Disclaimer: . . . :Cries and bolts from room:
Props: The lyrics are from 'Here By Me' by Three Doors Down, not as great as Udora but gods I love this song XD It just screams Sasunaru! 3
A/N:...So...so it's a little late...and the song is different. Who cares right! I wasn't going to do this at first, but so many people claimed it could turn into a good story, so i figured why not! Plus i had already put these up at TONFA and figured i would share them with my lovely FF readers
Key:
centered italics Song
italics memories
"speech"
/thoughts/
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Fade II
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'Cause I'm not doing so good without you.
The things I thought you'd never know about me
Were the things I guess you always understood...'
Ahh, the gift of hindsight, a humans best weapon against themselves. For Sasuke it was the same, his visits to Konoha only serving to deepen his regret. He stared blankly up at the dark ceiling, everything was dark here, no more than a dim light allowed from candles and occasional jutsu flashes. The never-ending pitch black shadows were slowly killing him, he was dying as a flower would without the light...he needed his light...he needed Naruto. Beside him Orochimaru stirred in his sleep awakening Sasuke to the reality of his life. He'd walked away from Naruto, chosen to shove the boy from him when he should have held on for dear life.
Guess I only see the truth through all this fear,
And living without you...'
It was strange how you only realized how important something was, once you lost it. Naruto was beyond his reach now, he wouldn't ever be able to hold the tanned boy in his arms, closing the gap between them for a lovers sweet kiss. Ahhh, he'd dreamed of that so many times since arriving at Sound...He didn't want to lose the boy. He wanted Naruto to want him back as much as he wanted to run back to him. Behind his eyes it itched, but he wouldn't cry, not after choosing his path on his own. He wouldn't weep for his stupidity...but he might for Naruto...for losing his light, his love...
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.'
It was probably childish, wanting to go back, indulging himself, even going as far to speak to the boy like he had a few days ago. He hadn't waited to see a reaction, he didn't want to see disgust, remorse, hate or worse, hurt, in Naruto's eyes. He didn't want to know he put it there...He wanted to remember the times when Naruto had smiled for him, the few times there were. His entire life had narrowed down to the times he could quietly watch and reminisce about the boy. Nothing else mattered, not the way Orochimaru would use him or the eyes that clawed at him fast as hands in the halls of Sound. He could lose himself, living only to think of his Naruto.
'Cause baby, I could never make it on my own
I've been waiting so long, just to hold you
And be back in your arms where I belong.'
A slow smile spread on his face as he imagined Naruto's face if he simply showed up again, he'd been tempted to many times, just go back and live there forgetting revenge and hate. He didn't need to kill his brother, he didn't need to get stronger...he just needed Naruto, his voice, his smiles, his brilliant radiance that spread through any close enough to bask in it. Sasuke used to mean so much to the boy, he wanted to mean that much still, but he knew he didn't. He'd hurt him, they were just children and he'd hurt him so much.
The bed felt colder, the body next to his felt dirtier, it was almost not worthy of Naruto to be thought of in such a place. Not even the boy's image in Sasuke's mind deserved to be near this place, much to his disgust his vision blurred as he heard Naruto's voice in his head, a memory, a ghost.
"Teme! Come on! You said you would help me train!"
"Gyahahaha! Sasu-baka! I already tried that it won't...hey! No fair, how'd you do that!"
"Hmm, you're mean and all, but I don't think you're as mean as everyone thinks teme."
"You're lonely too huh?"
"Don't call me Dobe!"
His voice, no more than a whisper was escaping without his notice as his balled fists rubbed his eyes trying to clear away the images of Naruto that were washing over him as the tears remained unshed.
But everything I've ever known gets swept away
Inside your love...'
"Look at me, Dobe..."
Damn it...He wanted to run to Naruto. Screw the villages, screw the pain they shared...he knew when he saw the boy again, it would be his Naruto. Maybe they could run away together, he didn't need any of this, not if he could have his light forever...his heart felt like it was about to burst as his love for Naruto poured through his every vein. One more time...just once more...He could take all Orochimaru could give, take all the hell that he had to, take the hate he felt from all sides, the pain and anger, the complete loss of his sanity that he felt was just around the corner. He could take it all...
/Just say my name one more time...smile at me one more time.../
"...Naruto..."
His voice echoed through the room, falling on deaf ears and dying in the silence...
And all that I'll ever be
It could all fall down around me.
Just as long as I have you,
Right here by me.'
-TBC-
