Noticing it was getting dark I got up and stretched a bit as I still felt the shadows close. I closed my eyes knowing shadows were drawn to the light. I knew so much more than people thought I did but I had to get through this on my own. I knew eighteen wasn't far away and I was going to make it no matter what as I opened my eyes.
"Papa, Mama. Allow me to escort you back to the front of the little palace. I am sure Baghra has gotten you a ride home." I said
"Ok Amira." Mother said
We started to walk towards where I sensed the shadows and I felt them leaving as if they were backing away. I felt this shadow before but when I looked at my father he didn't even seem to feel them. I wondered if I had a connection to the general as we walked. It was a quiet walk but since we were starting to have a hard time seeing I put my hands together and had light come to my hand as we walked. I could see that shadows were going faster and I figured the general had come out here to see me.
he might know now. I thought
Still, we kept walking and when we came to the training grounds I noticed it was empty, all the other tidemakers were in their rooms. I knew that there was no more hiding if I was found out and when we had light I let mine go. I knew that I was strong enough. I no longer fainted when I used one after the other, still I led them to the front of the little palace where Baghra was with a couple of Grisha Soldiers.
"I made arrangements for you both to get home safely if your daughter ever gets to meet the King and Queen you will both be there to attend." Baghra said
"Thank you for being a good teacher to her." Mother said
"Of course Amara, she's a good student and I promised your husband his child would be safe in my care." Baghra said
"She's improved well." Father said
"With much more training ahead before she could do much more in the time to come." Baghra said
I watched as they got on the horses and left to go home being followed by the Grisha soldiers. I waited until they were gone before I looked at Baghra. So many things were going through my mind when it came to her intentions for me and the future of Grisha.
"Those Grisha soldiers, aren't they loyal to General Kirigan?" I asked
"No, those ones are loyal to me. They don't want to be General Kirigan's pet. Do you still want to be his pet?" Baghra said
I scoffed at her words "Me? I'm no one's pet and I am certainly just a tidemaker." I said with a cracked smile knowing Baghra knew the truth.
"Good Night Amira." Baghra said
I turned to walk away and waved bye "Good Night Baghra." I said as I walked into the little palace.
It was dark, darker than usual like shadows were around and I stopped for a minute knowing this wasn't right. I had been feeling shadows since I was in the training area so I knew he was close by even when I wanted to ignore it. The risks were here and I knew to get to my room I would need my light. So I put my hands together and made a small thing of light as I started to walk.
Is he testing me? I thought
I knew that the shadows were drawn to the light and I could feel that I was drawn to the shadows. I watched as those shadows kept away from me while I walked but the feeling of being watched lingered. I wondered exactly what was happening when I felt someone push me up against the wall, my light still in my hands but I couldn't see them.
"Let me go." I said
No answer to my answer
I started to panic some and the sun within me responded to that as I was about to scream but then I felt something cover my mouth. I questioned if some stranger had gotten into the little palace but then I felt a hand on my arm that I could tell was wearing a ring. Having seen those who live here I realized quickly who was in front of me. When I felt his other hand on my arm of the hand that held the light it dawned on me what was going on. The shadows started to fade somewhere I calmed down and that feeling of being drawn to the shadow overcame me as I felt him start to move away.
"I didn't mean to startle you." General Kirigan said as he let me go and I closed my hand with the light
"You could have just said it was you General." I said
General Kirigan put a hand under my chin and had me look at him and I knew even if he didn't say it I was found out. This pull between us was clear to me as the sun was drawn to shadows and shadows to the light of the sun, two sides of a coin that would always be drawn to one another. I wanted to deny it all and just run but my legs would not move from where I stood.
"And you could have come to me about your powers of the sun Amira." General Kirigan said
"I.." I didn't know what to say. Years of hiding felt like a shame now and the truth was I knew he'd figured it out by how I approached the shadows.
There was a moment where I lost my sense of what I was doing and I actually got close to him as I leaned up close. The idea to kiss the one who would be eternal, my equal was something that had come across my mind a few times but as usual I chickened out as I turned away.
"Sorry, I have no idea what came over me." I said as I started to walk away
"Amira." General Kirigan said as he grabbed my wrist, pulled me back and kissed me right there in the hallway.
Part of me was in shock and the other part of me gave in as I kissed him back right there in the hall. Sun and Shadow meeting at night sounded too good to be true and of course, being a dual summoner I was not completely found out yet. If the occasion would arise that everyone finds out there was so much more that would go on. Still, I snapped back to reality fast remembering he's my superior in the army and I took a step back.
"Let me see if I have this correct. Dual Summoner, powers are possibly limitless and you know about me?" General Kirigan asked
"I.." I had no answer. "Good night General." was all I could manage
I rushed to my room with my back to the door once I had gotten in there, my heart raced a bit knowing that wasn't supposed to happen. I wondered now that he knew how long before the others found out. Would he tell the 2nd army what he found out about me and their already jealousy about how I am treated gets worse.
they would literally hate me if they knew about this...I am no one's pet but I am not his favorite either. I thought
I walked to the bed forgetting about changing as I fell on the bed and went to sleep. This night had been tiring enough and I just wanted to sleep before anything else. I wanted this to be just some nightmare I hadn't woken up from as I closed my eyes to sleep.
a dream...this has to be a dream that he kissed me..if not I will have to tell Nadia and Marie like I promised. I thought before falling asleep
