Oh my god. Seriously, its been like a year since I last updated! Can you believe that? I wonder if any of the same reviewers are still around? I just re-read TL and I am starting this story back up again ) I'll write another chapter and ya'll tell me if you want more. Its totally cool if you don't, I haven't written in like a long time so I probably suck more then I did way back when... So, please give me feedback!
Oh and S.E.R.R.D, I took your suggestion, thanks a lot it helped me tons!
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the BtVS/AtS characters. I simply just own my own made-up ones.
Buffy looked over at Nathan who was busy driving. She smiled, he was a great guy, but why couldn't she get Spike's expression from earlier out of her mind? The moment kept replaying over and over when he saw her with Nathan. Was he really jealous? Or was that just another one of his acts? she thought.
"What? Do I have something on my face?" Nathan asked, smiling.
"Huh? Oh, no. I was just thinking of how lucky I am."
"Really? I think I'm the lucky one. It seems like I'm not the only guy who likes you in this town," he said, glancing over at her.
"Who? Spike? No, its not like that," Buffy said, looking to the ground. "We just... We had a thing last year. It was nothing serious. At least to him, anyway."
"Oh, I see... Anything else I should know about you?"
What do I do? Do I tell him about Lexi? If I do, it might scare him away... But if he can't accept my daughter, then why would I be with him?
"Um, yeah. Actually, there is. Do you think we could maybe stop somewhere and talk? This is pretty big..."
"Spike, wait," Becky said, walking over to him. "Look, you and Buffy may not be on the best of terms, but talk to her. You two need to settle this."
Spike didn't say anything, he just walked out the door.
"What is it?" Nathan asked, pulling into an empty parking lot.
"Ok, I'm sorry I never told you sooner, but you have to understand that I was scared you wouldn't look at me the same way... I really like you, I do. But... It wouldn't be just me that you would be dating. Nathan, I have a daughter." Buffy looked at him, he had a stunned look on his face, staring straight out the front window.
"Wow, well... That's big news." He stayed quiet for a minute. "Is she his?"
Buffy hesitated. Can I trust him? Is he the only one I can tell this to? No Buffy, no...
She shook her head. "Her father lives back in Sunnydale. He isn't a part of her life so it doesn't matter about him."
Nathan looked at his watch. "Oh, wow... I have to get back to work, my boss will kill me if I'm late. Why don't I drop you off back at the Salon?"
A wave of sadness hit Buffy. She didn't know how he would react, but she thought that he would have at least been more understanding. He was freaking out on her, bailing on her. Now she had nobody.
No, that's not true. I have Alexandra and she is all that matters.
"Yeah, okay."
Buffy got out of the car and shut the door behind her. Nathan drove off so quickly, she never even got a chance to say good-bye. The drive back to the Salon had been a silent one, neither spoke.
She walked along the sidewalk, not wanting to go back incase Spike was still there. She just couldn't deal with him right now, she needed someone who wouldn't be smart with her, just listen and comfort her.
"Buffy?"
She turned around when she heard the familiar voice.
"What do you want now Spike? Please, just leave me alone. I'm not in the mood," she said and started to walk away.
"Wait," he said, grabbing her arm. He looked down at her hand and saw the ring he had given to her last summer. "You still have that?"
She pulled her arm away quickly and ignored the question.
"What do you want Spike?"
"I want to talk Pet," he said, his expression softer then earlier.
"Well, give me a good reason to listen to anything that you have to say and maybe I will consider."
"Because you still love me," he said.
She could feel tears forming but held them back. She could not let Spike see her cry, then he would know just how badly he had hurt her. She wasn't ready to lay her emotions out like that to him, not yet and not ever.
"Five minutes Spike, five minutes," she said. This is for you Lexi.
He nodded. "Can we go somewhere?"
They had gone back to the place that was once where they had shared their love. It had been their secret, aside from Angel, but now she knew she wasn't the only girl who had been there with him.
Sitting down, she looked over at Spike.
"Talk."
"I'm only doing this because Becky wanted me too," he said in a cocky tone.
Buffy rolled her eyes and went to stand up, but he pulled her back down beside him.
She looked over at him only to see the boy she remembered from the summer before, not this new "Spike". His eyes were gentle and he looked like he had a lot on his mind.
"Do you hate me Luv?"
His question surprised her and caught her off guard. But she quickly got herself back together and responded.
"No Spike, I don't hate you," she said and his face returned to his normal, cocky look. "I hate William for being weak and turning into a slimy snake like you. You aren't the William that I knew, the one I fell in love with last summer. I don't know what happened to him or why he disappeared. All I see now is a scared boy hiding from the truth. I don't understand it. You weren't with me in Sunnydale, but I never changed... At least not like this. I stayed true to you, and our promise."
"That's why you have a daughter, eh Pet? Staying true, yeah right," he said coldy.
Buffy looked up at him through her bangs that fell down on her face, tears in her eyes. She ignored him, she couldn't tell him the truth about Alexandra, it was better for her if she never knew her real father, he was a jerk and didn't deserve to be in her life. He had another baby now. But Buffy needed to know...
"Just answer one question, did you ever truly love me?"
Spike's eyes averted to the ground and she nodded, standing up.
"That's what I thought. Good-bye William, I'll always love you, but I will move on."
And with that, she left.
Ok, so well... What do you think? Continue or not continue? For those new reviewers, this is a sequel to my other story, True Love. If you care to read it, go ahead.. If not, the story is pretty understandable to just read from here..
