It was the morning after her talk with Spike, Buffy laid in bed staring up at the ceiling. Her mother had come in a few minutes before and taken Lexi downstairs to get some breakfast. Buffy was grateful for her mother's help, Joyce knew that being back here wasn't easy for her, even though she never said anything.
Rolling over onto her side, she faced the alarm clock that sat on her night stand. It was time for her to get up and pretend like seeing Spike and Dawn together didn't hurt her. Time to pretend like she had moved on.
I said I would move on, she thought. I never knew it would be this hard...
She just wanted to go back home. Her summer was not working out the way she had thought it would.
Buffy sat behind the desk at the Salon, doodling on a piece of paper. It was her turn to look after the phone and book the appointments, which she didn't mind, it was probably best that she didn't cut hair the way her emotions were.
"So, did you talk with Spike?" Becky asked, looking over at her.
Buffy's head perked up quickly. "Yeah, he talked and then I talked."
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" Buffy asked, smiling. "Its clearer then clear to me how over me and William are. I never had a relationship with Spike and I don't intend to, ever."
Becky was about to say something when the door opened and Spike walked in, Dawn behind him. Buffy was tempted to make a remark on the way that she was dressed but decided against it. The last thing she wanted to do was draw attention to herself from Spike.
Just play it cool, she thought, pretending to read something from the appointment book.
"Where's mum?" he asked, walking over to Becky.
"She's in the back," she said, looking up at him, then over to Buffy.
He left the room with Dawn and Becky walked over to the desk.
"Don't pay any mind to them Buffy," she said. "You can do way better then him, trust me. He isn't the same guy you remember. The best thing for you is to just move on and remember the way he used to be."
She offered Buffy a smile, but she just nodded back.
"I know," she said softly.
Buffy walked into the cabin and threw her bag down onto the floor. She had a long day at the Salon, but luckily for her, Spike had only made a short visit.
"Mom? Mom, are you home?" Buffy called as she walked into the kitchen. She noticed a note on the fridge and walked over to it. "Gone out for the day with Lexi, we'll be home around seven. Love mom," she read out loud. "P.S, dad had to go back to Sunnydale some kind of business emergency. He won't be back for a few days. Enjoy some alone time, you deserve it."
Buffy smiled. Taking care of Lexi had become her whole life, and she loved it. But it was also nice to have a break sometimes, to relax and let her body recover from lack of sleep. She collected a few things from the fridge and headed upstairs where she planned on eating until she fell asleep.
Just as she sat down and made herself comfortable, the phone rang. Slowly she got up and walked over to where it sat on the other side of the room.
"Hello," she said, grumpily.
'Buffy? Its Nathan.'
Her eyes widened and she took a seat back down on the bed. She had been waiting for him to call, but had figured that he had gotten spooked and took off. Maybe she was wrong about him.
"Oh," she said, trying not to let her excitement show. "Did you, um, want something?"
'I wanted to apologize. The way I reacted... It was wrong. But, I mean, I wasn't expecting it at all. Why didn't you tell me sooner?'
"Because I knew you would react the way you did, and I just... I liked you. I didn't want to lose that."
'We all have our secrets, I just wish you would've told me earlier. Buffy, I don't care if you have a daughter. I mean, I care... You know what I mean. What I'm trying to say is, it doesn't bother. Yeah, it shocked the hell out of me, but it doesn't bother me. In fact, I'd love to meet her. I know we haven't known each other long Buffy, but I really care about you.'
Buffy's heart melted. Is this really happening? She pinched herself.
"Ow," she said, rubbing the spot on her arm.
'Buffy?'
"Huh? Oh, Nathan... I'm really glad you called."
What is that? I'm really glad you called? Now he's going to think you aren't interested! she thought.
"She's with my mom for the day, but maybe we can arrange something for tomorrow?"
'Sounds great. But first, I'd like to hear a bit about her.'
"Ok well you may want to charge up your phone, this could take a while."
Like? I'm so bad at this.. LoL.. Um any suggestions at all to help me keep moving would be greatly appreciated. And Spike will find out about Lexi being his soon.. Sorry for the B/A fans out there, but this is going to be strictly B/S, B/N. Please review!
