Chapter 7

You guys are probably thinking that I should have updated sooner. But I was really busy so please let it slide this time. So happy reading!

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Suze's POV

Eventually Paul went home. Which I was quite relieved about. Kissing Paul is no choir, he is a great kisser, but it seemed so wrong. I felt like all my values were sailing out the window. I felt really petty. By the time Paul drove away, my eyes were brimming with tears.

What had I done?

I wanted to make Jesse jealous, and show him that I was desired in hopes that he would admit his true feelings for me, but instead, the plan seems to be backfiring on me. Because why would Jesse sit idly by, if he really loved me? The anger he was showing was just based on the fact that his friend, was dating the guy he happened to hate most of all. Which was kind of depressing; considering that I was doing this solely for him, and he barely seemed to care.

So as I was walking up the stairs to my room, thinking about how much of a loser I am, and hoping against hope that Jesse wouldn't be in my room because I really couldn't face him right now.

But since someone clearly has something against me, and wants to watch me suffer, it so happened that Jesse was there; and by the looks of him he wasn't too happy to see me.

"Your kissing Paul Slater, you are kissing Paul Slater?" he said with such anger and venom that I was surprised that the mirror didn't start to shake.

Really, was it to much to ask to come home and enjoy a relaxing evening? Maybe take a bath, or maybe curl up under my covers and cry?

I signed. "Jesse…." I said walking towards my bed and sitting down while he continued to pace my room. "Can we just drop it, ok?" I asked.

"No we cannot drop it Susannah!" he said in such a loud voice that I was actually pretty surprised, because Jesse never yells.

'Jesse… I don't see what the big deal is." I said looking at his face for the first time. And then I decided to tell him the truth, because Jesse deserved it. But I might just conveniently leave out the part about the whole jealousy thing. "Paul is actually not that bad, and he seems to care about me…which is an improvement. Most guys just ignore me." I said shrugging.

Jesse just looked at me in shock; he stopped pacing for a moment and just stared at me. Which was unnerving since Jesse is at least six feet and all.

"Is that what you think?" he demanded suddenly. "Do you really think that boys don't notice you?" he said, with disbelief etched in his voice.

I flushed at the sudden compliment, but I knew he was merely saying it to make me feel better. "Jesse, guys don't notice me. But Paul does and he is nice to me. So I would really appreciate it if you tried to get along with him." I said because I have really been thinking about giving up on Jesse. It would be convenient, he is nice, hot, and not a bad kisser. And of course it is pretty obvious that Jesse doesn't feel the same way about me.

"Do you really think that nobody cares about you Susannah?" his voice rising and cracking with emotion.

And suddenly very angry I replied with force in my voice. "Well nobody shows it!" I bellowed. "And nobody seems to give a damn about me anyway!" I yelled my temper rising. "You ignored me! And you only started talking to me when I started dating Paul, and that was only because you hate him!" I yelled finally voicing all my pent up hurt and frustration.

Jesse just looked at me with sad eyes and an open mouth. But then he closed it, looking at the floor.

"You certainly don't give a damn about me!" I yelled, tears now streaming down my face. "Is it wrong that I want to be with someone who pays a little bit of attention to me?" I said, crying freely now.

I started to speak again, because I wanted to ask Jesse to leave me cry in peace, but he got there first.

"Susannah, I care about you. I love you." He said in a burst, like he didn't mean to say it, and by looking at his eyes I saw that I was correct.

"Jesse---" I tried to say, I was so happy. Jesse loved me! He loved me! I could sing! But before I could finish my sentence he disappeared. Leaving me more hurt than ever.

Sorry this chapter is short and sorry it took me so long to update it, but I am really busy considering school is ending soon. So if you want a speedy update, you should probably give me lots of reviews…….