacrificed himself to save me…from nothing. The choices were falsely presented and likewise falsely chosen as the lesser evil. He agreed to do Slade's will … for no reason whatsoever. There was nothing at stake, nothing to risk. Slade had manipulated us all. Had I decided to stick with Beast Boy, we both would have survived…but I didn't, I backed out. Beast Boy, who had so boldly protected me throughout the entire time I knew him, fell to something nonexistent which could have been prevented by me if my judgment was not so corrupted…There was no evil after all. This entire chain of events including Beast Boy's death had occurred on false beliefs and premonitions and Death could have spared him if I had made the correct choice.

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"Then, if this was all Slade's plan… then we have to catch up to Terra, before she gets hurt." Cyborg, although surprised had maintained his calmness quite well, likewise with Robin.

"I'll meet you guys there, I have the locations. Robin out."

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"So Terra… do my words not ring true to you? Let me refresh your memory…You will cause trouble and suffering every place you inhabit. And, I believe, dear girl, you have made a perfect example of this for what trash lies in front of you" With that, he threw the green Titan on the ground. There was no budging or any sign of life from him…I had…I had really killed him, then…

Taking off the fake button and dropping onto the floor, Slade narrowed his eyes as if trying to concentrate the hurt even more that occurred within me. After crushing the button, Slade chuckled to himself as if my state of shock seemed amusing to him, and for that my blood boiled…

"Go on, Terra, I know you're angry. Have a hit at me. Go ahead."

His provocations continued to fuel the hate within me for him but I knew fighting him would end unfortunately for me. I acknowledged there was no way for me to fight Slade single-handedly, and that was when I noticed a familiar gadget lying on the ground nearby. It seemed used yet enticing enough for me to notice it – the heat ray.

"What are you waiting for Terra? Don't you want to hurt me for how I killed Beast Boy – wait no, that was you."

No longer being able to take it anymore, blind rage struck me and I rushed to pick up the heat ray expecting Slade to do something to prevent me from obtaining it, yet to my surprise nothing happened. Slade stood as he always did, nonchalantly with his hands behind his back – not somebody faced in gunpoint teetering between life and death. And surprisingly, that angered me further. He, at least, should have held a fearful expression. Was he not as susceptible to the prospect of death like I was? If I shared such stature and process of thought…Beast Boy would have survived.

"I-I'm going to kill you…for what you did to Beast Boy…" I aimed the heat ray at Slade's head, tensing my finger and narrowing my eyes in an overwhelming hate for him. "I'm going to kill you for that year of torture you gave to me, tricking me into betraying my friends…"

"Then shoot, Terra. Do what you must, do what you want. After all, that is how Beast Boy died isn't it?"

My index finger tensed even more to a degree where it started shaking violently bordering the edge of a shot. As I started to apply more force toward the trigger, Slade remained silent as if he knew I had not the guts to fire the weapon…

"TERRA, STOP!" A voice sounded behind me, a voice that of the Boy Wonder who finally arrived and needed to stop to catch his breath. The rest of the Titans hurried behind in an effort to catch up.

"Terra, don't do it! Killing a villain, no matter how bad he is, is against the code of a hero. Don't do it." Cyborg's face seemed genuinely apprehensive.

"Friend, please do not shoot!"

"Terra, don't do it. We're all warning you."

Robin held some disks in his hand, ready to disarm me if it did seem like I was about to fire. Yet, I knew he was more clever than that – disarming me meant Slade had an opportunity to attack or escape.

My thoughts were, however, quickly cut short by Slade's voice, who hissed like a snake egging somebody on. Yet, strange thing, he was egging me on to shoot him…? Perhaps, he truly did know me well because something inside me hesitated to shoot, not because of the Titans trying to prevent but because it was not my character to kill others…when I betrayed the Titans, I somehow, out of pity, ensured their survival although I knew it was against Slade's will. I had conveniently all beaten them into the same pit, left them just barely alive, pretending to assume they were dead or so that was what I said to Slade.

"Come on, Terra. Shoot me. Pull the trigger. Kill me like you killed Beast Boy….Murderer."

Beast Boy's name tensed my finger up causing Robin's face muscles to react likewise.

"I-I-I can't…I can't shoot him…" With that, I dropped the heat ray down and collapsed under all the pressure from Slade, Beast Boy, and the rest of the Titans.

"You will live to regret this decision, Terra…" Throwing down a smoke bomb before Robin could pursue him, Slade slipped away, vanishing when the smoke dissipated.

Immediately running over to the ostensibly deceased Beast Boy (that or heavily injured), Cyborg began to check his fundamentals, then taking his pulse. I could only watch as more tears streamed down my face.

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"She's been in the infirmary all day, didn't come out – not to eat either. She slept there also. I'm actually kind of worrying about her hygiene." Raven's deadpan voice answered Starfire's question of 'Where was Terra'. It was already one quick day that had passed since the incident with Slade, and surprisingly, things seemed to be in normality, unlike the chaos that I imagined with Beast Boy hospitalized. Apparently, nobody, especially Raven, missed his "stupid jokes". Still, it wasn't like they were through everything Beast Boy and I went through so I supposed they had no reason to be as shocked and separated from routine as I was.

"It's okay, Raven, she'll come out when she's ready." Robin's voice was always the one that sounded most logical despite how obsessed he was with Slade. Heh, just like me, obsessing over Beast Boy. I was pretty logical wasn't I? Uh, nevermind, don't answer that.

"I fear never, though, Beast Boy is barely alive, and I mean hanging by a thread plus he's heavily injured. Even with our technology, there is a high chance that he's going to go flatline," announced Cyborg who had been eating cereal and contributing to the chat.

"I fear Terra will never be the same. Much like Beast Boy never the same since Terra was turned into stone".

"Star, I don't think that'll be a problem. I think the team won't be the same without Beast Boy. That's what I'm concerned about."

"No, Robin, no I don't think so…" So I was correct, Raven missed Beast Boy least of all.

"Well, I'm going to go check up on Terra. See how she's doing," said Cyborg who had just finished his cereal.

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I, who had been next to Beast Boy's bed watching signs of life from his apparent coma, watched his heart monitor when the door opened just a creak so I could see the head of the speaker.

"Hey, Terra, anything changed with him?"

Sighing, I knew that this was more of a sympathy chat rather than a real talk between friends…how I missed Beast Boy…

"No, not really. He's just lying here…"

"Oh, okay. Well, I better go then…I think Robin wanted me for partners in weight lifting."

"Alright… wait – wait, could you call Raven up here?"

"Raven? You sure? I think you need some sleep."

"Cyborg, could you please call her up here…"

"All right, all right. Just kidding with ya. Just a sec."

I had to admit, the whole time by Beast Boy I had been musing over the truth of Slade's comments, how I actually killed him. Of course, I never told the rest of the Titans, knowing that they would simply give me sympathetic talks like the one Cyborg just gave me. Though the statement came from somebody who attempted to kill every single Titan in this tower, I couldn't help but see some of the truth that Slade was talking about. Had it not been for me, Beast Boy would have had never sacrificed himself for me, never taken the deal from Slade, and obviously, never chased me to the foster home. I had the sense that it really was my fault for Beast Boy's condition.

"Terra, you wanted…uh…to see me?"

"Raven, can I ask you a favor that you can promise to keep, one that you won't tell the Titans about?"

"Uh…Terra, what's the favor?"

"I-I-want you to erase my memory – permanently. I don't want to remember anything. I don't want to remember Beast Boy. I don't want to remember the Teen Titans, I just can't take all of this."

"What's wrong, Terra…"

"I-I just can't live with Beast Boy like this on my mind…I don't want to remember any of this…"

"Terra, it's not your fau-"

"No, Raven, it is my fault! I caused all of this. I ran after him like you told me not to. He ran after me to the foster home, he tried to sacrifice himself for me when there was no reason to, he took the deal with Slade to save both our lives when there was nothing to save. It is my fault! Please…Raven…please…I just can't…live with this…"

"Terra, I can't let you do this."

"No, Raven, please, I'm in desperation. I can't do this anymore, I can't live like this. Please, erase my memory like nothing had ever happened, like I never met you guys… you can…do that right…"

"Terra, I have to tell the others before I do this…"

"No! They won't understand, trust me. Raven, please…just…do it for me…erase my memory and leave me in a foster home…"

"And what if Slade bothers you again?"

"I don't think I want him if I don't know him. Plus I can't put you guys in danger anymore. Please Raven, I'm begging you…"

Eyes shifting to a downcast position, I could see Raven was beginning to submit to my request.

"You know…Beast Boy, if he wakes, won't ever forgive me for this…"

"I-i-if he truly loves me, then he'll understand…"

"Terra –"

"Just do it, please. As a favor, to a friend … to a Titan…"

"Alright…are you sure you want to do this?"

"Yes, Raven, I'm sure…"

"Follow me to my room."

"Just a moment. I'll meet you there."

And just before I prepared myself to leave, I bent down and gave a swift peck on the cheek to Beast Boy, perhaps my last one ever before I lose all memory. Though I knew that he probably didn't know I felt the compulsion to do it anyways, just for the heck of it. Not only that, I also felt a need to say something, as a goodbye…

"I'm sorry…Beast Boy…I'm sorry for everything that I've done. Forgive me…"

With that, I left the room, hesitantly leaving Beast Boy in the infirmary ignorant about what would soon take place.

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"Terra…" a groan let out from an unconscious Titan laying on the hospital bed. It was from a Titan that was ignorant of a life-changing event that was about to happen.

"Terra…" Beast Boy groaned again as if her name would bring her to him.

"Hello, friend Beast Boy!" intruded Starfire holding up an unnamed dessert to his face. "I heard you were groaning for your friend Terra so I have brought you some Glorbius Fruits from the distant planet of Mork! I hope you enjoy!"

"Starfire, where's Terra? Oh and are those vegetarian, since the last time I ate your 'dessert' they had some kind of animal in it…"

"I believe I shall do the shrug. Terra is perhaps in Raven's room as I saw them heading that way as I came to bring you these up…Unfortunately, I do not believe that these are vegetarian. I'm sorry…Beast Boy…forgive me."

Beast Boy's eyes widened to the last sentence.

"I'm sorry…Beast Boy…I'm sorry for everything that I've done. Forgive me…"

Starfire had triggered his distant memory and it kicked in with full throttle reminding him of the whole conversation occurring in his room – sending him in a state of panic. Jumping out of the bed and opening the door to the hospital, the green Titan ran through in a quick sprint ( which was amazing for his condition ) over to Raven's room.

"TERRA! TERRA! NO DON'T DO IT! NO, TERRA, I LOVE YOU, TERRA, DON'T DO IT"

With those words, Beast Boy yanked open the door hoping to find Terra's memory still intact – hoping he wasn't too late. Then silence overcame.

Wow, 6000 words, longest chapter for Aftermath. I should have split it into a two-parter. Oh well, what's done is done. So the next chapter will obviously be the last one and probably the shortest. It's going to come after a bit so dont' expect it to come too soon. The next months up to mid-July are extremely busy for me.